you sit on the sofa
and watch tv
while i lie on the floor

and when the pain gives way
i move
on those limbs you wounded
i crawl
to your feet and look up to you

“hey, dog. come up here.”
i heave my body up
when i sit next to you
i think what i’m feeling
is definitely “happiness”

3AM
phychotic nightmare
awakened,but dead
crimson blood, where I lay
body frail, numb skin
images of grey corpse
in my sickened mind
so deranged,so ******...
home but not sheltered
a devil
a holy and sacred soul
takened from nirvana
pinned at the edge
of this disillusional world

I play this song on repeat
It reminds me of your heartbeat
gives me purpose
and my feet rhythm
Keeps me going
and reminds me that I am not leaving.

this world is so cold
but your heartbeat reassures me
to carry on and enjoy the road
That i will never be alone

i woke up this morning
desolated and suicidal
lifeless soul and dull bones

9 AM i got your call
i heard your voice
and at that moment
I remembered you are my life support

Feel my warm palm
againt your cold soul
listen to my heartbeat
the song it plays,you shall never forget

breath in my youth
allow it to sufficate you
embrace my presence
It will eradicate your pain

dive deep within my soul
i will hold you and take away all your sorrows
your sins will be forgotten
dive into me and feel pure again,not rotten

my hands will heal your wounds
my precious heart
Swallow it and you shall never feel numb
allow my energy to enlighten you
My existence will make you feel alive

tonight steal my sacred soul
and live through me for eternity
then you shall be accepted
into a world full of purity

Standing still
In this city full of forgotten souls
Cocain,popping pills
Gazed eyes flashing headlights
Going wild,instanity taking over me whole
Im breathing
But barely alive

Angel
allow me to hold ur sacred soul
Allow me to follow you into the unknown
Take me away
Lets leave this destructed land of pain
Neverland,where we will stay
And wel forever remain sane

Death,catching up to me
instantly,let me breath you in
**** me if you can
With your ****** gory hands

Darkness,follows me
I hear my fate,its caling me
Deranged, insanity
Im an animal needing to be permantantly encaged

Sickened disease
Oh Lord, please,diagnose me
Bright lights, I find my peace
Never alone
Darkened echos
Mindless groans
Break away I want to b taken
Take me away cause im a souless wreck

Trying to fight this storm
The life may leave my lungs
Wild tides breaking my bones
A blackened wound remains in my shattering soul

Nights endless
Life,lets forget this
I desire a breathtaking daydrean

My legs start to shudder
As the noise gets louder
Eching into my deafening ears
I hear gory noises
And petryfying screams and voices

Bang on the door
I roll up into a ball
Punch at the face
I hear "u are a disgrace

Suddently no sound at all
Silence floods the room
Noises,disappearing like a ghost in the night

It is 3 am
I cant seem to sleep
There I hear again
Screams,sharp pain in my ears
I close my eyes and pleading to life
Just take me away from this pychotic nightmare
Or atleast let me dream
even if its just for tonight

I laid my head on your chest                  
I listened to your heartbeat
So precious,a rhythm I want to sink in

I close my jaded grey eyes
And listened again
But carefully
Then I realized                        
Whats keeping me alive
Isnt my heartbeat
As mine is decayed
Dark

My heartbeat
Meaningless
Serves me no purpose
As I am deranged and astray.

But your heartbeat
Reminds me why im alive        
Keeps me going
Even during the darkest nights

Tonight I tried it again ,to end it all
Then I remembered the song your heart sang to my dark soul
Then I remembered my purpose
You...