if you want me to stay,
make me want you,
need you,
make me obsessed with all that you are,
and with all that you do.


if you want me to stay
make yourself the air that i breath,
make me love you, sweetheart
and i'll stay.

i will stay.

Cupid set me free! it's only a sorrow
So please take out in my heart, your stupid arrow
I don't deserve it, to be this fool again
Falling in love with this beautiful maiden

Cupid set me free! it's not fun at all
This love entwined in me, is not amusing to my soul
Making me fall to someone, really it's you to blame
An impossible love,  I'm tired of your crazy game

Cupid set me free! stop your childish act
Maybe you are laughing now, beyond my back
I am always placing this princess, in my castle dream
There she love me too, there she felt the same

Cupid set me free! is this your definition of love?
Unreachable dream, she belong to the star above
Cupid your math is impossible, unsolved by trigonometry and geometry
Because this lady is a singer, an actress and a model - in a foreign country


Written: November 25, 2014 @ 7:50 am

Mysterious Aries

the devil, It asked me too, and
I obliged with great charisma
A welcoming gesture:
Dinner
Drinks
Dancing
Laughter
Each minute lubricant tempting
anticipation in impatient people
Because why not?
The house is so quiet without the cries.
My head, so empty without the dreams.
The bed so still.
Still, I don't know you.

I was raised with one hand
firmly gripping my neck.
Not enough to choke,
but just enough to scare.
One wrong move and
He could snap my neck.
One split second of insubordination-
And death.
He occasionally squeezed too hard-
blamed it on his stress.
Gasping for air is the only
Memory I have of him.

No abuse to report,
No marks or scars except the ones on my heart.
I cried alone at night so
No one could hear.
I smiled through the pain
and hid every tear.
Threats were daily and
Love disappeared.
The child I was,
No longer appeared.

Each year I grew older,
His grip would tighten.
Shackling me to his commands and
Endless profanities.
I was told to toughen up,
But my heart was wilder than he could tame.

Shorter breaths and more tears-
Years and years of silence.
Waiting for the perfect time
To stand up and say,
"Good riddance"

Every day it gets closer now,

To the day I'll break his hands.

took writing seriously
i was at a glass desk
with a glass heart
shattered
piecing it back together
with each letter

What's one day in the grand scheme?
mistakes branding bland dreams
realities - future and past halves of me
split personalities
splitting these arteries
the artist in me
scavenging what I can
to understand, why smile
wasting time
tasting wine
erasing mind
until basically blind -
OTC's won't assist this OCD
thinking of insanity, no it won't be me
I refuse, to let this fuse
run out of room - I say, Let it burn.


https://soundcloud.com/the_mjv/ogcjm


.

You say words
I speak my mind
You fight wars
I spread inner peace one piece at a time
You cast stones
At glass homes
You are too much alike.

warm blankets and a cool breeze
my window's open
but no one knows me
swing dance with dark drinks
don't get me started on
plenty of fish to match in the sea but
the only opportunities are in shark tanks
drowsy and running on fumes
i move with the light of the moon - so dizzy
revolting, im molting
this cold skin 'til im molten, sowed - is he
a volcano
going to reap soon?
there's some seduction in sudden destruction
I hope - I stay
busy enough
with the cards until still
i land my soul in the stars -
i know it's can be hard to go with the art
but for me it's a part of following my heart
existence apart, from my brain -
because it does things, i can't always explain


https://soundcloud.com/the_mjv/stark-darkness-v2

i can't always explain.

I'm a flighty night owl.

it takes
time
to get to know someone
time
and energy and
energy sapped I pine for you.