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1.2k · Jun 2015
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Doll Spaghetti Jun 2015
if i could
could reach the end
there would be so many things i dont understand
if i could
could try again
we could be more than friends
the world we know will always change
1.0k · Dec 2016
daydreaming
Doll Spaghetti Dec 2016
a cyborg leaps 200 feet
broken out from the facility
they're faster than him
and more persistent
but he wont go back
________

a girl
and i
both here
waiting
for summer
thinking
about
each other
daily
and nightly
912 · Jun 2015
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Doll Spaghetti Jun 2015
blank faced stone
staring at the lava from which it came
boiling white eyes
crusted, cooling hair
the changing mistress that he once was
her emotions motion the ocean
to break down his defined exterior
and reunite the blue sea with the red lake
for them to create, again
905 · Aug 2015
its now 4:27
Doll Spaghetti Aug 2015
another 4:12 goes by

my hand still stings
from the night I used it to punch through her wall
when I walked on the frostbitten sidewalk
and it broke my fall
when i got sick of hearing her talk and typed
"don't call me anymore"

those days weren't too long ago, really

i got my solace in the end that their winter's grasp dripped away from my body when your spring sun showed up
and gave way as your burning summer wildfire lit my coal'd heart
792 · Nov 2016
2115
Doll Spaghetti Nov 2016
watch silently
a day goes by in a couple hours
the night leaves in a few minutes
how many words do i speak in one day?
under 100, probably

i dont need much
a computer, a roof, some sushi, a pepsi
8 friends, 3 family, 1 wife
to make a good time last forever

the object of my passions
you'll be here in my arms
for a day
at a military fort
rebecca
790 · Jul 2015
status/tall boy
Doll Spaghetti Jul 2015
eyes sting
but not from sadness
but from reading and posting new status
from you, from them, from all the important matters

i'm just a tall boy
infatuated with blood knights and old toys
nothing too special about me
been through a girl or two and i can see
the firm belief
that you're not going to be giving me any grief
keep things simple friend, we've got the time
to avoid the overthink and read through the fine
lines that makes each other human and well
aint nobody been through this shell
or prevail with casting the spells of love on me
so you see that i will always be true
and from what i've garnered i know you will too
774 · Jun 2015
sleepless
Doll Spaghetti Jun 2015
showers at 3am
carrying dead limbs up the stairs
a moment of quiet, finally
until
the lcd screen vibrates
749 · Oct 2015
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Doll Spaghetti Oct 2015
we're hiding here in the abyss
and the world, is in flames

two star-crossed lovers reaching out
to the Beast, With Many Names
745 · Jun 2015
begin
Doll Spaghetti Jun 2015
the saccharine girl
silent nights
keyboard taps
echoed laughter
the gravel boy
694 · Dec 2016
forever
Doll Spaghetti Dec 2016
there was a boy
about 16
he found the love of his life
or so he had thought

there was a boy
about 20
she left him to die
on a sleeting february night
walking the barberton street

a year later
there was another boy
in the same body
21
who made two decisions

to love
and to serve

there was a girl
age 18
who met the boy
far away from her

she was him

they talked
they played
but he had to leave for a little bit

a little bit turned to a long bit
he saw her struggle
he kept trying
it didnt work

he kept waiting

he kept waiting

he kept waiting

he kept waiting

she appeared

he made his move

she took him back!

she made her choice
he'd made his
________
there might be more
than a mile or two
from here to there
but really
its only the distance from his camera
that keeps him in focus,
right?

_________
rebecca
686 · Oct 2018
who really are you
Doll Spaghetti Oct 2018
because its not you messaging me
672 · Aug 2015
family
Doll Spaghetti Aug 2015
am I done changing
or have the changes already occurred

are you going to wait for me
or is it too difficult to stay put

do I hate being around others
or is it a flaw I can fix

when will I feel you next to me?

when will I learn to swim across the black lake,
the final nautical miles of my insecurity

are you going to be there?
or have the waves only begun to rise...
friends and the loved one
more melancholy than usual
due to the coming tropical storm
sorry
611 · Oct 2015
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Doll Spaghetti Oct 2015
i could type anything and people would think its deep and poetic
Doll Spaghetti Aug 2015
feeling it
cornrows blasted by tulmoultous dust storms engulfing the plains
gunshot wounds to the hand
a teenager and his dad's cockfight
building split by the demolition team

can't really put it into words

my enveloping ambitions kick the family chair away from this hanged man's goal

i'll change

and finally I will be strong
574 · Jul 2015
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Doll Spaghetti Jul 2015
i sing a love song for you
564 · Jun 2015
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Doll Spaghetti Jun 2015
sun behind the glass and a thorny seat
violent crimes and violet flowers
strangers you know and friends you dont
five hour talks
an old black sock
rainbow hair
risotto and grease
another day gone
558 · Sep 2018
nine months of words
Doll Spaghetti Sep 2018
a quiet world
leaves are dropping down
through the sky
onto my clothes
walking down a nature trail
i'm holding hands with the air
tightly

coming home, there are flashbacks
no one is outside
my family is out for the night
tilting my head down low
i harvest the rest of the jalapenos
i wanted to grow with you

-

taking a bit out of one,
i wanted to see your shocked expression
and hear you say "oh my god logan"
as i'd smile and hold in my emotion
to make you laugh
i'd ask you to try it, and you would giggle and say
"no, it'll hurt"

my kisses would be painful
because of the pepper
i would laugh
as i got you something to drink

-

my wrists snap
as i lift my 30th bag of mulch
for someone elses garden
"thank you, you're a blessing"
"no problem, have a good day sir"
checking my phone,
i'd look to see if you had posted something
. . .
nothing for today
sighing, i'd recall those years we were together
you told me not to let you haunt me
but i only ever thought of you
as a blessing

-

i really do love you.
545 · Jul 2015
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Doll Spaghetti Jul 2015
needed something to say before I go
and pass away for a few hours and ressurect the lover again

this ain't the time
to be slain by the tongued daggers from former friends
from the impressionable and the gullible
run, friend
to the warm nation I govern
where all is stable
and I fight on the daily
and maybe then you'll
see
537 · Dec 2015
cocaine daughter
Doll Spaghetti Dec 2015
I discovered all the water has gone to your brain
Your womb is surprisingly dry.

How many more children will it take
To fill your empty soul.

There's an anchor at the bottom of your pelvis.

Like a bald-faced hornet trapped in amber.

Let it go.
523 · Jun 2017
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Doll Spaghetti Jun 2017
quiet marching for the present

future feelings forever frozen

ending ancient auras evil

continue on to present wedding

each of us walking forward

one of us for the other
522 · Sep 2015
3:40am [10w]
Doll Spaghetti Sep 2015
my eyes
are tubes of icy hot

piercing
and burning
520 · Jun 2015
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503 · Sep 2015
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Doll Spaghetti Sep 2015
i followed your white footprints, the enlarged distance between us

my white, frozen breath will surely melt without reaching you

you stared into the distance, and overlooked me, beyond my dreams
491 · Aug 2015
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487 · Nov 2015
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Doll Spaghetti Nov 2015
I am the one who preys on weak
I offer everything they seek
And I am the one who comes, richly endowed
Harvesting fields of crops, which others have plowed
484 · Aug 2015
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Doll Spaghetti Aug 2015
i am the strongest
480 · Sep 2016
bye logan
Doll Spaghetti Sep 2016
three young soldiers
talking about the women they love
one Friday night, in September

"i love animals and I have-"
click
"you can impress me by taking me-"
click
"don't message me if you're just going-"
click

whats the point of building up my story
if there isn't anyone that can read it

**** me, man
am I really that different from the me I was
8 months ago?
465 · Jul 2015
well
Doll Spaghetti Jul 2015
thought things would be different this time
that it all started to make sense
that the future had revealed itself

but it didnt

---

kendrick, 81's, pride, and ten hours
but really its been seventy two
454 · Jul 2015
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Doll Spaghetti Jul 2015
hey man

just came by to tell you that
everything that you hate
everything that you dislike
all the bad memories and evil people
fade away
you dont have to beat yourself up over it
or relive sad events
it wont solve anything

you're alive, aren't you?
remember that
for me
and for you
452 · Nov 2015
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Doll Spaghetti Nov 2015
its only now that i've reclaimed the life I used to live, now with one more

but wait! before you come to implore that your love (which I now live for) has dropped like my ****/death score away from this constant bore of a person i am, then please open your door and hear the lore of all the journeys I had before I met the girl whom lets me snore and pour my store of knowledge on her on my own time and loves me all the same for it

every night I say I love you
whether you hear my message or not
most of the time, I don't type it
after I saw you playing games with someone else, I felt jealousy and fear, and decided to write this instead. good night and I love you
452 · Jul 2015
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Doll Spaghetti Jul 2015
maybe this time its different
or maybe its not

i guess I'm not too bothered
either way
------

i'm always looking for new members for this circus

our first show for you tonight is the incredibly ambitious boy
he's always alone and craving attention
he who has realized his current worth and all he can be
and revels in phantasmagoria eternal
yet never steps out of his mind

next, we have a guest performer for you tonight
hailing all the way from ???
she is a gorgeous lady with a somber past and an uncertain future
never in one place too long, this disappearing act will keep you in your seat begging for more

our third act is the content boy
whom has sated his desire and no longer feels the fire burning down his house, a miracle you have to see to believe
he can spend days doing the routine he has done all his life and let the weeks pass him by and forget all he has done, not even thinking about the consequences of inactivity

the ******! the fourth act!
we have the melancholy boy!
never before have you been filled with pity quite like this!
he has realized what has happened with him, as he has done many times before!
reaching out for a branch to break his burning descent, he grabs for the girl and prays for forgiveness!

our fifth act, our final act, is weeks of silence.
our hero remembers who he is and the flaws of his character
"finally i can get some sleep"
he murmurs to himself
as he rubs his eyes,
brushes his teeth,
and eats his breakfast
422 · Feb 2018
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Doll Spaghetti Feb 2018
my descent is the story of every man

i am hatred, darkness, and despair

my descent is the story of every man

i am hatred, darkness, and despair
419 · Jan 2016
Love East
Doll Spaghetti Jan 2016
two weeks to go
pick the last meal
for the old logan
412 · Aug 2015
I can't answer you, man
Doll Spaghetti Aug 2015
do I really have to get up and go donate plasma for $20?

is it necessary for me to wake up at 8am when I have nothing to do?

will I become something more than a transient
laying in bed,
on a chair,
walking back from the kitchen and sitting back down again?

these people i have met,
are they the last performance?

while processing slow, doesn't my mind want something more?

will I become my attainable dream?

how many times can you start your personality over from scratch before you have to lock it in?

do these pieces you've obtained really make you?

does my nightly introspection bring me tears, or is it just another night of being tired?
409 · Sep 2017
what do you want me to say
Doll Spaghetti Sep 2017
a mother and her child
a man and his dog
two longtime friends
out drinking at the hole in the wall
four classmates
cramming for exams together

does my love
have to
have a
million dollar
budget
and a team of
writers
or does it
have to
be a
mutual
agreement

does it come from a shared interest
does it come from unequal concerns

why can my love be a cats head in my hand
why can my love be a fish breaking the lake's surface
why cant it just be left alone and accepted

a tide that always comes in?
a sun that always rises?

coming forth
at 3:30
AM
based on the relationship with my father, the relationship with my lover, the relationship with my best friend, the relationship with my dog, the relationship with my mother
402 · Jan 2018
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Doll Spaghetti Jan 2018
Once there was a little girl, called Little Red Riding Hood, for she wore always that red riding hood. Now her mother had made her a suit of clothing for her to wear, and this suit of clothing had been made completely out of metal. Her mother then went away to stay alone in a little cottage in the woods, and told the girl, “only when you have worn out this suit of clothing shall you come and visit me.” So the girl, nodding solemnly, bade her mother goodbye and set to work to wearing out her suit of metal clothing.

Every day, she rubbed herself against the walls of her home, so that the clothing would be worn out sooner. Every day, day-by-day, without fail she would rub herself against the walls, till her clothes became thinner, and thinner till she completely wore it out. Elated, she made some bread with butter and wheat cakes for her mother, intending them as gifts, and left her house for her mother’s cottage in the woods. Along the way, just as she was about to enter the woods, she encountered a wolf, which asked for some of her cakes and bread. She refused, for it was to be a gift to her mother. Unfazed, the wolf asked if she would be traveling via the road of pins or the road of needles. The young girl replied that she would be using the road of pins. Thus, the wolf ran quickly down the road of needles and knocked upon the door to the girl’s mother’s cottage.

“Who is it?” the girl’s mother asked.

“It is I, your daughter, come to bring you cakes and bread.”

And when the mother opened the door, the wolf killed her, eating most of her. Sometime later, the young girl finally arrived at her mother’s cottage. Knocking upon the door, she heard her mother call out in a strange voice, “who’s at the door?” “It is I, your daughter, come to bring you bread and cakes, for I have worn out my clothing of metal and now come to visit you.” “Come in my daughter, the door is not locked!” But the door was locked, and the little girl had to climb in through the little hole at the bottom of the door. Once inside, she noticed that her mother was in bed. After the long walk through the woods the girl was hungry, and said thus to her mother.

“Mother, I’m hungry, for I have traveled far and deep to this place.”

And so the reply was, “there is meat in the cupboard, that you may consume to sate your hunger.”

And as the little girl was about to eat the meat from the cupboard, suddenly a cat jumped onto the cupboard and told the girl, “do not eat this meat, for this is the meat of your mother, whom has been murdered most foul by the wolf that now sleeps in her bed!” Thus the little girl told her mother, “Mother, this cat says that it is your meat that I am about to eat!”And her mother told her, “Surely this cat is lying, for am I not alive and well, talking to you even now? So throw your stick at the cat and eat the meat to sate your hunger.”

So the girl obediently threw her stick at the cat, thus scaring it off before consuming the meat. When she had eaten her fill, she felt thirsty, and told her mother so.

“There is a bottle of wine above the fireplace child, drink it, and sate your thirst.” And as the girl went to the fireplace and picked up the bottle, a bird flew onto the fireplace and chirped, “little girl, do not drink this wine, for it is the blood of your mother that has been killed by the wolf whom now lies upon the bed.” And when the little girl said to her mother, “mother, there is a bird that says that this bottle of red wine that I am about to drink is your blood, and that you were killed by a wolf, whom now lies in your place!” And thus came the reply, “child, am I not alive and well? So is the bird lying. Throw your cloak at it, that you may then drink of the wine in peace, and vanquish your thirst.” Thus the girl did as she was told, and drank of the wine, till not a drop was left. Now when she had eaten and drank her fill, till hungry and thirsty she was not, suddenly the girl felt sleepy. Thus her mother said to her, “come child, and rest by my side. I would have you by me once more.” And the girl walked to her mother’s side and undressed. Putting her clothes of cotton and wool neatly by the side, she climbed into the sheets with mother, so as to rest. There she saw her mother, looking very strange. “Why mother,” She exclaimed, “what big ears you have!” “The better to hear you with, my child.”

Came the reply. “Why mother,” the girl continued, “what big eyes you have!”

“All the better to see you with, my child.” Came the reply. “But mother, what big paws you have!” The girl exclaimed.

“The better to hug you with.” Came the reply.

“Oh mother, what big, sharp teeth and terrible mouth you have!” The girl cried out.

“The better to eat you with!” The wolf said.

And at that, the wolf pounced upon the girl and devoured her, rending apart her flesh and bone, eating her alive, ignoring her screams.

And thus, the wolf ate the girl, sating its hunger.
jin-roh: wolf brigade
389 · Oct 2015
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Doll Spaghetti Oct 2015
You're so ****** frail
Failing for a change
You just had to know all about the world
But you will never know

'Cause no one ever told you how
Doll Spaghetti Sep 2018
this feeling doesn't go away
i feel it moving through me
i want a love I had inside
want to feel it moving through me

in dreams
i'm moving through heavy water
the love is enormous,
it's lifting me up
i'd rather be sleeping
i'd rather fall in to tidal waves
and go where the deepest currents go

i opened a mirror up
and saw a true love
i let it separate in two
the water rising up over my head

in dreams
i'm moving through heavy water
the love is enormous,
it's lifting me up
i'd rather be sleeping
i'd rather fall in to tidal waves
right where the deepest currents fall
327 · Aug 2018
a night to forget
Doll Spaghetti Aug 2018
A shot of whiskey and some wine

A life in beautiful decline

I try to run, I try to hide

Intoxicated all the time

I'll build a bridge to watch it burn

Pour the ashes in the urn

And turn away just to start again
316 · Feb 2018
body memory
Doll Spaghetti Feb 2018
i relish these quiet nights

where i stay up till' 5am

singing songs on repeat

doing what i want

with no one to interrupt me


although we've only talked a little,

shes sleeping and i cant wake her up

the joy of a possible future is still fresh

within my gut


tomorrow she'll message me

and i'll do the same things i usually do

my body memory will kick in

and we'll do this dance once again

but with another person

i'll still love it

as i did every time before

-

maybe one day i'll show her the things i write

but maybe this time, i'll try keeping everything to myself

the world seems to work better this way
jinji
304 · Sep 2018
minutes later
Doll Spaghetti Sep 2018
I can't stop looking and reading.
I keep saying it, that you've moved on.
That I love you and it doesn't stop.
I shake at work recalling our memories.
I cry at home remembering your tears.
I stay silent and watch. The dreams don't fade anymore. The mania doesn't leave. I'm at once elated and sunken.
Really, I am a fool.
303 · Aug 2017
reverberation
Doll Spaghetti Aug 2017
the winter's sky
a clear red
tightens around my frozen heart.

the fading constellations revive
sweet memories, which i should have lost
286 · Mar 2018
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Doll Spaghetti Mar 2018
never was much of a romantic

i could never take the intimacy

and i know i did damage

cause the look in your eyes is killing me

i guess you are at an advantage

cause you can blame me for everything

and i don't know how i'mma manage

if one day you just up and leave
279 · Jun 2018
unfamiliar room
Doll Spaghetti Jun 2018
once again I enter an unfamiliar room
the door locked twice and the ac started running
I laid down on a strange bed, checked the small shower
ate a lukewarm sandwich I bought hours ago
and looked for you
the memories we made in an unfamiliar room still find me
and I don't know what to do

but these are the things I do
when I think of you
I know you don't think of me
but it's the little things that I do, that remind me of you
257 · Mar 2018
runaway
Doll Spaghetti Mar 2018
and I always find, yeah, I always find something wrong
you been putting up with my **** just way too long
i'm so gifted at finding what I don't like the most
so I think it's time for us to have a toast

let's have a toast for the *******
let's have a toast for the *******
let's have a toast for the scumbags
every one of them that I know
let's have a toast for the ****-offs
that'll never take work off

baby, I got a plan
run away fast as you can
253 · Aug 2018
Beggar Hero
Doll Spaghetti Aug 2018
Paved was his road with the golden bricks,
To the glory and to the fame.
Yesterday's hero sits quiet and low.
Promises of future lies shattered like broken glass.

Lonely and crippled roaming in,
Gutters like a shadow of his past.
Reminiscing along nostalgia's lane.
Telling the children stories is his only joy.

Shyly sneaking through crowds,
Almost unnoticed passing by.
Prince of misfortunate fate is he.
Enduring poverty's yoke,
With a bitter sigh.
A Beggar Hero he is.

Once a brave captain now but a
Fallen knight of misery and pain.
Starving through days and freezing through nights.
Seeing the young soldiers walk by with a mocking smile.
241 · Feb 2018
car parts
Doll Spaghetti Feb 2018
if my car breaks down, i go out and look for some parts to fix it

if my relationship breaks down, i look for another person to replace it

i was the headlights you had been chasing for a few yearz

but within a month you had me replaced

the transmission was broke

and you blamed me

after the g6 was totaled,

you sold me out to the scrapyard

crying for a minute,

then throwing me away

you blocked all contact

refusing to hear the answer

to the questions you asked

back in december

-

so here we are

that month later

you did what i knew you would do

and i didnt act to stop it

because you never stopped to see

my oncoming traffic.
passion never makes a good relationship.
234 · Sep 2018
oceans of regret
Doll Spaghetti Sep 2018
my face burns
a flame of emotion across a clouded sky
my insides swell and heave
a ship rocks from the tidal waves
i lose my footing,
or did i jump?
Why did I do this?
I already know the answer.
-silence-

the air ripples my clothes
i fall for hours
crash.
the ocean.
i remember the feeling.
it's cold; i am solid
i cannot move
water is in my lungs
the salt stings my eyes.
there is nothing for miles
only i exist here
It isn't enough. Most life in the ocean isn't this high up.
i let out the remaining air in my lungs, and i begin to sink.

I see you.
Watching me.
we both relive our pain.
the stinging of the box jellyfish.
the pierce of an octopus beak.
it hurts.
I see our blood color the water.
The tears in our eyes, or is it the brine?
You say something.
I couldn't hear it.

I have to keep sinking.
I have to find you, see you,
Ask you.
I pull us both down.
your stinging stops, for one moment.
the jellyfish and the octopus.
is it an embrace? is it a struggle?
I hold our memories,
cradled in 8 arms.
I feel your fear.
I see my mistake.
jetting upward, I force myself up.
upward in the roiling ocean.
Why did I do this to you?
What can I do to fix it?

the octopus pulls
it pulls
it pulls it's arms off.
it can't look at itself
not with these arms
not with these eyes.
Looking back now, I really didn't see her.
I promised my heart to her, and I only gave half.
he stops moving.
floating motionless.
the jellyfish has drifted away.
he watches in silence.
she has painted new pictures.
he closes his eyes and thinks of what he's done.

the months pass
he meets the other fish in the sea.
he wastes his time.
on them.
on his hobbies.
on working.
each night he sees her in a dream, but by morning he says it's washed away.
I can't blame her.
I wasn't there.

september.
he feels himself climbing up the side of the trawler.
Maybe I can stay alone.
By myself.
Maybe I really am the devil of the ocean, and only god can redeem me.
he argues with his friends
"You still miss her, don't you?"
is what they ask.
he hesitates.
he feels the love resurging.
I am different. This time it is different.
he wakes up early and works out.
he takes on another job.
he resists the pull of the sea.

he thinks of the jellyfish and his wrongs. he wants to share his unbridled love.
I'll look.
Just one more time.
the waves, they're back
the sky is gloomy and it rains for days.
he wants to dive again.
back down to her.
he knows his mistakes and remembers hers. but it'll be different.

the ocean looks the same.
embrace the endless ocean
234 · Jun 2018
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Doll Spaghetti Jun 2018
on this heart I find
the scars I left behind
heaven lift me up
233 · May 2018
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Doll Spaghetti May 2018
Those that forever disappear
All I want is for you to talk to me
The way you used to do

Your old hymns don't touch my face
My heart moves in a new place
I am out of practice falling into love

Remember when we used to say
"I don't know" and it was okay
I am going back to knowing nothing now

Those that forever disappear
All I want is for you to talk to me
The way you used to do

If you won't be seen again
I hope you know you were my friend
And in my head the world will never hurt you
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