To understand it, you have to meditate on it.
Block out the chaos and white noise.
Some messages lie clear, while others are deep as the sea.
Without proper caution, one might drown than swim with pleasure.
The words that are etched on paper are constructed to make one think, compelling the mind to become active.
Once you’re into it—it becomes more than didactic.
As one focuses the mind—much is revealed!
What is revealed is like grapes yielding wine and olives yielding oil.
But until then the mystery remains sealed.

Wrestling with the unknown
Is it healthy?
Not really because you worry yourself,
driving yourself insane.
But it’s something about figuring it all out that’s so addicting.
When will you learn that worrying about tomorrow is too much for today?
Today brings forth its own problems.

Choose to focus on the something that you can control, but ultimately choose to be happy.

A few years ago I wrote a poem about my Fiance.. Now I write to my dear Husband.
I once said you were like the spark that got the fire going,
my love
you are the fire.
you bring sand to my beach.
you're like the water in my glass, in which you never leave half full.
you fill me with your love and dedication.
a lot of people can make me smile by doing something,
you my love?
you can make me smile by just being present.
I smile while watching you lay in bed
I smile while you talk about certain things
I smile when you dance (which is very rare) haha
I smile when you are upset (in my head) I have to pretend to be upset too
you just started this new cooking thing, even though I haven't tasted all of your delicious smelling dishes I want you to know that you being in my life is like a burst of savory flavors
bursting off of my tongue
such a delight
my love.
I savor every single waking moment we spend together and apart.
Thank you for all the happiness you've brought into my life! Truly.

This is not a poem. I just want to express my gratitude and love for you as best as I can.

On this special day,
I would like to thank you for everything.
You.
Your time spent.
Your Love.
Your patience.
I absolutely am truly blessed to have such an amazing husband and friend.
I've had a blast annoying and loving you over the years and I cannot wait to do the same in the future.
love is like crushed ice and you are like my favorite soda to drink
best of both worlds
really, you know how much you mean to me! I can compare you to food all day, so I wont start with that.  

I feel lucky to have you, I mean really, who gets to spend their life with their first love? like 3% of the human population.
did you know that we (scientist) only know about 4% of how the world was created (so they think) 96% is black matter.

see what I did there? I love when we talk about the solar system, my religious beliefs, and how you believe in the Big Bang Theory! haha. JK.  I love you babe! those days where it gets ruff for us, just know that you need to feed me is all. =)

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY.

You seem tired.
Tired of the same old things.
Tired of the way every night ends
Tired of the way every morning begins.
Is it because of me?
Or is it because of me?
I use to be spontaneous.
You ever wonder why?
You ever think to back track and wonder why I seem so blue? So stagnet? So meh?
No?
Maybe it’s because you’re not the only one who longs for creativity to.

Love so pure
I feel it like the morning wind brushing against my cheeks
Your heart beat
I feel it like waves of the ocean rising near the shore.
Your brown eyes, so heart melting
I feel your stares piercing my soul ever so gently.
You allowed me to blossom into a beautiful tulip and I am ever so thankful.

This the **** I'm talkin' bout!
Why do you keep stressing me woman?
Leave me the hell alone! I'm watching the game got ******!

Later ....

Baby whatchu' doing? Come give me some loving!

Hell no charles! Love yourself. I'm going to bed.
GoodNight!
... ******* *****

I am so deeply in love. aren't you?

My beloved fiancé,
He is like the spark that gets the fire going
I need him just as fireplaces need wood
When he touches me, it feels like ocean waves pounding on the sand
Just take my hand and it’ll be you and me for life.

The way you hold me lets me know that you love me being by your side
Regardless of how my day is going you make it special
I love when he sniffs my neck, face, and ears
The way he breathes as he is doing this excites me
I am sexually, mentally intrigued

When we make love it is beyond amazing!
Especially last night.
Kisses from my lips to my ankles
Each spot of my body had its own attention
Every time he slides in, I think I die and go to heaven.
Maybe,
Or someplace magical.
His fingertips sliding across my flesh
As he likes to **** on my flushed skin
Sweet
Damp
Kisses
All over me.
I feel safe, extremely happy, and nothing else matters when I’m with him.
But when we are not together, a part of me feels torn off and it feels as though a piece of me stays with him, when I go to see my love only then do I feel whole again. Holding your hand, laying with and talking to you... sharing food is my absolute favorite thing to do with him.
Waiting to wake up laying side by side with my love.

I can't help but feel you all around me
You bring joy to my soul & peace of mind
Everyday and night I think of you.
Like a river to a waterfall I need you in my life.

I think of you, everywhere I go.

Bit!
He sipped my love
Our pulses more intense now than ever
I'm slowly trickling down his throat
Like red wine in a glass
Each drop of my soul filling
His stomach.
His pupil dilated, he's enjoying the physical and psychological pleasure.  

He is now one with I
Bitten like a blood thirsty vampire
Yes! Drink all of me. Take all of me.
Our love lives for eternity.
Drink.

My god I love me some him
the way your heart thumps as I lay on your chest
your milky light-skinned body
you are Him

The way you pull your long flowing locks up in to a pony tail
your ****** structure so very strong is illuminated
hazel eyes makes my inner juices flow...
you are Him

so educated one of the facts I love
strumming your guitar I bet you can sing my life with your song
so wrapped up in everything that you are.
Him