I Miss the look in your eyes when I say "I love you."
The anticipation it used to bring.
I miss the way you look at me,
With a universe in your eyes.

Love hard or die trying.
Like watching you leave my life was not enough pain.
And a broken heart cannot be sealed in a heartbeat.
In fact it's still taking it's time healing.

I'm still dealing with the aftermath of our equation.
But now me minus you,brings me emptiness.
And we can never come to a common solution.
Always at each others throats shouting,yet we could never hear each other.

You lost sight of what we were to be
And I became blinded to the obvious.
And figured I should just be oblivious.

Now you are gone,
And I'm steady keeping my composure
But I needed you and i can't take this torture.

For over 300 years I have been victimized for the color of my skin.
The skin that I have been dipped in chocolate and honey for,And hanged out in the sun to dry.
I've seen people like myself face death because of their sun kissed skin.
Lost in history's wars.

In the past 300 years I have faced ridicule for my kinks and coils.
Forced to tie it out of existence,
And comb it to perfection.
Told to "keep it neat if you want to be here"

You see they kicked me out of institutions for the pride that I was born with.
Fired me from behind desks because my hair wasn't "fit for the work place".
The melanin of my skin has made many melancholic toward me.
They clutch their purses after beating us to death.

We are not taking away your culture,
Rather we are protecting ours.
Because all you do is strip us of our dignity,
And treat us less than we should be.

As for the past 300 years, I am set free from your  physical chains,
Yet still held accounted for things according to my skin color.
Slavery may have ended, but we are still trapped at mindset.

I've laid in a bed,for many men
but i've never spread my legs.
wore the same garments to make my body feel more holy  
yet i was just another sinner.
though i swam in a ocean of insecurities when you left me
and i saw you two together with her fair skin and high top air force you probably thought was corny.

i became invisible to you,
so i began to fade to everyone
became a quiet void
at 119 pounds,i became the elephant in the room,that everyone ignored.

my wounds keep finding ways to become open
reminding me of everything i couldnt be for you
everything i'll never be for the next guy.
take my fragile heart and take care of it

when i told you i loved you ,you thought i was bluffing.
but when you asked me to marry you i never thought you were rushing,
but you burned those bridges,
and im still dealing with the flames
and not the one we had when our feelings were the same.

How have you managed to carry my burdens?
Applied yourself to every equation?
Put yourself before others always,
Placed your needs aside for mines?
You have made me realize that home is more than a shelter.

Moved mountains with your bare hands
Opened locked doors for my opportunities.
Taught me that the greatest teachers do not stand in front of a class
Held my heartbeat in your body,held my body when I needed your heart
Efforts that had mind blowing effects.
Reached hearts without walking a mile
Showed strength even at your weakness.

Decided I wanted love just like you,care like you,and endure like you.
Appreciation and gratitude may be simple,but I have them for you.
Your sacrifices never go unheard even if they were done in silence.

I Love You.