i could sit here and tell you I'm a different person from this time last year, you probably won't believe me.
i've grown and these days have changed me more than i could explain.
almost feel at ease now more so than before but waiting on edge for life to takeoff at the same time. i observe that the fragments of blue, red, and white fire have no problem taking off and flying across the sky. hate to say that I'm still waiting for my shot in life for things to start firing up and explode in color. things still feel black and white most days but i don't care anymore.  i feel haunted by this time last year, yet excited for another year to pass.

I know you will never see this
but I am sorry.

I am sorry for leaving you
at a rough time

I am sorry for causing you pain
for leaving you with regret that you shouldn't even feel.

You shouldn't feel anything
for this is my fault.

I am sorry.

you've always been ready to run.
even would sleep with your shoes on for the best jump start just in case.
newsflash: you could run for as far and as long as you want, but you're never going to be able to outrun your deepest regrets and darkest thoughts.
now you've left the state and "it *****."
when you get a chance to on the other side of the world, take your shoes off, forget the girl, and take it easy.
you will find all of your darkest thoughts and ghosts will quit haunting as soon as you stop running.

Never had a chance to hold
to be held, or to be told
Never had a chance to say
and soon you will be far away
All the things I'll never know
I must find a way to let them go