i don't know what you were thinking
falling for a girl with a broken heart
and a broken mind
thinking we could fix it together

i saw you yesterday, but i did not see you today
therefore, it is okay to say i miss you like crazy

in your eyes
i saw serenity
the lyricism to finding home
without you i'd be empty
a writer without words

i pray that today
you will read my words and concern

i will write happy, i will mostly write sad

we both know there is a dark spot in my mind
surrounded by the light you have created

but you are the reason for my happy words

and the inspiration for my sad
because you are that contrast

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i pray that tomorrow
you will read my words and smile

i will write happy, i will write sad

we both know there is a dark spot in my mind
surrounded by the light you have created

but you are the reason for my happy words

and the inspiration for my sad
because you are that contrast

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i pray that next month
you will read my words and be proud

i will write happy, i will write sad

we both know there is a dark spot in my mind
shrinking into the light you have created

but you are still the reason for my happy words

and the inspiration for my sad
because you are that contrast

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i pray that in a couple years
you will read my words and reminisce

i will write happy, i will write sad

we both know there was a dark spot in my mind
emerged by the light you created

you are the reason for my happy words

and still the inspiration for my sad
because you are that contrast

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i pray that in the future
you will still read my words

what would i write, what would i write?

we both know there was once a dark spot in my mind
unsure if that has endured
tripled in size
or simply non-existent
perished by the light you have created
or the light you have substituted for dullness

will you be the reason for my happy words?
if any remain?

or have you truly inspired my sad
because you went from black and white
to simply black

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i pray that you would not continue to read my words...
...out of pity

i would write sad, i would write sad

we both know my mind would be dark
pitch black
a lack of light

i would have run out of happy words

because there would be nothing but sad
filling the empty holes
you have dug with your absence

everything is black

i wanted to tell you i loved you
but the butterflies in my stomach swarmed my throat
and all the words got caught in their wings

don't fall in love with me
i will fill your lungs with poetry
air so dense with words

that breathing only hurts

silence
i will fill you with silence, too

on my lips
you will taste
words i never spoke
but never recognizable enough to distinguish
these words left unspoken

notes
between the pages of your books
and hidden underneath your mouse pad
you will find

poetry

more words

followed by more silence

i am
a complex mixture of silence
and poetry
i will say too much through silence

and i, darling,
will surely **** us both if you ever fall in love with me

sometimes when my mind hides under the darkest clouds
i wish we had drown
that night we fell asleep
together in the bath tub

so in love
we had no idea what pain was
we had no idea
of the storm that was coming