I stare at words
I remember nothing
Written instructions
Is the bane of my existence?
It puts me back
To solving word problems
In school
A combination of letters
And numbers
Lost in translation
My mind is blank
And hopelessly lost
Unable to compute
These letters
And numbers

One panic attack is an eye opener
Having two mental break downs
Within two days
Is another
It’s crippling
Your whole life
Feels as though it’s crashing down
Questioning your intelligence
Second guessing yourself
Feeling so lost
Unable to understand
What others seem to get
So easily
You are out of control
Of your emotions
Unable to compose
Yourself  
That feeling of being nocked down
Once more
As you climbed so high
It’s humbling
And terrifying
Something needs to change within
Not sure if it is my
Pride or ego
But I need help
I need to not be afraid
To ask for help
For I require so much
Academically and emotionally
I wonder how many individuals
Feel this way
How long it takes to get back
On feet to where I feel
Like myself once more

All I see are words
Not language
Not sentences
Not letters
All I see are words
It all becomes a blur
Nothing is standing out
They start to blend together
All I see are words
I start to fall asleep
My brain is processing incorrectly
I stop reading because
All I see are words

Ten years ago
Three planes crashed
One at the Pentagon
Then two at the Twin Towers
This tragic event
Rendered us to feel
Vulnerable
Sad
And scared
For our life
There was no warning
That this would occur
No one prepared
For this to happen to us
Today we remember
The thousands of people that died
The brave search and rescue teams
Looking for survivors
Of this horrible scene that was laid out
In front of them
Where there seemed to
Be no hope
Now they can rest in peace
For the man that was the mastermind
Of the tragic event
Has met his justice
For the pain that he caused us
For so long
We can rebuild a new
And move on
But in the back
Of our minds
We will never forget
All of the lives that
We lost
Ten years ago