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Barker Oct 2018
There you are. Name engraved on a headstone. Dates marked out. Dead roses sit at the bottom. I sit to the side so I don't sit on your casket. I open two beers, one for you and one for me. I talk about what's going on; how ****** New York Rangers is going to be this year. I just sit there and talk to you for hours; Way past the hour I said I would. When it's time to leave I get up, fold my chair and say "I love you." Before turning around and leaving.
(c)ibarker
Barker Jul 2018
Oh, love,
Our time is up.

Love dies out
Just like hope
And everything else.
(C)ibarker
Barker Dec 2022
I've tried to play along,
I've tried to drown myself in work and things that keep me busy,
But the truth is I'm dying inside,
I mask my emotions with a smile and a laugh,
But I just want to cry and breakdown,

Why am I still going?
Why am I still here?
What's the point?
(c)barker
Barker Jun 2017
You're too emotionless.
I'm emotional.
Together, we're human.
@Crestfall
Barker Jun 2018
To Her Ex,

I will never thank you for hurting her. I will always hate you for what you did to her, but I will acknowledge you for making her strong, because of your decisions she has grown strong.
(c)ibarker
Barker Jul 2018
Ain't nobody hurt you like I hurt you
But ain't nobody needs you like I do
I know that there are others that deserve you
But my darling, I am still in love with you

But I guess you look happier, you do
My friends told me one day I'd feel it too
I could try to smile to hide the truth
I know I was happier with you

Baby, you look happier, you do
I knew one day you'd fall for someone new
But if they break your heart like lovers do
Just know that I'll be waiting here for you
Ed Sheeran Happier
Barker Dec 2022
My darling,

I apologize if I am not the same hopeless romantic poet I once was.
I am sorry to say that I have wasted my words on poems that were written for temporary romances.
I am sorry that I can no longer write poems that sweep you off your feet.
Barker Dec 2022
I've been in many relationships, and there's only one which hasn't left any scars.
Sometimes things can trigger certain memories or feelings.
If that happens, do not worry, it is not you.
I'm still trying to work through some issues.
It may take time for me to be comfortable around you.
Many of my relationships have caused me to mask my true self and become someone else.
I want you to know that the more get to know me, the more you may not like what you see.
I'm still recovering from my past and so bad habits are still present.
I'm still changing and still learning.
If I ever do something that you don't like, please tell me.
Don't hide things from me, especially if it's something that I do that makes you uncomfortable.
Barker Dec 2022
I've been feeling empty and misunderstood for so long,
And then you come along and suddenly everything is changing,
I find myself thinking about you constantly,
Ways that I can make you smile,
Ways that I can share your burden so that life will feel less heavy,
I want to be there for you,
If you need a shoulder to cry on or just someone to talk to.
(c)barker
Barker Dec 2022
I have felt a resemblance of home with others,
But it always felt like I was missing something,
For some reason it seems like you hold it
(c)barker
Barker Dec 2022
On a plane reading the message you sent me,
My heart feels so warm like I'm drinking a warm cup of hot chocolate on a cold snowy night,
I feel at peace,
Such a rarity for me,
How can one person make me feel like this?
(c)barker
Barker Dec 2018
"Take a deep breath, you're shivering. Come here and I'll warm you up. What's the matter, love? Bad day? It's okay, you're home now. I've got you."
(c)ibarker
Barker Sep 2017
Hey readers!!!

Thank you so much for looking through my page. I wanted to give a shoutout to Lance McDonald. He has an awesome YouTube page where he reads poetry. He is trying to promote poetry because poetry is often overlooked.  As poets I think that we should all try to support him by following him.
His channel is: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCYG8zE0qsfk1bbuo9s-o2VQ

Thanks,
Barker Feb 2019
My love, my life, my darling, I love you so much.
But you see, I am having trouble getting my thoughts together,
And the words aren't flowing as easily as they used to.
I just wanted to say in less of a poetic sense,
You are the best thing that has happened to me.
I love how close we've gotten and I can't wait for our future.
(c)ibarker
Barker Oct 2017
Hey,
I know lately I've been a bit down,
But I wanted to say thank you and I love you,
And goodbye.
Just in case.
(c)ibarker
Barker May 2021
I
Left
You
Because
I
Was
Tired
Of
Being
Your
Poison
(c)ibarker
Barker Oct 2018
After all this time,
Why now?

After everything you've done to me,
Do you think that it could all be forgiven through two words?

After leaving me on the side of the road in the middle of winter,
You think I would go out of my way to help you?

Well, you're **** ******* right.
(c)ibarker
Barker Dec 2017
All that I have to give
Are my imperfections
And my inequalities.
I hope that it is enough
For I only have my broken self
To trade for your love
(c)ibarker
Barker Oct 2017
Tradition is good,
But it's also good to think about change.
The world will never stay in one generation forever
(c)ibarker
Barker Jun 2018
"That's the tragedy of living isn't it?" he asked,
"We watch our friends go through hard times. We watch the best people turn bad. We watch our parents die. We endure so much hardship in our early years. We let our feelings be locked up. It's like living isn't the goal anymore, survival is. If that's so then I don't want to live anymore."
(c)ibarker
Barker Jun 2018
If you have my attention it's because I care about you.
If I like you, then I won't be elusive,
But if you break my trust,
I will burn that bridge
And I won't look back
(c)ibarker
Barker Oct 2020
I've been hiding behind my walls,
Afraid of coming out,
Even when the person of my dreams is in front of me.

I am scared to get in a relationship because I've been in so many abusive ones.

I tell myself that I don't need love and that my best friend is all that I need,
But deep down I know that I want something more.
(c)ibarker
Barker Jun 2018
Tell me the truth,
Even if it is cold or cruel or hard to hear.
I would rather be heart broken
If it means that I have closure and I'm able to release the hurt and move on,
Than to waste my time being fooled by a lie intended to soften the blow to my feelings
(c)ibarker
Barker Jul 2018
Everything I touch just turns to stone,

I want someone who will hold me when I’m sad and whisper in my ear to wake me up,

She told me how she doesn’t like how my head is always in the clouds.

She said “If you just grew up then it wouldn’t be so rough.

I just don’t want to leave this life all alone.

So darling please listen to these 4 words.

Please Keep Loving Me
Because our hearts speak fluently
So baby,
Please Keep Loving Me
(C)ibarker
Barker Sep 2017
You don't have to follow their twisted fantasies
(c)Ibarker
Barker Aug 2019
I know I've told you a hundred times.
You're the best thing of my life.
Don't wanna be anywhere, but you.
Walking On Cars
Barker Oct 2017
You barged into my life unannounced
You stole my voice
You stole my time
You stole my life
You silenced my thoughts so I had no direction
You became my guide to my end
(c)ibarker
Barker Sep 2017
I know that feeling of being lost
I know that feeling that there is no one out there who understands
What you're going through and the emotions that you have

But listen to me
Hear these words that I'm about to say
I understand what you're going through
The emotions that you are feeling
I understand and I want to help

Because once ago
I was going through
The same thing
(c)Ibarker
Barker Jun 2017
And after all this time-
I finally understood
Why you never said goodbye.
Barker Apr 2018
You say you don’t understand what I see in you. My response is plain and simple as you. I see a girl desperately trying to find her voice. I see someone who has been through a lot. I see someone who doubts everything they do. I see someone who hates their body and themselves. I see you. And to me that’s everything. I see your smile. I see your laugh. I see your eyes and your freckles. I see what you are capable of. I see the potential you have to be something great. Sure, sometimes you are a bit of a mess, but that’s okay. Because I’m not looking for someone perfect. I’m looking for someone like you.
(c)ibarker
Barker Jul 2018
I like you not just because you're pretty and smart,
But because you understand me
And what I'm going through.
We have had similar experiences
And you understand my diagnosis more than me.
Despite all my flaws, you still accept me for who I am
And that's more than I could ever ask for.
(c)ibarker
Barker Jan 2023
“Go back to sleep love.”

I can’t

“What’s wrong?”

I’m not sure. I can’t tell if it’s one big thing or a million small things that is bothering me at the moment.

“Do you want to talk about it?”

Not right now. Maybe in the morning.

“Alright, well come closer so I can cuddle you. That’s better. I can’t promise to solve all your problems my dear, although I wish I could. I can however, promise that you don’t need to face them alone. I’m always here, even if you can’t see me. “

I’m just not used to having someone with me.

“I know, but you don’t have to fight your problems alone anymore. You’ve got me.”

Thank you for staying up with me. I’m getting a bit tired now.

“Always. Goodnight darling.”

Goodnight...I love you

“I love you too”
(c)barker
Barker Sep 2019
I think I’m afraid of letting go...
Barker May 2021
I missed my chance with a girl that I wanted to spend forever with.
(c)ibarker
Barker May 2022
I've forgotten what love feels like,
More so
I've forgotten what it meant
(c)barker
Barker Jun 2018
Thank you,
For all that you’ve done,
Barker Jun 2018
Je marche mieux quand ma main serre la tienne
Barker Sep 2018
I want you to know.
That even in this challenging time,
I still love you.
With all my broken, shattered and torn apart heart.
(c)ibarker
Barker Sep 2018
"I wonder how you are and if you ever miss me."
(c)ibarker
Barker May 2021
I have lived a hundred lives within this one life,







I'm still not sure which one was the real me.
(c)ibarker
Barker Oct 2020
A true poet at heart,
I’ve been trying to find someone who can untangle my messy thoughts and create something beautiful with them.

A true poet at heart,
I know you’ve been looking for the same. Every poem you’ve written has somehow been able to unravel my thoughts.

True poets at heart,
You’re the only one who knows me
Barker Dec 2017
You stole my voice when I wanted to speak and now I am voiceless.
(c)ibarker
Barker May 2018
Remind me of your voice again so I can flush out the demons
(c)ibarker
Barker Sep 2017
Sometimes you just
Need to stop
Listening to the voices
(c)ibarker
Barker Apr 2018
Is it really worth it?
Does loving you out weigh the cons?
You mean everything to me.
But I have these voices in my head
Telling me it's wrong.
These voices make me second guess everything.
I don't know.
What if I'm doing something wrong?
What if you don't really love me?
What if I'm just fooling myself?
...
What if you're just playing with me?
I've had my heart played with before.
What if this is all just set up for heartbreak?
I can't withstand another break up.
What if?
...
These voices keep me up at night.
I can barely sleep.
Sometimes I don't sleep at all.
I just lay awake thinking of all the possibilities.
I can hear the voices telling me that you don't like me.
I can hear them saying things that I know aren't true.
But they make me doubt everything.
I don't know what the truth is anymore.
And that scares me.
(c)ibarker
Barker May 2018
My hands grasp at air,
While my lungs suffocate on the sound of your silence
(C)ibarker
Barker Apr 2018
If this is what you want
Then why didn't you say?

You didn't say goodbye
Now you've gone away.

I'll always be with you
Barker Aug 2018
Take me by the hand, but don't get too close now, because I'm a little bit scared in life.

I need to run just far enough
So I can smile again.
(c)ibarker
Barker May 2018
I'm amazed when I look at you
Not just because of your looks,
But because of the fact that everything I've ever wanted
Is right here in front of me
(c)ibarker
Barker Oct 2017
The saddest moment in my life
Is finding out I'm still alive
(c)ibarker
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