I want to write fantasy
I keep writing poety
I want to write something bigger than the truth
I write things small but heart felt
I want to write fantasy
teach lessons elusive
I want to write a story that lasts
and find these simple words
I want to write fiction holding secrets
buried links for the dedicated
This is what I write
I want to write poety?
No, no I want to write fantasy
Right?

Drowned deeply inside the deep blue ocean
I've tried my best,
To not getting back there,
it's too dark,
its's lonely,
****, I hate being there
I was so desperate,
So I've tried my best ,
To not do that again
But another person,
Spoiled it.
And one single mistake
its not my mistake,
Leads me back there,
**** it!
I didn't asked to fall in love
I didn't want her to know my feeling
I didn't want to know her feelings about me
but now its too late.
And now,
I'm back,
Inside the deep blue ocean

I long to be alone forever with just you
to have the living in my being be you
as the quietness in my soul aches for you
the singularity of everything is expressed in my seeing you
and with every tormenting thought I have of you
I hate that my inspiration is reduced to you

my only visible light was you
the air in my lungs was the aura around you
every flavor I could taste was my sense of you
a feeling too extreme doomed to outlast you
it kills me to wish I had never known how it felt to touch you
but if I could go back in time the only thing I could do
the only act of mercy would be never meeting you
instead of my every line ending with you

Sam@050717

Here i am again feeling alone
I need someone to talk to
But i think they are too busy
So it’s just me and this note app
Suddenly i just feel down
Or maybe i’m still drowning
To the hurtful feelings from the past
Or maybe i just need someone to be with me
I want to share all my plans
I want to share all of my small achievements
I want to travel with someone
I want to take pictures of someone
Someone that will know my worth
Someone that will make me feel happy again
Someone that will always remember me
Someone that will always be there