It's one of those days where I start thinking, "Did you ever love me?"
In all those times you said you did, is there at least one truth about it?
You turned your back to me and walked away
You
You are a coward
You did not face me when I called your name

All that I'm asking right now is for the truth about everything
Because if you really did love me, then why did you leave?
And I know you're going to fight with the saying that goes, "If you love something, let it go"
But I think that's *******. I'm going to fight back with the words, "If it comes back, it's yours"

I'm coming back
Can't you see?
I'm still here
And it aches to know that you choose to ignore all my callings
I have stoop down so low at your level,
that I am probably in hell

I kept on calling your name like a child who've lost its mother
But you are nothing like her
You
You are like my father

Now I'm asking myself, "Is it time to move on?"
I'm slowly losing my dignity
Well, congratulations
You won
Isn't that what you wanted this whole time?

You're just waiting for me to break down on my knees
Well, here I am
Down on my knees and begging you, "Please..."

But just like what my father did a couple of years ago
You walked away again
Leaving me all broken...

little did you know
that whenever people
tell me to think
about happy thoughts,

i repeat your name
in my mind.

IT WAS LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT. THAT'S WHAT OTHER PEOPLE ARE GOING TO CALL IT
BUT I DON'T BELIEVE AT LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT. I BELIEVE THAT WE WERE DESTINED TO MEET
I WAS 18 WHEN WE FIRST MET. YOU WORE THAT PERFECT SMILE THAT I USED TO LOVE
YOU SAT BESIDE ME AND WE TALKED AND LAUGHED A LOT. RIGHT THEN AND THERE, I IMMEDIATELY KNEW, I WOULDN'T GET ENOUGH
YOU WERE 19 WHEN YOU FIRST MET ME. YOU SAID I WAS WEARING THE MOST BEAUTIFUL SMILE YOU HAVE EVER SEEN
I LAUGHED AT THAT. AND YOU JUST RESPONDED WITH A KISS ON MY LIPS
ON MY 19TH BIRTHDAY, YOU DIDN'T COME. A LOT OF PEOPLE SAID THAT I WORE THE SADNESS IN MY EYES
IT WAS ONE WEEK AFTER MY BIRTHDAY THAT I FIRST SAW YOU AGAIN. YOU DIDN'T SEE ME. YOU WERE TOO BUSY MAKING SOMEONE ELSE LAUGH
"WAS IT LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT?" I ASK YOU FIVE WEEKS LATER. YOU WEREN'T LISTENING. YOU WERE BUSY PACKING YOUR THINGS
I KEPT ASKING YOU THE SAME QUESTION. BUT YOU JUST KEPT ON IGNORING ME
AT SOME TIME YOU FACED ME AND THE NEXT THING I KNEW I WAS ON THE FLOOR. THE LEFT SIDE OF MY FACE STINGS
I GUESS YOU WEREN'T CONTENTED WITH THE MARK YOU LEFT INSIDE MY HEART. I GUESS YOU WANTED TO LEAVE A MARK WHERE EVERYONE CAN SEE

there are days where you just want to go out,
have some fun, and get wasted like
there's no tomorrow.
there are also days where you want to
waste your time in front of your computer,
surfing the net while drinking coffee or tea.
and then there are days where you don't want
to get out of your bed,
you start thinking about your life
and just lie there for hours.

we all have these days in our life

there was this girl who loves
making everyone laugh
even on the hard times and
you're losing hope,
she will cheer you up.

this girl, she's kind and friendly
she likes learning new things
reading books and going to
lots of adventures

but then one day,
she skipped school
and everyone wondered where
she had gone to

until a day turned into weeks
and weeks turned into months
that's when her parents and the
police started the hunt

and after weeks of looking
they eventually found her
everyone in school was happy
we were finally going to see her

but i found out from a local newspaper
that they found her deep in the woods
where i guess she thought
no one would wonder around and look

"the girl hanged herself and cut her veins",
the newspaper said
"but she looked so happy",
i whispered to myself

how come no one knew, she was such in pain?

You're so beautiful.
I wish you didn't
have to go.