You were red and you liked me because I was blue
You touched me and suddenly I was a lilac sky
And you decided purple just wasn't for you.

Live in LA now
Hard without you
I'm missing you miles away
Said I need space but
I don't need space
I need you
to come to me

Was I stupid to love you?
Was I reckless to help?
Was it obvious to everybody else?
That I'd fallen for a lie?

The questions echoed in my mind,
Haunting me, day after day.
I thought I knew what I was feeling,
But now, it all seemed to sway.

The love I thought was true and pure,
Turned out to be a facade.
The help I offered, so willingly,
Was met with a deafening nod.

Everyone else, they saw it coming,
The signs were there, plain to see.
But I, blinded by my own emotions,
Couldn't fathom the reality.

A lie, so carefully woven,
Ensnared me in its web.
I trusted, I believed, I fell,
Only to be left with dread.

Was I stupid to love you?
Was I reckless to help?
Was it obvious to everybody else?
That I'd fallen
for your
lie?

i'm breathing fast
i'm seeing the past
things i don't want to remember
hit me like a blast

anxiety rising
breath denying
i'm hearing their words
i feel like i'm dying

their words hit me like a stab
i crunch like a crab
that they stepped on
i feel a jab

words bleed out of my chest
as i remember what i don't want to
i'm not ready
wait... just let me

try
to
forget

I don't know
maybe it's because
no matter how light or dark
it's still the same color

if i was icarus
and the wax on my wings melted
i would have apologized to you
for splashing the ocean water on you

if you stabbed me
and i was dying
i would have apologized to you
for getting blood on your shirt

if we fought
and didn't make up
i would have apologized to you
for saying sorry

well,
i'm sorry.
sorry.

I must admit
I was never true
It just never seemed unfair
to you