You wield emotional harm like a knife,
Throats slit, bleeding ruby despair
You withdraw affection like a trained killer
Stopping pulses with nary a care

I know when I am sad                                                                                              Who greatly stands with me or not ...                                                                    Days will prove who likes me or                                                                             Not anytime ...                                                                                                          Inevitably I can not do anything,but                                                                      To learn from patience                                                                                             How to get out of being sad anytime ...                                                               ____________

When I get up at night,
and I'm looking for a light,
thoughts of you start spinning in my head.
I look up at the stars,
and I wonder where you are
but I know it doesn't matter in the end.

You left so long ago,
I think of where you've roamed.
I know it's for the better that you're on this earth.
Do you ever speak of me,
with the people that you meet?
Does a single one of them know what you're worth?

I hope that when you're cold,
and when you feel alone,
you remember when I promised you my heart.
Maybe you will view the sky,
and ponder just like I,
how long our paths are meant to stay apart.

Knowing what's it's like to be a stranger in your own home
Feeling like you don't belong
The odd one out
So you sit alone
Blasting music in your zone
Pains of being unaccepted
On the scent of your breath
Wondering what you were put here for

Parents divorced
And they blame you
A broken family
Plague by you
A young girl
Thinking you were a mistake
And this pains you
Wanting your life story to end
To think your family is better off without you
This weight on your shoulders
Makes you feel you've been crushed by a boulder

The sickness come and goes
Distorts your skin
Makes you hide
Hate yourself inside
Loving yourself is hard to do
Doctors says this disease may be fatal
But it's just a chance
And it scares you
Thoughts you won't be here long pains you

He use to beat her
And there was nothing you could do
Your were such a small insignificant child
To step in an put up a fight
You watched your mom used as a punching bag
Hit until you didn't recognize her face
Helplessness is what you felt
Pained you she couldn't count on you

You cut everyone off
Shut yourself from the world
No one could ever be trusted enough
To know the real you
Dad was never around
He was always such a let down
Words never holding value
Putting your faith in anyone else
Would be a costly mistake
Thinking you would be betrayed
So you sit alone
You don't need anyone else
Only trust in you
You made preparations
No one else would disappoint you
But you've always felt you been on your on
A life forever in solitude
Pains you

Another bubble rises
Another minute gone
Watch your ache evaporate
At least until the dawn
Drink down the bitterness
And taste your hollowness
Try in vain to flood the chasm
Your relief, just a phantasm

I feel at home
Laying in nothingness is where I belong
No Ray of light to call my own
This darkness comforts me
It subdue me when I'm alone
There's no hiding from it
No begging it to leave
This darkness if apart of me
It's the knife that cut me when I bleed
The dead leaves that fall from there stripped trees
It's the anger that needs to feed
The void that filled an empty heart
It's the stitches that kept it apart
Now I owe it
Cause it owns me
This darkness
This darkness
Is me

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Tonight I'm drowning...

You feed me lines
And I let it happen
I cling to hope
That it isn't over
I know it is
When you kiss me
And it isn't real
Out of habit
Lack of desire
Out of time
Out of fire
We tried
We failed
The heat is gone
The change we needed
Was needing to grow
We grew apart
Instead of together
A blind man can see
What we had is gone
Now we walk in separate directions
Further apart
The best is to pretend
All the magic
And laughs and love
Were just pretend
Child's play
Although just a moment
In our existence
Like it never happened

I choose to shake hands with                                                                                   With everyone                                                                                                          Simply because I am not totally                                                                              Angry with everyone ...                                                                                           As long as I am good with everyone around me,then                                           I go to be bed happily and gladly ...                                                                      No need to be angry with anyone                                                                          Simply because our whole life is short,so                                                               Be happy and don't worry ...                                         ____________________

Making love to rhythms & chords. Hallowed out heavens, between my shaking finger tips. Gentle chattering, strumming. As the next verse comes around.