but its not acceptable to cry
because my reasons
aren't good enough
so my struggle isn't real
but its my struggle
so how can you know how i feel

As I sink into the abyss
Left by your absence
I think of you
The way you loved me
And the way you stopped so abruptly
Like a ship
Hitting the bottom of the ocean
Its final resting place
So is this mine
Alone and cold
Trapped in a dark corner
Like a forgotten child’s toy

I thought I hit the bottom when you first left
When I cried for hours
For days
Sobbing to fill the empty space you left
Like the ocean growing between us
But what if I’m just stuck in that ocean
For I have not moved on
But I have not moved back either
What if I’m just floating in the in between
In limbo between loving you
And getting over you
Something I don’t aspire to ever achieve
Because a world where I know longer love you
Is not a place I desire to live
So what do I do now
Here in this ocean void of you
How do I move on
Because I don’t want to
And I’m starting to forget how to swim

Glass shattered in the background
As I finally saw what others saw
You were veiled
In my lingering love for you
But just then it faltered
I saw you
The you that you show the world
The facade
Inside you hide what's real
I feel bad for those who
Will never know the real you
The one that I knew
Because the you that you show
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