Maybe we’re not meant to be happy 
Maybe the world is to big for that
  
Maybe some people are just supposed to fill up the empty spaces

It hurts looking at him...but when he walks into the room,  My eyes still follow his every step.. I cant tear my gaze away from him,  He's just so beautiful it hurts, and even after he disappeared my eyes linger a bit at where he last stood, and I'm left thinking the worst feeling is liking someone you know you can never have..
Someone, that doesn't even know you exist..

b.r

Every day is a strenuous battle just to keep marching forward.
The future terrifies me.
I can only hope I won't hurt then as much as I do now...
But, sometimes soldiers need to retire.
That doesn't make me weak, but vulnerable.
I'm an open target
but I'm on the verge of collapsing.
There aren't enough words to describe how I feel every day,
none strong enough or meaningful enough to describe this pain buried deep into my bones.
I want to ascend away, far, far away from here.

*What the ****
am I supposed to do?
I can't always hold onto false hope.