one match.
kindled
one infatuation

this lit match
was contained
in a jar
in the innermost parts
of my heart

i protected it with
all i had
i trusted you

which was quite sad.

one day
you broke
this fragile jar

that's when it began.

hot sizzling ambers
glow red
as the morning sun

burning intensely
giving off an odorless smoke

see,
my heart
has been now set ablaze for you

its veins produce
a scorching red
liquid
that burns at the thought of you

it does not
only hold liquids
but it holds angst

angst
since you left me
in this fiery blaze

amidst the bright flames
at the bottom
lies coal

coal.
this black ashy substance
fueling the ****** agony

coal.
from the time
you betrayed me.
when deceit seemed
to only be on your tongue of fire
coal.
when you said
our love was like an everlasting cigarette
but instead you gently blew out the light
what a lie.

the blaze rages on
destroying the memories
of what used to be

it regains strength
it heals the soil
gives light to the new

it releases
exorbitant amounts
of catharsis
i feel it

the fire
will never die
with the unfortunate truth
that you were never mine

but the only thing that will be remembered
is how much i had tried

(b.d.s.)

pierce my heart
see my lies
there is a pain that i cant deny

rest your blade
between my heart and
my eyes
and so you may see my twisted insides

love that is taken away
is more powerful
than a love that
was gently broken

a brain shattered
by loss
does not help
a weak heart

you ripped the skin
above my forehead
and dripping with blood
you watched as my body shuddered

i begged you to stop
you said no
i asked why?
you said it had been in the name of love

i believed you.

you continued to pierce
this time into my brain
you remain insistant
that all will be better soon

i screamed
and i wailed
from the agony
i could not see

but,
i believed you.

you had one final cut
left to give
you said it was your favourite
and that it would be mine too

you took your wretched blade
and made an incision in my heart
breaking everything that once held
all the memories, all the pain

that was when i stopped believing your lies.

this cut
had been just too agonizing
it cut off the circulation between
mind and body

i could no longer
feel the feelings
that i once did
i missed that

no remorse
no anger
no pain
no love

you had taken away
euphoria chaos
called love
i never could look at anyone
ever the same

that pain
never faltered
even when
you left amongst the shadows

(b.d.s.)

the sun like tiger stripes
illuminated my room
and reminded me of you

your smile was radiant too
it was like the early morning rays
will you be mine today?

your kisses like euphoric desires
fell like an eternal stream of rain
are you here to stay?



(b.d.s.)

you loved me
like the way
the sun
loved the earth

you radiated upon me
giving me
a love
i could barely recognize

but then;

your words
filled with deceit
brought waters
i have never seen before

i have come to
realize
what face lies
behind your lies

the waves
know your
deceitful secret
and keep it well

the waves begins
to fill my body
how could one
endure an agony like this?

the waves
in my mind
have thickened
at the thought of you

water fills my lungs
i gasp for each breath
i begin to suffocate
waiting on death's bed

i begin to sink downward
in a effortless spiral
my body is now calm
just like when you left me

my breathing has slowed
just like our recent lack of communication
im must be on a sedation

my corpse has become lifeless
beginning to shut down
piece by piece
the water is a sinful poison

flooded thoughts
run rampart through my soul
scrambled images
i can barely see

screams
after screams
break my thoughts
of you

i will myself
to sneak just
a tiny glimpse of you
a small bit of euphoria left

it begins
to bring an unceasing pain
that my body cannot handle

i start to perish
but;
i can't seem to let go of you
just like you said i would

(b.d.s.)