Some nights are fine.
But some nights,
Your face is all I can see
When I close my eyes.
You said that day
Haunts you,
But do you lose sleep
Like I do?
How many consecutive days
Have you stayed inside
Because you were too terrified
To go anywhere on your own?
When you walk to class,
Do you keep your head down
And your eyes on your feet
In fear that I might show up?
Do you need four million volts
In your bag at all times
Just to feel something close
To safe?
Do you cringe
When you think of me?
Do you still feel me
In your grips?
Did you find someone
To care about you?
Someone you care about too?
Can you ******* tears
When they kiss you?
Does it leave a guilty taste
On your lips
The way you left bruises on my hips?
When you hold them close
Are you reminded of the way
You held me throat?
Does your skin crawl
When they touch you,
Because no matter how close
You're dying to be
How loved you want to feel
You can't get rid of the memory of me?
No. Of course not.
You're not haunted.
You don't know what it's like
To have the ghost of someone
Who stole your sense of self
Live inside your mouth.
You don't know
What you did,
And I don't think you ever will.
But I hope one day
Someone makes you feel as small
As you made me feel.