I used to wait for Peter Pan by my window
Now I'm in high school and its all ****** innuendos
White lies about cookie jars
turned into police rides behind bars
And friendships that were made with such ease
fall apart and fly away with the breeze
the breeze that is supposed to caress your skin
Like a boy's hand whose heart you thought you'd win
But you're there picking up shattered remains
Of the heart you gave away to gain...
But you lose everything when you grow up
And all the sudden you have no luck
Your days of running and being free
Are replaced and you don't know what to be
You've lost all your innocence
in what seems like merely minutes...
Years fly by and your left cold
And you can't even picture the days you'll grow old
Because with you're life falling apart
and all you have left is your broken heart
you see yourself ending it now
taking one last final bow
on this stage of life you're only in act one...
and you have people telling you to hold on
WAIT...
So you do
and you'll see, its true
Those small things you hold onto
like when you saw peter pan and he flew
and you remember childhood and those small things
and hope one day to see and ring
from a new man to love
who was sent from above
and a friend you find
it all just takes time...
Time to heal the wounds you have
time to let yourself feel sad...
And peter pan can't save you now
but that doesn't mean you take a bow..
Your final act has not come
you don't get to decide, fate does.
Its hard, I know, to see
but please take it from me
Those small things count
Even in such small amounts
And time does hurt
but theres so much worth
And soon you will see your life will be
so much better than you could've dreamed.
So don't listen to the boy
who stroked your cheek and acted coy
who broke your heart
and tore you apart
and left you there to cry
It doesn't mean they all lie.
And do not let the girl
who said you had the world
make you think that you do not
when she leaves an empty spot
in your life. You will realize
that not everyone can compromise
and that not everyone is ready to grow up
people make mistakes, become corrupt
Friends will leave loves will cease
and you will be left on your knees
praying for some kind of change
asking why things can't be the same
as when you were a child
and problems were mild
But you're growing up, now entering adulthood
and you keep wonder if it would
be different had you said no to that coy boy
or that friend who used you like a toy
abused you like children do
but you will become brand new
when you find who you are
you'll see you've come far
from the child in the window wishing
and the teenager missing.
Life gets better I promise.
Believe me because I'm honest
in the way things are now
as scared as you are how
things will get better,
doesn't matter the weather
the storm will pass
and in its wrath
it will change and define you
you have no clue
how you will find
that in time
the wounds will heal
and you will feel
alive.. finally alive
You will survive.
I am not the little girl waiting
I am now the young woman chasing
her dreams and goals
and breaks all the rules
and found herself
despite how she felt
when she was weak
and saw defeat.
Now I'm ok
and I see the way
to live and be
and you will see
I'm right
don't fight
youself...
It'll be ok,
I'll show you the way...
Away from dreams of your childhood
and hoping and wishing people were good
The past is gone
and I'm not wrong
I swear you'll see
what you can  be..
Work through the pain
accept the gain
It's not the end
You DO have friends
Walk away from the window little girl
Come and see the world.

energy crystals surround her desk
drinking chai tea
and reading a book about opening chakras
her history is filled with articles about spirituality
being more connected to the earth than ever before
she’s tough and I’m aang
she’s teaching me how to disconnect
to reconnect to what actually matters
she bombards me with articles and essays
I read them all
learning more and more each second
she reads my birth chart
now she knows more about me than I know myself
sun is in 17 degrees virgo
losing sight of larger issues
I’ve sworn perfectionism
cautious by nature
Venus is in 02 degrees Leo
love is a combination of pride and respect
remaining loyal to those whom I am attached to
taking it quite serious
friendship is highly sought
such reading explained me better than I ever could
energy crystals hang from her necklace
drinking chai tea
and reading a book to me about herbal healing
we’re walking barefoot along a creek
I’ve never felt so connected
but it all makes sense

Should of been dead
Back in my old head

Misery has blessed me
As pain is my own friend

With dreams and illusions
I pack my own gun

It's used for killing
and could injure someone

Got no time for losing
Ain't got no time

And I said lord
Please save me, from my own life

I don't like my old life
Please help me lord

I ain't got no time

You're the one that’s always there.
You don’t judge, you don’t laugh and you don’t stare.
You make me so happy. No more feeling ******.

The feeling you give me, it’s unlike any other.
It’s not like a lover, mother or a brother.

You are truly one of a kind.
Such an open mind.
You see when everyone else is blind.

You know me inside and out.
Of that I have no doubt.

You never intentionally pry.
You never make me cry.
You say: “Hey, the important thing is that you DID try.”

You always make time for me.
Whether it’s about something serious.
Or “*** I've just seen Glee!!”

I bet when you see my name flash across your screen.
You think: Oh no here comes little miss drama queen!
That or: Oh ****!! Queue the ****** teen.

You love me no matter what
With everythin’ that ya got!

Even when I falter.
Hell, you endure my alter!

You’re the light in the dark.
You're helping me reignite my internal spark.
When I say: “I think I've lost it, now more than ever…..”
You say: “No sweetie, never.”

The bond that we have formed, I will treasure.
You are my big sister Sam, always and forever.

The sun isn't present today
tears are streaming down their faces
not a story to tell
my stupidity has emerged out of the blue
I was supposed to write a poem about the word "the"
but unfortunately all I could think of is the misery I am in
after I boarded a time machine and travelled into the past and realized that I wasn't present anymore

don’t tell me that you’ve heard it all
when I have yet to say a word
don’t tell me that you’ve seen it all
when I have yet to show you
I know you’ve seen many things
and have gone many places
but have you really seen it the way I’ve seen it
have you walked across the ocean
have you swam across the highway
nothing has a limit
nothing is supposed to expire
so when you tell me that you’ve loved too much
that tells me that you haven’t loved enough
because love cannot be created or destroyed
it is energy, it is light
it is energy, it is heat
don’t tell me that you’ve got no time for love
that tells me that you’ve got no time for yourself
you’ve got no time to keep up good health
love is nutritious
“I’ve never looked at it that way”
is your favorite new thing to say
but you told me that you’ve seen it all
were you really looking
were you really there
If I told you all the secrets about it
would you have listened
“no one’s ever said that to me before”
but you told me that you’ve heard it all
what will happen if you fall in love
will you say that you’ve felt this before
will you know the entire spectrum of it
or will I redefine the term you thought you knew

I do not believe in soul mates - that there is a being on this earth for you and only you.
Love is a matter of circumstance, timing and the feelings that are developed with these.
But I do however, believe that sometimes we fall in love and think 'this is it'.
This happens only once.

we are not meant to spend our lives with everyone we fall in love with.
But when you get that 'this is it' feeling, when you truly feel that -
That is the closest thing to 'soulmates' anyone can get.

It's written all over
the internet that the
color blue is a
appetite suppressor

so why is it
that whenever
i look into
your sky blue eyes
i crave your touch
more than
//ever//