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1.5k · Feb 2021
Pillar
Verity Lane Feb 2021
I have held so many of your tears
on my skin
in my chest
that I have forgotten
I have my own.
To my middle child.
960 · Jan 2021
Caramel Words
Verity Lane Jan 2021
Caramel voice
Drips down my throat
Coating my innards
With poison and sweet

slow

words.

Caramel whispers
Covering your venom
Travel into my stomach
Become tar
And stop me.  

Caramel voice
Coating my mind
Gooey and murky and glazing  

Casing my thoughts

That all taste like you
That all intoxicate me
You and your caramel words.
To my favorite narcisist.
822 · Feb 2021
Frenzy
Verity Lane Feb 2021
And if I stop.
If I stop doing,
and working,
and perfecting,
and working,
and complicating,
and simplifying,
you're there.

Unconditional love.

This giant truth on my back.
That I carry and ignore-
simply:

Unconditional love.

You are.
Just are.
No to do:

But stop.
And breathe.
And believe.
And be.

Unconditional love.
665 · Apr 2021
Gaslit ego
Verity Lane Apr 2021
I'm not crazy.

I lie to myself,
I ignore my body,
I eliminate my heart.

I'm not crazy,
I'm just dead.
517 · Feb 2021
Hidden.
Verity Lane Feb 2021
I would tell you that
I love you.
But I won't.
Because I like you.
494 · Feb 2021
Second Cycle
Verity Lane Feb 2021
It's just never quiet
when the sun is out.

Find me hiding
from some mindless words
that
now wrap my heart.

Squeezing it
and juicing it
until
no
blood
is
left.

It's just never quiet
when you are
within reach.

Our handful of knives
and prickly sounds
encircle their prey.

Find me hiding
and seeing you run.
We just lost
another
day.
489 · Jan 2021
Gum
Verity Lane Jan 2021
Gum
I feel like gum
Sticky stuck to the bottom of your shoe
Part of me
Clings to you
And you walk on me

And I hold on to you.

You scrape, scrape, scrape me off
And like a fool, part of me
Remains with you.
Chewed up
Rejected
***** and clingy

A pain in your step

Not welcome home.
Noticed and shameful
A careless mistake.

I'm like the gum on the bottom of your shoe.
Done for.
342 · Aug 2021
7 a.m.
Verity Lane Aug 2021
The morning greets me
and with every painful breath
I greet it back.

My naked body wrestles
the smoothness of the sheets beneath me,
caressing my skin,
soothing my wounds,
holding me the way you should.

I aimed to only want you.
I hate that I need you.

The morning greets me
and I turn away
just to face
another day on my own.
311 · Jul 2021
found.
Verity Lane Jul 2021
I was falling somewhere in the middle
of compliance,
neutral,
and beige.

I gazed up and quickly realized
black,
red,
and fighting back
was a better game.
297 · Feb 2021
ice man.
Verity Lane Feb 2021
Sure,
shop around my veins.
Just leave what you don't buy
in its place,
so I can recover
from your silence.
262 · Mar 2021
On a Monday
Verity Lane Mar 2021
Dear Wild Girl,
Inviting me to dance
In the light of your fire
And emerald
And sea:

Welcome to the drop
After indulgence
And enthrallment.

Welcome to the realness
Of daylight.

Until the next twilight
And escape.
When your tide.
rolls through us
In its time
Again.

Blink your eyes
As they adjust
To earth
As it is.

Solid and stable,
Boring,
Predictable,
Painful,
And true.

Welcome to the mundane
Roots and facts.

Because I know
It open-armed
welcomes you.
131 · Apr 2021
Ms. Tammie the Amazon
Verity Lane Apr 2021
She is earth.
And chocolate.
A loud anthem and a roar.

She is good.
And a nourisher.
Guardian of the weak.
Warrior for justice.

She is hope embodied.
Everything I wanted.

She is enough.
And more.
Never too much
and overflowing.

She is earth.
127 · Feb 2021
The red-eye.
Verity Lane Feb 2021
Red eyes.
Red, tired, weepy eyes.  
Wandering about their surroundings.
Wondering about their life.
Seeing planes go, seeing planes land.  
Seeing life go and by.

Red eyes.
Red, tired, wide-open eyes.  
The world's angle
shrinks through an ovular,
cold, see-through plastic hole.

Red eyes.  
Red, tired, weak eyes.  
They look deep into the night
and spot
some of many bodies
being flown by a stranger
towards uncharted stories.

Red eyes.
Red, tired, wandering eyes.
There goes the ocean.
There goes love, and hate.
Kisses and pain.  
Lives and death.

Red eyes.  
Red, tired, washed-out eyes.
Trying to find relief.
Searching for hope.
And it goes, goes, goes.  
Flies away.  

While my forehead is smashed
against the inner carcass
of the metal bird
caging me in.  

Her and her red eyes.  
Taking her away.
Her and her red eyes.

Red eyes.
Red, tired, weary eyes.
See the land
magnified through silent water
flowing down.

It tastes like salt.  
Like the sea.
Like home.  
Like the past.
Like what is stripped.
And who she is.  
Who she will never be.

Red eyes.  
Red, tired, wayward eyes.  
Torturously refusing to look away.
So they take in all their suffering,
all the fear of new lands
now under her.
Of unknown futures
laid ahead.  
Of a hidden adventure
concealed dance,  
dark joy, and sorrow, path, and trail.

They look into their owner.  

Red, tired, wretched eyes.  
engulfed in confusion.
Left without an excuse to find a home in anything they see.  

Forced to look within.

Into my unmapped soul.
Into the unfamiliar hollows,
where sin and unforgiveness lay,
beneath layers and layers of dust and misinterpreted identity.  

Red eyes.  
Red, tired, wry eyes.  
Rolling.
Tracing the top corners of their vision.  
Hardening themselves.  
Cynical, suspicious, and taunting the world.

Let the hearts break and raise a glass
they say,
to memories endured
and dreams folded
and stored.
And to these red, tired, worried eyes.
Written on the red-eye when moving from Barcelona to USA indefinitely.
113 · Apr 2021
captured.
Verity Lane Apr 2021
But she does not have thighs to split apart,
And an *** to grab while thrusting.
Hips to curve around and bend over,
And *******
That overflow
And spill
Over your firm grasp.

A voice that sings your name
And a back that rises to meet you
As we both reach heaven.
As we both reach for air.
Falling deeper into warmth
And heavy scented
Sighs and shutters.

She might have you,
But my body owns you.

Over and over.

To the end.
101 · Feb 2021
Cycle
Verity Lane Feb 2021
Emotions like molasses
sticky, sweet, and dark
swimming and drowning
my anger
and my thoughts.
72 · Oct 2023
Dark
Verity Lane Oct 2023
I am in love until I'm busy
Until life is just more important
Until I'm so needed

by every errand

Every chore
My heart full of cares and calendars
My mind swimming in puzzles

I am no longer in love
In apathy
In discontent
In contempt of you.

A lazy life will inspire
A lazy heart.
Lazy passion
The flame
Stale
Dim
You
Just
Let
It
Die

While saying I was the one.

— The End —