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You were all that was sane in my life;
Now you've gone and entered the "afterlife".

Everything I loved, and aspired to be;
was you.

A successful strong independent women
that always knew what she wanted to do

After many years of suffering and unbearable
strife, she moved on.

Into another world; vast, far, and wide.

Oh what a lovely soul you had
a joy to be around

It's not the same anymore
nothing is alright
© 2014 Christina Jackson
new
new
Ever so confused
I wish you knew
You are my muse
I can’t help but feel
Butterflies
And bow ties
So painstaking
As my love thrives
I see
You are not what you seem
I begin to gleam
Are you only but a dream?

© 2012 Christina Jackson
A veil, placed upon your eyes, somewhere behind them, a deep hidden mystery, lies just beyond those lights. A gentle look, glassy eyed, this night, this night is flying by. Sweat, liquor, regret; this place reeks of years and years of bitter tries. The lies you tell, masked with red. A shade of black, changes to dread. Deep inside your heart, you always carry it within.
Laughter, pain, I can see it on everyone's faces. Beautiful, everybody in here, glistening, glowing, covering up what's really surfacing. Just let it out, until your ankles bleed. You can feel the music, running through your veins. Euphoria, it kicks in. She's hiding, over there in that corner, waiting to let you in. All these cold dead hearts, none of which beat the same. But we're all sitting here, standing here, coincidentally all on the same page.  We came here looking, searching for something to fit, to fill that empty place called emptiness. We hope and hope, heels clicking on the cobblestone. Laughter, music, it fills the air. But there's something, something missing here. There auras, there energy, bleeding colors, wash away onto pavement. And we don't know why, we don't know why we're all still here, dancing, laughing, waiting to disappear...blend in with the strobes, the flashes, and grins.
He's waiting right over there, waiting to let you in. Her eyes covered, hidden, and you can't see the want, the look, the pain she's in. Fifty shades of him, of her, of I. When will this end? Dawn's just around the corner, and no one's left but him.  Sitting, wondering, thinking, he can still win. In one mere movement, you'd uncover her whims. Everything, everything she wants to bury, resurfaces again. Her eyes; they leak with hurt, with lust, with want, but you can't see it. Remove them, just take them off and you will see. Everything you ever wanted, is hiding right here, deep inside of me. Off to the left, under the breast, is where you'll find me. You've been holding the key all night, won't you just unlock me?  Sunglasses, it's no wonder there so expensive, but these, these were free.
© 2013 Christina Jackson
I had a better title for this, but it would have given away the mystery of it! I hope you enjoy. My perspective when I go out to bars, nightclubs, etc.
I had a dream last night
A terrible one at that
I was pulled this way and that
Pulled your way and back
Then shot nine times
Murdered in rage

I can’t quite explain
These feelings I claim
But one thing led to another
No longer were you my lover

Trapped deep within my mind
Nowhere to run
Not a place to hide
I try and escape this pain
I just can’t explain

Terror trembles through me
Every blood vessel; every vein
Someone help me
I can’t escape

The walls are closing in
I'm falling down
You uttered those words again
So hard so cold

There’s no way out
Please hear me, please help
There’s no way out

Tears dancing
Frolicking about

What seemed so gentle
A terrible monster was let out
into the dark of the night
I'm afraid I'll never get out

© 2012 Christina Jackson
I dream't of you last night
We were walking around a strange town,
for what seemed like miles and miles
It wouldn't end

At last, a moment of bliss
our lips sealed in a kiss
My arms and yours
embraced like the roots of a sierra

And in that moment, I awoke
To the cold bleakness of weathered
and worn eyes

Torn from my existence

Without you once again
and that was that

Nothing more, nothing less
Only in my dreams will you
continue to exist.
© 2014 Christina Jackson
Displacement
Heeds
Over
The rocky embankment
Adjacent
Pleas the cries of the waste less
Complacent
Buries the lies of the bank men
Taken
From the very mouths faith bred

© 2012 Christina Jackson
Oh time, what are you but a rhyme.
We all seek to find.
© 2012 Christina Jackson
I wish I could feel again-
Breathe again, open up my airways
to new life.
I'm living as an empty shell-
I want to feel what it's like to be alive.
I can't describe the way numb feels,
because you feel nothing, or
you feel too much, used up.
Like an old record, skipping past the
best parts of the song.
You want so badly to listen again,
but the record is broken, and you cannot
find a replacement.
I'm tired of wearing this armor-
The pain is unbearable, almost too much
to muster up the courage and face the world.

I'd rather feel PAIN than feeling NOTHING at all.
© 2016 Christina Jackson
The sun sets
along the horizon
my soul wept

The beauty of light
hasn't disappeared

Black as the night
As soon, the moon appears

The sun never stops shinning
It only melts into a different horizon

Don't let your eyes deceive you
For the sun is actually rising
© 2013 Christina Jackson
If all we've seen or seem is but a dream within a dream,
does that mean, when you visit me in my dreams,
it's not a dream at all, but reality?
And if not all is previously seen or seemed,
then maybe we really are just dreams within dreams.
© 2013 Christina Jackson
Here in these meadows we lay,
beneath those orange crush flavored rays.
We sip our life away, through
these straw scattered days.
I cannot play this game, searching
the clouds for a picturesque
painting, we gaze.
All the while not knowing
what terror did reign,
beyond our backyards
and front porches, those days
were much simpler, in so many ways.
Not a wish could take me back, but
I really do think, that I'm okay with that.
© 2012 Christina Jackson
I yearn for your touch
The grace of your fingers
Gliding gently across my skin

A moment suspended in time
When your eyes sense my silent whims

An ache of desire fills within my chest
A loving embrace I long never to forget

Where nothing else matters
In a world, where you and I
Will forever exist

heart to heart
eye to eye
hand in hand

A moment with you
I shall gladly cherish

Until the end of time

© 2013 Christina Jackson
As the story goes
Only the young men know
These secrets that follow thee
This deceit that reckons thee
A forbidden passion
Reserved in rations
These secrets beckon she

For all the ships
In all the seas
Only the young men know
The dreams she used to
dream
So it seems
You deny her screams
That ever longing need

Only the young men know
The story that is told
She once had a lover
Then she carried four other
If only did you know?
That her love soon bode

Only the young men know
These secrets that heed thee
These secrets that follow thee
Into the deepest of trees
A hurt, so threatening

Only the young men know
What her future holds
And so, she must know
How much promise it hold's
If only could she learn

Lost In the mist of the night
She soon earns her light
Shinning so bright
No longer afraid
of what lurks in the night

And as the story goes
Only the young men know
These secrets that live in thee
© 2012 Christina Jackson
I wrote this down for you
so I would remember
all the best parts we shared
the kiss within the kiss
that sweet moment
before our lips touch
a faint memory
little ghosts  dancing on
the surface of my lips
where you once belonged
I wanted to write you something
beautiful so that you would remember
that it wasn't just an illusionary concept
I conjured up in my mind
And I don't want to feel anymore
because living isn't living without you
and these headaches from the tears I've cried
are starting to deplete my energy slowly
I hate it; I hate it so much
and I can't feel you next to me anymore
curled up in your arms
I stare at the bed, and it's not the same
Can anyone hear me scream?
How can this much pain be so silent
And I wipe away the tears from my eyes
little droplets of salty memories disappear
The heat rising in my chest up and down my neck
from holding my breath
And the release isn't enough
nothing is ever enough
because living isn't living without you
and I thought I was fine, but I don't
sleep the same anymore, and my heart
aches when I hear your voice
my knees still get weak
I feel everything and nothing all at the same time
And I thought I was so sure
I didn't have to spend time looking for someone
anymore
I thought you were it  and so I stopped trying to find
something I already had
I know why you did what you did
but ****** if  I'm not still angry with myself
even though you told me I was enough
somehow I don't believe one bit of it
In the end, I was just another distraction
from your wounded, barely healed heart
I feel so used, but I can't fault you for hurting
and I can't be angry with you for the decisions you made
in the end, you did what you did for yourself
I wish these tears would somehow erase these
new marks I've acquired on my fragile heart
but they just dry up and start again
If only I drowned in them
maybe I wouldn't have to deal with this pain
and the realization that you were never mine
but I'll always be a little bit yours
©2020 Christina Jackson
Today, the first day of spring
The first day, of everything.
Such a lovely
time of year, that spring.
It creeps up on you
greets you with
wonderful winds
surprises you
with new smells
and colors
new tastes
so alive
it feels as though
it's been forever
I've waited for you
to grace me with
this wondrous weather
I'll miss you Winter,
but spring,
is incredible
© 2013 Christina Jackson
I used to be able to write
endlessly for days
but not anymore
I've got nothing to say

I don't know what happened
To the never ending thread that kept on giving

It was cut somewhere
between yesterday, and the beginning
I don't know what happened
I've always got something to say

Am I tangled in a web; with the master and the mistress?
It seems I have forgotten
All the words to every poem I've ever written

A clear vision so gracefully in site
As if the heavens reached down
and connected the earth, to sky

I often wonder why words
exist in the first place

They get confused with other words
Misinterpreted
For something they never were to begin with

I don't know what happened
Writing is the oxygen that flows from within
I'd have absolutely nothing
if writing wasn't the blood pumping through my veins
Keeping me alive, each and everyday
© 2013 Christina Jackson
Those lifeless wings;
On the metal they lay

My dear beautiful bird
I find dismay

Buried next to the marigolds
where my departed cousin
once grazed

Gone, the life from you
No longer flapping along

On into the netherworld
Where you'll sing
your chirping songs

My little lucky parakeet
sing
Forever long

The life from you
now drained
dead and gone
© 2013 Christina Jackson
After celebrating a wonderful Halloween, I came home to find that my parakeet had passed on =/ Just a little dedication
Dear past, present, and future lover,

If we never meet, please, I want you to know this. Wherever you've been, wherever you may go, just know I always loved you, in this life and in the last. Each day I wish and wish for you to come and take me away. I just need you to know, if I should die before your eyes meet mine, your heart, don't worry it'll be alright. All those nights I've spent wondering what you'll look like, the way that you'll taste,  a deep sadness fills my chest. You; are what's missing. My lost puzzle piece, I've been searching and searching for countless years. It still aches, this beating heart of mine, it aches for you, for your love. It long's to know every inch of you, every scar, every freckle. In my heart of hearts, I really hope you get this message.

I hope your hearts not as lost as I, just as empty, just as broken as mine. Our hearts, they know we belong, whoever you may be..These blood pumping hearts know, a mere signal will alert us of each other. The moment our lips meet, our hands touch, a blazing fire set's flame, those coals burning deep within, will rise from the very ashes of our cold dead hearts, and rekindle again. Into the most beautiful of fires. A symphony of lust and love and desire, a longing to know every part of one another. I can't help but notice, we've been wandering for far too long, our path's may have already crossed, but that moment wasn't meant for us. We'll have ours, eventually. And I don't care if we meet the day before we die, as long as we got to meet, that would satisfy my heart's desire. I suppose if we'd already met, I'd like to apologize, to tell you what a mess I was in, a mess I was. She's not who I am anymore, I've swallowed the key and locked the door. She ceases to exist....forevermore.

This blister, it continues to ache, gets rougher as the days without you grow thinner. My love, oh my love, where are you? Please come find me, just tell me you're on the way. That you'll be here soon and your flight's been delayed. I'll meet you in the middle, unless you'd rather call it halfway? We'll sit by the moonlight, and wait for the sun to grace us another day. Forever in your arms,  hopefully I'll stay.

All those stars I've wished upon, one of them must be you. Gently placed, before my eyes. I nearly found you, but you've been disguised. Hidden somewhere, I simply cannot find. To a land unknown, even to space, even to time. This 3 dimensional world, is beginning to grind, my very teeth, into sharper lies. The words cut with bitter premise. I need you here and now, I just need to see you smile. To know that glimmer in your eyes is because of me. I'll deal you out in aces and spades, gamble my heart, to find what remains. I know you'll find me eventually...someday

Sincerely,          

                Your past, present, and future lover.

© 2013 Christina Jackson
A lonely wistful embrace
on the days I remember
peering up at that chiseled face
A dashing fellow masked in disguise
Hidden beneath a beautiful surface
Wrapped within a tangled web of ghastly lies
I gazed long into the mirror and wondered why
Too many nights I laid on the pavement, waiting for my demise
Looking up at the vast and empty skies
Cluttered by clouds and all the city lights
I didn't understand why you were doing this, I didn't know why
You used to tell me this story, while your eyes focused in on my thighs
An unsettling feeling would succumb in my stomach, like a plunging knife
Your words cut thick, through the withered skin I once called my life
I learned how to live without the shackles of your inner strife
Do not mistake me for being weak, I was never yours to truly keep
Like a prized possession on a shelf, only to be taken out when your own monsters became
too much for you to dwell
Your future is bleak, filled with all the false promises you'll never keep
I hope you're happy locked inside of your cage
Where no one can reach you and feel the wrath of your rage
When you come of age and times get weary
Remember me, and remember my furry
You are nothing but a demon
trapped inside of a body
slowly rotting you with its venom
And when your clock stops ticking
you'll finally know what it's like to have your happy ending
© 2013 Christina Jackson
Your lips, speaking in tongues.
I can't understand; this battle
you've won.
© 2012 Christina Jackson
Fear, fear, fear
this and that
but not that
pretend
to fear that
but not this
and can't
forget that
Fear, fear, fear
what am I afraid of?
Of you, of it, of them?
What is it?
I question the mirror
to understand
why so fearful
my friend?
what lies inside?
fear, fear, fear
builds up over time
eating away
every day
a parasite
infested
in your veins
let go of it
run for it
face it
embrace it
fear
don't fear it
look in the mirror
it'll become clearer
don't be afraid
you aren't trapped
you only think
you've been
let go, let go, let go
my friend
© 2013 Christina Jackson
The light in him is slowing dying out
Those beautiful rays that once
illuminated my entire life,
are dying out
LIFE;  The human life is but a
fraction of a second in history
Our lights don't keep shinning on
forever, on into infinity and beyond
Just as the light bulb loses it's
essence and then burns out
We are the light bulb, only
given so much time until it's
thrown away and changed out
Oh beautiful love, with your eyes
radiating so bright. Please,
don't burn out. I need you
to stay a little bit longer
Don't die out. You are not
allowed to leave me here
in this little hell.
© 2014 Christina Jackson
And if I could cry-
for just a little while
My body would run dry

Tear ducts, like air ducts
I need a replacement
The ventilation is all wrong

Misty and fogged glasses-
Impair my vision
Remove them and I am blind

Blind to the heartache-
the metaphorical bleeding
inside of my mind

Every day the pain grows-
Grows roots, roots that once
kept me grounded

Now I'm surrounded-
by the demons I once
banished

Rip the roots from my feet
and all I'm left with is nothing.

Nothing but darkness
and blank space

Dark and deep
The black hole In which I keep you
Swirls infinitely

I brace myself for impact
the meteorite sets it sights
on my chest
****** target, take aim and
gain flight

Don't miss, you'll regret it

I could be angry, but what's the point?

You're gone forever
and never coming back
© 2017 Christina Jackson
Happy birthday daddy <3 I miss you every day
His lips weren't mine
nor did his words belong
to me
I was nothing more than
a sweet intoxicating
fantasy.
© 2014 Christina Jackson
We speak in revisions
and ever flowing renditions
We laugh, in sonnets and haiku
We speak from our hearts
and often times, become removed
Lost in a poetic world of rhymes,
and lines. Scattered across
many, a many lifetime
We write, we write, we write
because we know, words
are always on our side
I could give you more
explanation, but I'm just
living a poets life.
© 2013 Christina Jackson
I think we've met,
once before
Not in this lifetime,
but I can't be sure.
© 2013 Christina Jackson
Death was on his doorstep-
Calling his name

Pulling him in to the darkest
parts of his brain.

Love called his name,
but death shouted louder
Love replied "death, don't bother"

Death slowly crept through little
cracks between his windowpanes

Love cried out "Leave this place!"

Terrified, he didn't know what to do-
So he welcomed Love and Death in.

They slowly devoured him..
© 2014 Christina Jackson
And in that moment
I finally realized-
All we'll ever be,
Is just friends.

© 2014 Christina Jackson
This pain in my heart
continues to grow
I know, I know, I know
I can't let go
The pain of the past
continues to grow
Flashes of forgotten memories
surface once more
Everything I suppressed
has finally taken its toll
I can't live in the past
but the shadows creep up too fast
Their incredible mass
engulfs me, pulls me back
At last, I can't rid myself
of this terrifying lack
© 2013 Christina Jackson
Death is seeding
It’s all around me

My life is depleting

Lost-

I cannot find thee
© 2014 Christina Jackson
You will never love me, as I love you.
This universal pull on my heart is so
strong, its suffocating me.

Here, in the dead of night I shed
my wings and die a little more inside.

The pieces of me fall away, turning into
remnants lost in time.

This silence is deafening-
and I cannot breathe knowing
you don't love me as I love you.

I am colorless, suffering from
a lack of color.
My heart no longer red, but now
ash, simply black and dead.
© 2015 Christina Jackson
Life is a broken mirror;
There is no superstition-
Beyond the shadows of that
soul ******* inanimate object
The image it reflects, lies beyond
nothing but deceit and terrified eyes.
I find immense comfort in never knowing why
© 2014 Christina Jackson
It seems as if the weight of the world
is no longer resting upon my shoulders
I've been set free, released from the gallows

My life now but a blooming flower
Never did it stop growing
Yet I failed to see its beauty
Infinite and ever evolving

It feels as if the light has pierced the darkness once more
Penetrating its maddening concrete packed crevices
For so long has it waited to be revealed

A mask peeled away
One I thought I needed
to keep the vampires away

No longer afraid
that the sunlight
will reveal everything
I've been hiding for years
© 2013 Christina Jackson
Love is amazing, lovers that is. You can be sitting in the same coffee shop, two tables over, on the same day. When you see them, you'll know. It's an unmistakable energy, flowing from them, a brand new life source, it seems. True love, oh, what a beautiful thing. You can tell, you can see it. They may not see the beauty in the shining light radiating from them, as if they were wearing an extra layer of skin. Such beauty shines through, when two lovers step in. You see, they love so much, and feel so much, the love begins to spread. You see it, and you see the dread, slowly leaving everyone's faces, as if God walked in and showed them all the way. I've never seen such beautiful a thing, as when two lovers pass by me. I look, I smile, and carry on my way. When you witness such a love, it almost takes your breath away, as if all the ice inside your heart, could just melt away. Love is, the beginning, the middle, and it has no end. There is no other way, than to love, be loved, and eventually float away. Pay closer attention, when you're out and about, you never know, two lovers may come along and just warm your heart.  
© 2013 Christina Jackson
The days seem too short
The nights much too long
All those nights I cried,
only just to rest my eyes
Oh don’t you weep
For now my soul can truly sleep
Remember me, just remember me

Basking in the summer rays
Wasting away those lustful days
Remember our songs
Those lovely songs
We’d sing together all night long
Remember me, remember our bond

It's been quite some time now
Since I've seen that smile
Brighten up those eyes
'Cause I'm always here but never there
Just a whisper
and I'll appear
Remember me
Just simply me

All those yesterdays
and
Tomorrows never to be
Yes, that clock
That clock continues to ring
and a dream never dream t
is a dream best kept,
hidden deep inside
Time oh pesky time
Don't you always seem to slip by
Remember me, remember my life

Gaze away Oh beautiful star
How I wish you weren't so far
You must not seek
what it is that's blinding thee
That trickle of light
You see
It's slightly out of reach
Won't you just remember me?

© 2012 Christina Jackson
Cold and sterile
the lights are blinding
as I walk down these
empty and hallowed
hallways.

The stench of death fills
the air.
I reach for your bedside
feeling remorse and regret.
The only father I'll ever have

So frail

Don't give in

You still breathe life within
you- it's not over yet.
Don't give up on us,
more importantly don't
give up on you.

Your wife, mother, sister, daughters
and granddaughter need you.
Despite the way you've lived your
life, we still love you and always
will.

The stench of death lingers
in the sterile air.
Our life force gives you the
strength to stay alive
and is keeping you here
against your free will and pride.

Don't give up, don't give up.

As if the clogged arteries weren't
enough, your heart is still beating
I won't let it stop.

I love you and that should be enough.

© 2015 Christina Jackson
Doors open; Infinitely swinging both ways.
But please don't come, if you cannot stay.
And please don't promise, if no promises you're willing to make.
Please just love me;  simply because you know my name.
For now, hope is all I hold, in this hopeless abode.
Forever resting, in this empty home; I call my heart, the roaming gnome.  
© 2013 Christina Jackson
Doors open; Infinitely swinging both ways.
I've been waiting breathlessly to speak with you again.

But please don't come, if you cannot stay.
I'm at a loss for words, wordless again.

And please don't promise, if no promises you're willing to make.
This never happens, as I always have something to say.

Please just love me; simply because you know my name.
For unknown reasons, you've left me speechless again.

For now, hope is all I hold, in this hopeless abode.
Forever resting, in this empty home; I call my heart, the roaming gnome.
© 2013 Christina Jackson
I couldn't make up my mind which way I liked it best, so I'll let everyone else decide.  Both of these short poem's I took from a longer 3 page prose poem. I just enjoyed them more apart from the longer version.
Why do you only visit me,
in deepest corners of my mind?
Why don't you follow me love?
Out of the dark, and into the light.
© 2013 Christina Jackson
I've always been a **** up
The black sheep with no luck
I've always been afraid
of the things I didn't understand
I've always been the reject
the one with messed up hair
plain black kicks
I wore baggy jeans
miss-matching socks
I just didn't give a ****
I've always been invisible
until I opened my eyes
Realized I was the master
cloaked in disguise
I've always been quick with the pencil
The grammar, the words, the lines
My rhymes, an ever flowing river
Sick, sicker, than the eyes that reside
deep down, buried inside
And I always loved the boys
until I was used as a toy
Got the **** beat out of me
for no ******* reason
But I'm still here, still breathing
and you can't get rid of me.
I always thought I could fix my own problems
I used to drown the anger, the sorrow, in a bottle
***** bottle, pill bottle, rolled up joints of marijuana
All through my lungs, my veins, my brain
My liver, my stomach, torn up; Trust me, I know pain
I've always been the one with patience
You thought you could just crumble me up
throw me away
But I won't go away
I've always been the one who's waited
waited for the right moment
When I should have told you, just **** it
All the laughing, all the tears
Well I've waited, and waited
and my time is finally here
Those words didn't break me
Those words ******* made me
You can never take that away from me
Look at me now
I came, I saw
I conquered
I WON
© 2013 Christina Jackson
This isn't directed at anyone specifically! Sort of wrote it as a rap/freestyle, something like that, it is what it is!
Wherever you go
I go
Where your heart went
I do not know
When my eyes were wet with tears
You were there to wipe away my fears
Nothing can compare to the love we shared
This love blossomed
Into the prettiest a rose
And died the sharpest of thorns

Where you went
I’ll never really know
You were the half
That made me whole
My deepest sorrows
For you will only know
Time will only show
If I’ll be rid of this
Nothing can compare to the love that we shared


© 2012 Christina Jackson
I still think of you,
though you're not around.
Those three simple words, stop
the hands of time.
I just want your hands in mine.
Close, gentle, kind.
A love so prosperous, a love
fine as the finest wines.
Sweet, loving, mine.
Hold me, for the rest of life.
All wrinkled and withered, a faint
smile.
You still give me the shivers.
When you're close to I.
I still want to feel, every breath,
every cry.
Just close your eyes, one time.
I'll kiss you gently and get lost
in rhymes. Me? A fool?
Not this time.
Forgive me love, we'll meet sometime.
Far away, in another life.
You'll know how to find me, just
remember my smile.
We've loved oh we've loved, but a
thousand times.
Same soul, different mold.
Love's repeated in riddles
and roads.
All depends which ones you roam.
The path always leads,
to hearth and home.
© 2013 Christina Jackson
Most people fear death
But death is an unexpected friend
I fear not death
For it is time that I tremble,
upon every waking whim

Live for today
Not for tomorrow

The sand in the hourglass
Is slowly seeping into the gallows

Thinking you've wasted time,
Is a regrettable task

If you stumble up the realization,
that you've forgotten how to live

Stand on the edge of a steeply cliff
Hundreds of miles from the ground

Peer death in its face

You’ll realize death is nothing to fear
Rather, your fearful of all the time
your're wasting

Upon reflection
One will realize that time
Is not your friend

Measurable by science
But inconceivably immeasurable,
In the eyes of men

I once read a quote spoken by a famous man
It simply said “Lost time is never found again”
Sincerely yours, Benjamin Franklin

Don't waste it, forget the times
you once thought you were mistaken
Forget the sorrows of loved ones once lost

Remember their memory

Do something in your life
that will infinitely be treasured

© 2013 Christina Jackson
We all search to find
an answer
In this cluttered world
we call life.

Not all is forgiven
and some end in despise
But don't you think it's over
and remember the wise

An elderly women
once gave me
some helpful advice
You know what she told me?
To take back control
of my life.

Nobody makes the right decisions
in the beginning of time
Those mistakes lead us
to an inevitable climb

Always remember
life gives and life takes
sometimes leaving us blind
to the simplest of problems
we spend oh so much time

I learned a lesson today
be patient with life
It doesn't always give you
what you'd like

But it will surprise you
every time you shut your eyes
Welcoming you to a world
blanketed in disguise

A place only capable
Inside of our minds

Hold fast to dreams
Cause we'll forget in time

© 2012 Christina Jackson
You draw me in, like fire on a cold night.
Comforting, warm, bright.
Your smile; gentle, loving, kind.
Wont you be mine?
© 2013 Christina Jackson
She walks, like madness in the night.
Never quite knowing, if she's been steered right.
She runs, on eggshells all day long.
or hot coals, whichever you'd prefer to call them.
She knows she's fading, distantly anticipating.
Where she'll end up, no one quite knows.
She walks, down by the seashore; moonlight, it disappears.
Patiently waiting, for a place to call her own.
She sits, underneath the starry night sky, wishing, waiting, to reappear.
© 2013 Christina Jackson
Not finished, still working on a couple lines to add to the end!
And there was nothing but blackness
as far as the eye could see
She was spinning tops in her head
swatting the demons away like fleas

Unbeknownst to her, disease was setting in
Spreading like wildfire, she screamed
As they welcomed themselves in
No invitation was needed, for she had conceded

The darkness was swallowing her once again

Her yearly ritual, the grin of a ghastly figure stood over her whistling the familiar tune
She knew it was time to shut her eyes, so swallowing her pride;
Two sarcastic pills appeared in her hand, this time she couldn't disguise the screams.

Choking and convulsing
Sweating and foaming

She awoke the next morning, the whites of her eyes-
Nearly plum wine as if the vines had drawn little lies to remind her of last night.

She wouldn't let them win-
with a wink and a drink she drew the curtains of dread
Light flooded toward her
In the blink of an eye she drew a big smile
and the sun warmed her icy veins
Basking in her new found perspective

She wouldn't let the demons win.
© 2019 Christina Jackson
Do you ever feel so broken?

You haven’t a clue what it is
that’s left you feeling so hopeless

Lying awake at night
In the dark
Staring at the ceiling

Wondering why?

And I-
shed my skin
Layer by layer
by layer

Peeling away all of the dead
Scabbed and scarred bits

The shell of what was
No longer lives within the
lining of my skin

The bare and bitter truth-
Of what once was, or what could
have been

I’m naked
I have nothing left to offer
or give

And I rid myself of my many
masks
Disregarded the ceramic,
stone, paper and concrete
Dishevelment of my past

And so, I threw them away
Never to be thought of
or seen again

In the trash they'll stay

Forever will I proudly wear
the true essence
Of my inner and outer being

Simply me
© 2014 Christina Jackson
I knew all along-
Forever with you
wouldn't last long.

The tides moved
steadily strong

Pushing me away-
until you were gone.
2014 Christina Jackson
He looks from afar
ever searching her face
He can't find her anywhere
in this crowded place

Forever he'll wait
longing to feel her embrace
So cold a shoulder
So broken a tune

Will he ever know?
He's too blind to see
her ever aching need
doesn't belong to thee

She's already spoken for
to one of another
I don't think he knows
She carries a lover

He silently waits
Slowly
She dissipates

© 2012 Christina Jackson
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