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 Feb 2015 Matthew Bourgeois
Xyns
When you decide to love me
Love me with your words
Love me with your hands
And I'll love you with all that I am
Though I'm not much...
 Feb 2015 Matthew Bourgeois
Xyns
I've spent countless hours
Searching for myself in bottles
And scraping the bottom
Hoping that I may be found there

I've spent countless hours
Searching for myself in medication
And swallowing the hardest of pills
Seeking refuge in the numbness

I've spent countless hours
Searching for myself in people
And cleaning myself after the lust
Just feeling more lost than before

I've spent countless hours
Talking others down from suicide
And hating every reassuring word
That comes out of my lying mouth

I've spent countless hours
Staring at myself in the mirror
And working on my smiles and laughs
So that they seem real and authentic

And I've spent countless hours
Regretting all these hours wasted
 Feb 2015 Matthew Bourgeois
syd
You came into my life so unexpectedly.  
The world gives us pleasant surprises, evidently.
In a life of shadows, you are a new light shining into me.
Like a flourishing canopy of trees hanging over me; you are my serendipity.  

Your warmth is at the surface of your skin; my heart is just beating too quick.  
You catch the race and calm me down, like words unspoken, we are unbound. 

I trace your skin, slowly trying to savor this sensation.
Your aura is a thriving glow, a never-ending vibration. 
You stare into my eyes like there is nothing in between us.  
Worlds apart but ties entangled within each other embark.
No walls exist with a connection of two souls like this.
  
Your eyes and my eyes laying together; locked within a bonded gaze.
As my mind and your mind are slipping from consciousness, we begin to fade.
Sleeping now, words are never needed to understand your ways.    

I can only hold you in this moment, with hope you never leave.  
I know everything is temporary, but you've always been a tease.
Everything i have ever desired right before my eyes, loose ends start to feel tied.
Every wrong turn seems like a lie; i was lead straight to you my oh, my.

In your hands my mind can only expand.

For however many seconds with you the universe has blessed upon me,  
I will twirl with the sands of time as the petals of daisies fall from my hands.  
Does he love me? Does he love me not? In a fresh garden, here in this ***.

I am sprouting up intertwining my roots with yours.
Flowers must not be mistaken for less; you Caimen,  
(the wildest wildflower of them all) are so much more.

(s.m.)
 Feb 2015 Matthew Bourgeois
ryn
.
**Crushes or
infatuations
•••don't last
••••this long.
•They're never
••this intense
•••••Never
this strong.
••I am in
thought,
••all day
and all night.
•••••Through
•••••moments of
••••••triumph and
•deepest, darkest fright.
•••I see you in all there is,
•••••I see you in everything.
••••••••Living in the present
••••but for the future I'm hoping
•••You calm and get me all riled up
••••••••••••••••at the same time.
••••••••••••You exist in metaphors,
••••••••••••••••••broken sentences
•••••••••••••and time worn rhymes.
•••••••••••••••••You give me life
••••••••••••••and take my breath
•••••••••••away altogether.
•••••••••You hold the key
to my erratic emotional lever.
•••••••••••You fill me full
••••••••••but empty me out
••••••••••••simultaneously.
••••You make me want to be
•••••••••••someone else
••••••••as well as being me.
••••••Paradoxes of the heart
•••they can never be quelled.
••••When hopes and odds
••try to be one and meld.
•••••This is how I know
••••••••that this is real.
•••••••••••••I'm truly,
•••••••••madly, deeply
••••••in love with you
•and it's all that I feel.
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 Feb 2015 Matthew Bourgeois
Xyns
Now floating up and down
I spin, colliding into sound
Like whales beneath me diving down
I'm sinking to the bottom of my
Everything that freaks me out
The lighthouse beam has just run out
I'm cold as cold as cold can be
be

I want to swim away but don't know how
Sometimes it feels just like I'm falling in the ocean
Let the waves up take me down
Let the hurricane set in motion... yeah
Let the rain of what I feel right now...come down
Let the rain come down

Where is the coastguard
I keep looking each direction
For a spotlight, give me something
I need something for protection
Maybe floating junk will do just fine
the jets have sunk, I'm left behind
I'm treading for my life believe me
How can I keep up this breathing

Not knowing how to think
I scream aloud, begin to sink
My legs and arms are broken down
With envy for the solid ground
I'm reaching for the life within me
How can one man stop his ending
I thought of just your face
Relaxed, and floated into space

*LET THE HURRICANE SET IN MOTION
Into The Ocean
I found you standing there,
in the corner of a big room.
I could see in your eyes,
you were a flower ready to bloom.

You were ready to go,
ready to see the world.
You were all alone,
just another lonely girl.

Like the moon in the night sky,
so far from the stars.
You were in need of a friend,
to help heal the scars.

And so I reached out,
and you took my hand,
and we explored the high mountains,
and put our toes in the sand.

We ran through the valleys,
and flew through the sky.
We walked through the forest,
and laughed till we cried.

We looked up at the stars,
so far yet so close,
so big yet so small,
we wanted them all.

And so we became stars.
Copyright Barry Pietrantonio
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