How enticing were you, my dear,
How beautiful was our love,
Drowning in the river of despair,
Taking in might from everywhere,
I look into your glistened eyes,
'Brace yourself', I say as I walk away,

Before this I was the one who would say,
'Please don't go away',
And you would say,
'Love changes with time',
I would cry for you to stay,
But you would not even look back to stare,

My abhor for you rejuvenates,
My heart frail though my emotions fade,
You come back to me in realization that you'd made a mistake,
But i guess embracing our love will put my heart at stake,
Shaken by our long lost love,
I take down the path where my demons are caged and ready to escape.

A sweet
Mellifluous,
Pained
Yet
Melodious tune,
Your voice in every pitch,
Either
High
Or
Low,
Confabulates with me
In ways
That even you may not see,
Or even,
Feel,
The loving
Gestures,
The soft
Consistency in your voice,
Your lullabies,
My oh my !
They envelope me in your love,
Cast a shadow on me,
And please me,
Fervently.

The degree at which I seek,
In terms to keep;
Our relationship at peace,
Paradox it may seem,
To be a part of thee,
My life begins and ends in thy arms,
My forevermore,
My sweet temptation,
My final destination,

Eroding beside the shore,
On the corners,
Along the curves,
Candor you are,
And your heart at its worse,
Dysfunctional as it works slow,
Killing a millionth part of me,
My lips sealed,
And my love ceased,

My attempts to proceed,
Ignoring the mishap,
And a trillionth deceive,
Aggravating me indeed,
Seldom I see you weep,
For me to escort with thee,
I lose my hurt instantly,
Giving away my body,
My final destination.

Bred and bonded,
My childhood was amazing,
With him in his embrace I stayed in comfort,
His loving arms that wrapped around me,
And shielded me from threats,
And his gentle fingers that wiped away my tears,
His soft and mellifluous voice that sung me lullabies,
His steady and optimistic nature that gave a better outlook on the life that I now foresee,
His memory so vast and his loss so poignant,
Reminiscing his presence only shatters me in tears,
Knowing this time he won't be there to wipe them away,
Or to kiss my cheek and console me.

My heart so fragile,
Bumpy on the edges,
And sharp from the sides,
Scars seem to cover its layer,
Making it rough and pale,
My acute and chronic heart beats synchronize in resonance,
Lubb-dubb, lubb-dubb, lubb-dubb.

I converse with my conscience,
In somehow finding ways to captivate you,
To surrender you with my love,
A cage which bounds entry of any other, just you and me,

Your way of talking,
Your way of preaching,
Addicting and alluring me by weakening the chains around my hearts,
Star strucking me everywhere,

It now feels like amnesia,
Now that you restricted yourself from me,
Banishing all sorts of entry in my heart,
But still I have that special slot left for you and only you,

Its like i'm being dragged in the Egyptian era,
Where I i'm Cleopatra,
Or being offered a role in Shakespeare play,
Where I play Juliet and you my Romeo,

It was technically not love at first sight,
It was more of an appeal,
A disease a virus,
That infected me thats what I forsee,

Like Jane Austin's novel,
You as Mr Darcy and I as Ms Elizabeth,
Or it feels like being in the Victorian era,
Where you play Troilus and I play Cressada,

My historical insight,
Enrages my thoughts,
Comparing our lives in accord to them,
Our love so beautiful that will always remain.

My poetic insights
Confabulate with my brain
Spilling words in a rhythm
A flow I write about my love,

My poetic conscience
Assimilates with my hand
Moving my pen hastily
In description I write about your touch,

My poetic gestures
Seen in my writing
My heart races as I write each word
With love and feeling I express and pour in my thirst for you.

The luminous cascading of light-
Penetrates through my soul,
The warmth of the radiance,
The glow within the pores of my skin,
Alights my heart and yearns for more,

Acknowledging the deprivation and the cold,
Stranded in a meadow shattered and alone,
My eyes shed poignancy,
And my heart remorse,
What you don't know is you're my shelter as a whole.

Sweat is dripping down,
Trailing down my body,
The dirt that i have, coming off,
My body is bruised all over,
Feeling numbness on my joints,
I kneel down on my feet to clean up the mess i made,
As i neatly level the sand, i leave,
I feel happy and at ease,
Now that I'm done with this,
I think I can sleep in peace,
May my crushes soul rest in peace !

Leaves defoliate from their edges,
Withered leaves rustle in a musical movement,
My attention averts as I see this hustle bustle around me,
Oh how lovely is nature,
Grasping your attention,
Captivating the iris and addicting the pupil,
Such beautiful shapes and colors,
Some in dark, some in light
Light creeps in illuminating the gaps,
Revealing the patterns,
And stealing away many smiles,
Look what nature can do with you.

Never did I think
that days like these
would come our way
where misinterpretation
and frustration
would lead to ending things

I never imagined
our fights so ferocious
your heart so cold
and your words so harsh
never thought that your demented thoughts
would lead to such imprudence

Never did I think
that days like these
would come our way
where misinterpretation
and frustration
would lead to ending things.

As the sun drowns,
Afar the sea and betwixt the mountain,
It vanishes,

Everywhere a shadow takes over,
Spreading its blanket in the distance,
Only the moon lits,

It's strengthened light guides the way,
Helps during the dark,
Motivates hope and encourages those hiding,

It washes away the scars,
Heals the heart,
And revives the soul,

It's the only time of the hour,
Where you can be yourself,
And not hide away from the rest,

Those who are dragged into a dark place,
Brighten up,
And their spirit sparks inside,

The only time when I feel confident,
I don't get judged,
And without someones consent I can do as I feel.

Reasons and ways I implemented,
Words I carefully chose,
The attitude and furry that I controlled,

Was it not enough for you ?
Was it me ?
Or was it someone else?

You came in my life in a shot,
Captured my heart which in the beginning had already chosen not to love,
But you took it away and then had no courtesy to stay,

You left me without a reason,
No answers had I perceived,
I waited for my pleading and questions to be seen,

Then once you did,
You made fun of me,
I just need to know what I did that's all,

Give me an answer,
And I promise I'll leave,
And stop being hopeful about thee.

An excruciating solace in her words
the sharpness of which cuts me through
a drop of blood is all that there is
its a family thing they'd say,

I try to break through
leaping forward to observe the wound
a poignant wave of terror swoons
the harshness in her expression could be the reason to undo the two,

To mend and bring back
i tried my utmost to seek through words
to beseech the two
and they pushed me saying let there be no one to intrude as it was a family feud.

My wounds slit open
With blood oozing out
Spilling and emptying from my veins
My flesh so deeply ruptured
My heart almost beats its end
Only a minute away from death
My desires unheard
My story untold
I regret as I was once an introvert
Wanted the world to know me more
But nearing my death, no more!
It's not me internally that departs
Not just my soul
But also my existence will now only be a secret
Veiled and buried forever.

I cry out loud in the darkness,
Alone, I call for her to save me from this dreadful night,
To hold me in her arms and stay there till I fall peacefully into sleep,

'Oh mother! Where are you?'

I can hear my conscience scream in pain,
Horrified of the demons hiding in the shadows of objects,
And the monsters under my bed,

'I need you mother.'

Like an infant I weep,
To be heard in the other room,
But for some reason i feel so distant and unheard,

'Please come and hold me in your arms where i feel secure.'

Not a word is heard,
And just like that the storm comes,
Haunting me more and as i call out in fear,

'Mother!'

I try reaching her,
My voice echoes back,
But still no one appears,

'.'

I say no more,
Just lay back on my bed petrified,
Suddenly remembering i am no more at home, I'm all grown up!

Writers  block!

I wrote a poem and itsssss goneeeee vanisheddddddd... Goddddd now I forgot what I wrote :(
Why???? Why me?????

My virtues and my sins have drowned me in their depth,
The remorse that sweeps past my nerve,
I have been pulled into a world of judgmental freaks,

I have been restricted,
Putting barriers and blocks on my limitations,
Such a forbidden world,

Pleasing family,
Pleasing society,
Why? I'm not a puppet, or am I?

The things you have to face,
The never ending comments you have to bear,
Not an ideal situation if I must say,

The fear of reviving,
The uncertainty of doing,
Not fair at all !

Words cut deep inside her flesh,
Her eyes drip salt trailing down her cheek,
Before he would come and stop it from dripping off her cheek,
Now she has no one to stop them as they shed,

Her heart breaks reminiscing the times she spent with him,
Weak and careless she feels not being rectified,
Before he would be near and escalate her heartbeat,
Now her heart merely beats abyss through her veins,

Her wounded arms feels him grasp her,
Deprived they are of his touch and scarred all over with blood dripping down,
Before he would trace the veins down her arm making her skin ache for more,
Now she feels empty thinking when he would come back.

I've been trying to reach you,
In this silent dead area,
Where neither I nor you can see,
The dark and misty air,
Vague,
Though clear.
I can see you on the field,
Looking for a place to shield,
You and me,
We are distant,
But not that far from reach !

Oh Allah !
In this coming, spiritual month of Ramadan-
I plead for forgiveness,
I ask from you to cleanse our souls,
Forgive us all,
For we have sinned,
We are frail by heart,
We are liars and judgmental,

Oh Allah !
My eyes shed tears for all of this human race,
All those who have passed away,
For people who are still here,
And for those who have lost their strength,
I pray for all these people,
For their forgiveness, for their health,
I ask for your help,

Oh Allah !
To you we all shall return,
We are your disciples Almighty Allah,
And I ask from you to lead us to the right path,
We are your creation,
We have erred and ask for forgiveness,
How guilty are we and how we've fallen in abyss,
Please listen to our prayers and let us taste the essence of a heavenly afterlife.

In sickness and health,
I seek refuge and comfort from you,
Oh mom !
Innumerable times have I disrespected you,
But whenever I am down I always come to you,

I may look around in despair,
In search of help,
But where to go I think to myself,
Without you I feel torn,
I have no one there to assist me,

Oh mom !
I maybe old,
But not enough to walk through this war-zone,
It's your hand that leads me to success,
How can i be so blind?

That one night,
In my room I lay in the dark,
Alone I tried to fight my fear,
Mom, you were away,
And I was so scared,

That one time I remember,
In school I fell,
I sprained my leg,
I bled a lot and cried for someone to help,
But no one really payed attention,

Everyday as I grow mature,
I see you old and frail,
Your stress lines and wrinkles seem to appear,
Your face so pale,
But till today you're there to mentor me and guide the way.

Don't plagiarize my poems,
Or else you shan't live !

Once a baby,
Now no more,
Oh how wonderful were those days,
No pressure, no hurt,

Now its so hard to cope with people,
To deal with life and make new friends,
It scares me at times,
As I lurk in the darkest places at night,

I seek for life to entice me,
For friends to suffice and complete me,
But all I ever get is betrayed,
No one there stays in the end,

Once when we were kids,
I remember we'd make paper planes,
And wait for the recess bell to be heard,
So we could play together in unison,

Once when girls and boys weren't discriminated,
When we'd all sit together and talk,
Play games all the time,
And be cooperative and nice,

Once a baby,
Now no more,
Oh how wonderful were those days,
No pressure, no hurt.

Unsure of my faith,
I take down to the path that's vague,
Where there's paradox and limitless clues-
That somehow intervene these strings of hope,
Loops and knots assemble one by one that cause recurrent pain,
Shadowed by the blanket of darkness,
Illuminated by the edge of dawn,
A low sigh escapes,
Breathless and outdated-
Remorse lurks behind the doors of ache,
Ready to be set free once every ending year

Truth or lie,
Not so clarified,
Is it beauty that you seek or physical desire?
My heart pounds for you,
But there's poison in your head,
My heart is full of madness and regret,
Believing you and your small talking romance,
I'm tired of fantasizing love stories that start with, 'Once upon a time'!

Jewels of our country,
Gems of the world,
Every child in their own
differs and holds an astounding talent,
A devastating day on 16 December,
Last year kids were martyred to death,
Victimizing their families and friends,
They will always reside in our hearts,
They will always be our shining stars,
Our countries honor and pride,
Those souls in heaven will shine so ever bright,
Their smiling faces in peace,
Will ease the pain in their mothers heart,
Satisfy their father,
And stand as audacious children for our nation,
You will always be remembered,
And will always own a huge slot in our soul,
Our tears that we shed for you,
Will not be meaningless,
And these tools will help stand against those savages,
Making them pay till the day we all live,
And slay their heads off in terms of decay.

Our love is like sand,
With each passing day grains of sand fill up the spaces between us,
Making this love stronger than a diamond,
Sharp as a knife,
As it cuts through my skin and caresses my heart,
Our love is exotic and beautiful.

The full moon rises
with an echo from the corner
creaking sounds from the distance
hallucinating in the darkness
as the silhouettes of the night awaken my senses
hearing each and every sound
understanding the pain of tortured souls
grieving over poignant memories
hearts of those withered and souls decayed
tis the drug inhaled causing such serene
and ability to hear the ache of others.

Silent waves
Swirling wind
Snow flakes
Cold estranged memory

Sudden ******
Heart break
Bleeding arteries
Ferocious flow

Dark street
Poignant hurt
Sharp path
Foggy covering

Closed eyes
Streaming tears
Never ending scar
Broken dreams.

Men in khakis,
Men with armed weapons,
Sweep the countries boundary spreading peace,

Solid hearts,
And flourished souls,
Gallantry in every man shows,

Whether hot or cold,
Either its a blizzard or a storm,
These men stand strong on their feet ready for war,

Dissolving angst,
And taking in all worries as an obligation,
They perform their duties as saviors to the country,

With eyes they see cruelty,
With hearts they perceive pain,
But with valor they leap forward to exterminate.

Hoisted flags,
Houses alight,
Enthusiasm and faces so bright,
Different shades of green and white.

Celebrating this day in high spirits,
See the khakis on their feet,
Hark the drummers beat,
Soldiers with their flags and guns parading with precision and zeal.

Praises and accolades to Quaid,
He has given us a reason to fight,
Fight for Pakistan and for our right,
This purpose we have reached through our inner site.

Love and affection has always been his top priority,
Working day and night for a living,
Providing all kinds of comfort to his family,
A very respectable man he was,
As wise as a lover,
Bringing candies,
Giving them to everyone,
His wife would consider herself the luckiest person on earth,
His attention and devotion to her was a blessing,
He was the reason that put a smile to our faces,
He lit the whole house with his presence,
His wife, his children and their children meant the world to him,
Putting in all efforts to his work,
Books, writing and family were his strength,
He would mend broken hearts,
Never did he complain about something,
Always there for everyone through thick and thin,
He would stand on his feet to support,
A busy man he was,
But never did he give up,
A man of morals,
A well known personality my Grandfather,
You will always be remembered,
Remembered as a loving husband, an ideal father and the best Grandfather !!!!!

Now as I've grown up,
I remember my childhood,
I recall so many times and events when I would fall in tears,
Losing hope and shattered beyond repair,
My mom would hug me,
And I would complain,
She would wipe my tears,
And say, 'Patience my child',

These words ever since that day have never gone astray,
Now that I feel sad,
I cry a couple of times,
Yes, I may also go on long walks alone,
I would lock myself up,
But then again it would hit me hard in the brain,
I hear my moms voice say, 'Patience my child',
These words have ever since brought a change.

Thou shalt never go to heaven,
God will make thee pay !!!!

How can someone be so selfish?
If you see someone relish,
Why not let them be ?
It ain't that hard as it seems.

Poignant images,
Excruciating pain,
Remorse you mean to say,
Some know some don't,
Unbearable they say,
Accepting your plea finally,
Sending flowers to lure,
Invincible bail,
Obstinate ways,
N**ever gain.

You're the star to my ocean,
You're the diamond to my sky,
You baby are my sweet lullaby.

I've seen a thousand stars,
But I've never seen one like ours <3

The insomniatic nights,
I would lie in my bed looking here and there,
It's like I dwell in the dark,
But now I just take a pill or two,
And sleep in traquility.

This is not a poem just a request,
My result will be declared tomorrow so please pray for me.

The cold breezes of November,
The dark and lonely nights of December,
Days had cut in ones desire,
Now there are snow capped mountains of January,
These months passing by so fast,
And you my honey haven't come by,
You had gone last September,
Promising your return,
From that day on wards,
I waited for your arrival,
The raging war and conflicts,
They have lengthened your stay,
For as long as I can remember,
Now I just can't wait.
Please come back,
The war will take you away from me,
Remember the promise that you made,
You'll be back in one piece,
Let that be,
Vandalism all over country,
All over the news can be seen,
People in uniforms running to save our country,
But I am too selfish to let you go,
I don't care about the rest,
Just the misery that struck me,
Of losing you,
And how it would be !

She cried for hours,
On an accident that she recently met,
Devastation and tragedy distressed her,
Her eyes got swollen,
Making it hard for her to see,
Her throat constricted,
With an irregular breathing rate,
Her heart broke,
Bleeding within her body,
A scar on her heart,
It was left unwounded.
Her tears caused a pool of tears,
In which she herself drowned in despair.