isn't it just too painful that you have found your future on someone's eyes that loves someone else?

slowly falling in despair,
we were never the perfect pair.

i was willing to do anything
but i remembered we weren't even a thing.
you make my heart flutter
whenever sweet words you utter.

tormented by your fake love– i kept it hidden.
unshed tears and pain inside i hid.
sending signs of chaos from within,
the line between us was so thin.

i kept knocking on your walls.
you're the future I crave for and i gave my all
but then i saw you with her and you were perfect together.
just like gravitation belonging to matter and not to ether.

i wasn't enough for you from the start,
baby, in your eyes—i was never an art.
the world is full of shade and prose.
a phantom pain in my heart rose.

your heart and mine will never link,
i cried into poetry by my tears that are made of ink.
hair flowing amidst July breez⁠—i sat by the stake,
struggling with pain that i couldn't take.

i recall the sweet lies you told,
i think it'll hunt me 'til i'm old.
in my heart you left a scar,
heart raced as fast as a car.

in your deception i'm stuck,
hairs behind my ears that you tuck.
in the middle of the path, i tread
with emotions i feel that are hard to read.

monotone whispers of the devil.
unconciously, i smiled like an evil,
stared at the strands of my hair that i pluck.
i'm gonna end this pain, wish me luck!

-k.