My heart feels so low
sinking in its own depths
slowly losing its true color
the joy and spirit it once held
all's fading away,

I used to be so happy
my heart so calm
so full of life
and held such beauty
but now no more,

The vulnerability that it now feels
ceases me from doing what I once loved
pushing away all the people that I was once so attached to
the limitless boundaries of freedom now tear apart
vexating my heart and drowning me,

I could once face all my fears
i once clarified all my ambiguities
but now suddenly they burden up
clouding and clustering my frail heart
that now breaths its end.

Sometimes I wish
I could lose weight
Just by lying on my bed,

No exercise,
No walk.
Just me,
My  bed
And my sleep.

Fear of losing someone has made her pale,
All she ever does is sit in the dark and stare,
As her heart pumps blood she feels him near,
Wounds and scars all over her body seem to scare,
She feels her soul being awaken,
Though her heart is broken beyond repair,
The experience of falling apart has made her stand on her feet,
She now knows how to absorb the heat,
Ups and downs have done her good,
Because now she knows that what was worth, was understood,
A new life has now come forth,
Leaving behind all the sarcastic oaths,
She has now forgotten his presence,
Learning only from her regrets, a lesson of pride and possession....

Let not be rebuked
by what the society says,

Let yourself spark
and ignite like the incandescent light in a dark room,

Let there be words of wisdom
let others minds be blown away,

Let not despair stab you
or the crude harsh words back you down,

Be the guiding light of your tunnel
because it's you who can help yourself,

Of tyranny and brutality
let not your pride hurt someone's ego,

Let not others deceit break you down
always remember that every scar has an even deeper lesson to it!

Let the tree hang low-
Let the streams flow past us,
Let the thunder roar.

Guys letter :

Roses are red,
Violets are blue,
I've seen the whole world but nothing seems to be as beautiful you.

Girls response :

I've seen men,
Some tall, some short.
Some hot, some not.
But you on the other hand are worth a lot !

They said the stars are the limit,
But it takes more than minimal to achieve,
That's when I struggled and put in a strenuous amount of effort to mold myself,
I blended amidst the mass, trying hard to be recognised,
Had i known earlier the difficulties that were likely to arise;
The challenges of maintaining an image,
The rumors and the lies that break you,
And the harshness of society and its demands that shatters you-
If only i knew, i wouldn't have taken down this road of turmoil and pretence.

I know I am obese,
Just please stop nagging,
And let me live in peace !

I get threatened to be killed,
But little do they know I'm already dead from the inside,

They say they'll hurt me,
But little do they know I'm already scarred,

They want to break me apart,
But little do they know I'm already broken,

Melting and haunted from within,
My demons lurk and escape out when I'm alone,

They say they will imprison me,
Little do they know that I'm already chained in despair,

They say they will make me regret,
Little do they know the remorseful memories I have to bear with,

They say they will sadden me,
Little do they know I'm already in a state of abyss and terror.

I brush my hand over my
exposed, scarred flesh
over the tormented bumps
and reddish blue bruises

I was once so open
so free to spread my wings
be myself
and to flee to places that were forbidden

But it all ended
in despair
with my heart composed
and my body sold

I was so submerged
with my surroundings once
I was so devoted to my friends
that I got carried away and got hurt

I became fragile
and frail
to an extent where I'd say that
I am now vulnerable

I trusted so blindly
I cared so thoughtlessly
that I forgot how it'd feel to suffer
to bleed and die from the inside

Now all I'm left with is
pain and poignant memories of yesterday
bits by bits I join them together
yet I am lonely

I was once so happy
once so juvenile
it all was taken away
because I trusted the unexpected, what can I say?

A quench of love
A wave of despair
Shackled heart
Vandalized repairs,

Catastrophic enchant
Oblivious soul
Sheltered emotions
Dwelling away,

Sea of desperation
Clouding my brain
Hold on you *****
It's for you to stay,

Selfish garden
Grows in haste
Flourished scars
Broken chains

Irresistible shroud
Exiling gay
Fondness stays
I don't fathom naive,

Fuming persona
Predictable hate
Destruct the bond
And carry it away.

Minute by minute I fall in love,
Limiting myself,
And restricting my heart for only you,
Your love at extreme diffuses my soul,
The ash n flame of our relationship enrages,
As time passes the candles of my past-
Which were once bright,
Die,
My past now lucid and dark doesn't haunt me,
Because by your side I feel more alive,
The enchant and charisma in our love strengthens our bond.

I gather words
From here and there
Merge them together
Dissolving hate

Love in its true form
Sparkles in the sky
Blooms with the rays of the sun
And resides in the soul

Your engaging power
So strong
Attracting me
And enchanting our love daily

Times change
Love remains not the same
In your heart I may have perished
But to me our love will never decay.

Captivating smile,
Engrossing all my attention,

I had no such intentions,
As to pursue him,

But it was that smile,
Entrancing and sensual,

His words so replete,
They make me gullible,

Your precious and enchanting presence,
Important to me.

Handsome faces,
Masquerade *****,
Masked here, masked there,
Champagne glasses raised,
Hoots and songs,
Sittin on the corner an unknown,
Black masked,
Memorizing his surrounding,
Hands gracefully piled across that broad chest,
Beaming a smile,
Thrashing the scars in her heart,
As she walks to him,
With the clock ticking 12 a.m,
She places a key and leaves,
In her room,
He enters with warmth,
There she stands under the moonlight,
Her body arousing,
Like ashen bodies they collide,
With each ****** she exclaims in pleasure,
Her legs locked,
Her fingers in his hair,
She compels him,
When done,
They lie together hand in hand,
Kissing in such intimacy,
As if one of them may leave,
In his ear she whispers,
Baby, please don't go,
But she knows that a one night stand can never stay,
Never will it be considered love.

I confabulate with thee,
Your words cut me so deep,
Leaving scars beneath the holes piercing in my heart,

Your voice so unreachable,
I try to connect with you,
But the feelings of complete and utter love, far gone.

Uncontrollable urges dwelling inside me,
My mouth so dry, out of words,
Trying to communicate in terms of getting thee,

Tranquility far from being found,
Loneliness scares me,
Your presence though, takes my breath away and calms me down,

My weak heart,
Wilts without you,
Defoliating internally and breaking me,

My nervous system,
Secreting enzymes from the pituitary gland,
Enzymes of hopelessness and heart break,

It feels like an ocean without water,
Incomplete and dry,
Waiting to fulfill that thirst of love,

A day without you,
Feels like an era passed,
Changing my surrounding and you on the way,

Devastated I am,
Deprived of that charismatic love we once shared,
Now bond-less, like oxygen being separated from hydrogen,

With ever drop of blood that falls,
Draining all my veins and arteries,
I can swear, I will always love you till the day my heart stops beating.

Loving me is not-
An option, its necessary,
So love me always !

The blowing of the wind,
The rustling of the leaves,
The blooming flowers,
And the heightened trees,
The blazing sun,
And the radiance of the fruits,
Flying bugs,
And tiny feet,
The journey of a bee,
From its hive and crossing the sea,
Animals in the wilderness,
Free to do as they please,
The flying dandelion,
Circling in the air,
Under the tree,
I lie,
Lost in my thoughts.
How beautiful is nature,
And the mind of our Creator,
Who so artistically,
Created and gave life to these beings.

His idiocy infuriates me,
He is always trying to ridicule with people,
Thinking he can win all respect.

The way he talks,
He puts me in paradox,
Thank God !
I'm impervious to his absurdity.

Falling a prey to his stories,
Would be a fault,
Don't want to believe his sarcasm,
Because all it gets me is wroth !

Connecting myself to your heart
I try to fathom the intensity of our love
the warmth of your touch
the concern that you shower me with
what is it that inclines me towards you?

It was perhaps the very sight
the glimpse of your first arrival
it was what took my breath away
and then I understood
I was lightning and you my thunder

A mixture of sedation and romance
how your words send goosebumps down my spine
the force of attractions that pull me towards you
it was all clear from that very day and I realized
I was madly in love with you!

His soft touch,
His deep grey eyes,
His heart melting smile,
And make-believe lies.

The way he talked,
Day and night,
About our future,
Not so bright.

His presence,
Breath taking presence,
His utter words of love,
And make-believe lies.

The way he left,
Forgotten the rest,
What the hell did I do?
You pest !

Other than his lies,
And his smile,
Only then did I say,
Baby, you're mine !

Now that he is gone,
I sit back on my chair,
Thinking why'd I love him,
And his make-believe lies !

Light shades,
Dark shades,
What am i to wear?

Lipstick, mascara,
Base and nail polish,
Mom in the back ground says, ' You're going to college.'

**** !
I need a new bag,
Also a liner by Mac.

Maybelline polishes,
All stacked,
So many colours,
But not black.

I need to apply Revlon,
As much as i can put on,
Making my lashes prominant.

5th Avenue, Still and Elizebeth Arden,
I want to wear them all,
' Oh no, i don't ' says my conscience,
But then again they're scents and my heart wants them.

Unzipping my wallet,
' No ', i have not much.
Making the puppy dog face,
' Mom ! Can i get money to buy a base ? '

She nodded.
' Also i want perfume, liner, mascara and a nail polish. '
She gives me a look.
' Go get your money and spend them on it.'

But i have no money,
I say,
She says,' Get a job and buy all of it.'
Like a baby i sob.

She ignores,
Looking all bored,
So she knows,
I'm acting emotional then why not scold

Spacious and resplendent,
Summoning people only once,
Words replete with beauty,
The voice of the imam like music to our ears,

Performing Hajj,
People from faraway,
Come to pray,
In the house of God for seeking His light,

Forgiveness and prayer on their tongues,
Regret and guilt shedding from their eyes,
Quarrels and worries aside,
Not caring about colour and creed,

My eyes seek only forgiveness,
And guidance,
For making things right,
O God please forgive me !

Infectious cravings strike,
Day by day materializing,
Away from purity and humanity,
Somewhere, infatuating over labels and glamour,
Does it matter that people are dying?
Silent echoes of the wind swirl pass,
It's the shop's they are gathered around-
Where you hear only people engage and sounds of clitter clatter.

A dozen of kisses,
An ounce or more hugs,
A pinch of caress,
And three heaped cups of love,
There's more to just measurements.

Meditating my way to Nirvana,
I exult in desire,
My needs fufilled,
And tranquillity comes along as willed,

Wishing away tyranny,
Atrocious leaders that ****,
Should try meditation,
Until their soul reincarnates.

She walked in the field alone,
Looking for a place to mourn,
She had lost her true love,
Thinking how  he took her hand when she last wore gloves,
That was at her wedding,
Tears started shedding,
Her eyes yearned to see him,
He left her amiss,
She looked back at the good times.
Now nothing seems to help,
People always leave,
Leaving nothing but a reason to grieve.

Memories cut me so deep,
Rupturing my arteries,
And killing every existent cell in my body.

Captivating is the boat sailing across the ocean,
Alluring are the winds blowing from the Sahara,
Amnesiac are the long winter nights in my bed,
Vandalizing are my thoughts and dreams which never came true,

I walk alone and journey across the world,
I fight the thundery and cold storms of the desert,
I cuddle in my bed during the Winters to keep myself from getting cold,
And I cry as none of my hopes may ever come true,

As I walk alone the only thing that accompanies me is my shadow,
The curvy paths of the desert and the runny sand swallow me into their crust,
The blanket that I wear to protect myself acts as a shield,
And my tears that I shed they mend and teach me what its like to be heart broken.

Percepting and interpreting my life goals,
My vandalized and shattered hopes,
Destructed and broken in a millionth piece,
Collecting sorrow from here and there,
The dark and horrendous nightmares that I embrace,
I'm oh so scared,
Acknowledging pain yet dissolving abhor,
All part of fear,
Skeptical images cloud my mind,
But I blow them away,
Believing my life is more than just hate and judgment,
It is believing in myself,
I am my foremost goal,
No one can pressurize me,
Reveling my whereabouts and where I stand,
I am my hero,
My own enemy,
And my own judge,
No one can be me !

People come and go,
Some vicious and monstrous,
Some convivial and angelic,

I've met people with split personalities,
People who empower their envious nature by destroying others lives,
People who's abhor over-rules them and vandalizes their humanity,

I've met people with a generous spirit,
People with an engaging smile and a heart of gold,
People with a captivating soul that seeks others and plunges them forward in helping,

Seven billion people in this world, mixed;
Some ghastly, some delightful,
And you came in and took my breath away.

There's a place in your heart and I know it is love* ( Heal the world),
Spread peace, concord and harmony,
Eradicate all tragedy,
Help the people in misery,

The fires in their eyes ( Black or white)
Those who deny to see the pain,
The woe and rage,
It's very heartfelt,

Before all these raging conflicts,
I saw people in tranquil,
Love in their eyes and care in their soul,
Now I don't know where we are (Earth song)

If you ever stop to notice all the blood shed before (Earth song)
The slaughtering of people,
The beheading of innocent souls,
And the atrocities being impressed upon the poor and needy,

People being judged,
People being humiliated,
No matter what the consequences,
It don't matter if you're black or white (black or white)

Things people hear,
Let them astray,
You should ignore all those peers and bring about a change,
There are ways to get there (Heal the world)

You yourself should avoid,
Actions speak louder than words,
Just remember to always think twice (Billie Jeans),
Don't let others see or feel your long lost pain.

The passing days,
The dark and lonesome events,
Alone in your memories i have died internally,
Trying to put back the pieces that are far gone,
Far from reach,
The aching sights that I see,
The voices of you in my head,
Now only flashbacks,
Why oh why did you leave?
One year gone and many more to see,
To bear the days in your absence,
And cry a pool of tears,
But still you won't come back,
I understand.

1 year,
365 days,
12 months,
8766 hours,
525600 minutes,
And
3153600 seconds.

Tick tock, tick tock,
Time has passed.

Despair,
Remorse.

He died,
Seems like ages.

I cry a lot,
But never have i stopped missing you from that day.

The day they took your coffin away,
Leaving behind decay !

I've been counting all the days,
And it now has been exactly 1 year,

I'm far too late to say this,
But I love you,
And I will always miss you.

I consider oblivion,
I contemplate my way down memory lane,
I trigger in more information about you,
But what I cannot bear is the devil inside you,

Your inner conscience,
Your words that pierce through my heart,
What is it about your ego?
Do you know how much I've been scarred?

Your intentions keep surprising me,
Convulsions elude my brain,
I make attempts to fathom our conversations,
Such delirium increments,

Vandalized heart,
Aggravated soul,
I have been incurred to err a lot,
But you are so far the worst mistake I have ever made.

Devastated,
Distressed,
Is what I am?

His coversations,
And lies,
Well I don't mean to pry.

Hesitation,
And calmness,
It's given me a reason to live.

Diversions,
And misguides,
It has led me in regret.

His songs so strong,
And lyrics so right,
Could make a person dance.
I fell in love with his voice,
Because his music speaks to me.
We will never forget you.
You were a legendary king
and no one can replace you .

My life though,
Obscure,
Never will I complain,
Even if I feel hopeless,
Y**ou will always enlighten my day.

Cold, windy breeze of December,
The snow blankets of January
Sharing hearts and chocolates in February
And waiting for the cold to exterminate in March
April comes along fooling and ridiculing people
And May just comes and goes in haste
June and July the ultimate breaker of heat and lethargic activities
August brings in fall, with variable petals and leaves here and there
September just like May ends in haste
Bringing spring in October
In November it dies and blows cold winds subsequently leading to December.

Never will I ask you to ever stay,
You to come once again and take my heart away,
Discrete are we now,
Once inseparable,
But now our relationship is on verge of decay,

Disputes between us,
Quarrelsome,
On epitome to my dismay,
How can I ever ask you to stay?
Work on me, love me and then take my heart away,

You once came and disrupted my heart,
Breaking the once strengthened bond which I thought may never break,
Causing me to shed my tears and mentally hurt me on the way,
Is this how you keep a promise to never leave?
And then dump and move on to your next prey.

Shrouded bodies enveloped,
With stains, lifeless they lay in peace,

                                   Tears shed in vain,
                                   No humanity, no soul,

Screaming people dragged-
Within this circle of death and slaughter,

        Pain and remorseful families,
        Wail in pain, awaiting termination of terror

Blood of innocence,
Drains in catastrophic pool and trails

            Cold hearts and atrocities leavin' corpses,
            Exiling the countries citizens,

Wiping away masses,
In hundreds and more.

The curvature  of your heart,
The center of attention that you are,
You pull me close to you,
A gravitational force is thus around you,
You accelerate my steps towards you,
You magnatize my heart,
And like electrons I revolve around you,
Our love is an atom,
You're  the nucleus I'm the electron,
I have many isotopes of you,
One is of love,
Second is for care,
And third is compassion.

Slowly and gradually I drift amidst my thoughts,
In depths and in extremes-
of an intensity, quite mere.
Could it be,
Or could it not,
the resonance of a vague sound,

From a distance it travels;
and calls me where there's peace and sanity,
Nothing less just-
The audible sounds of the wind;
Blown from beyond the coast to where i reside,
Whispering and confabulating with me,

In days of isolation or in days when in pain,
It soothes me and hums sweet melodies,
Always accompanied in joy or when in vain,
Knowing fully that I'd be deprived of a companion,
The winds call for me exterminating my despair,
Tis an endless friendship till the time I live.