I saw the gleam of love and acceptance in your eyes
and in that moment my heart melted and I knew it would be okay
I still remember what it feels like to be pressed against your side

{KAH}

every single time I open myself up I end up ******* things up
I'm too open, too honest, too naïve, too ignorant for things to actually work out
every time I open myself up I'm just taken down from the inside again
but not by him
by me

{KAH}

i see the sadness in your eyes when you think no one is looking
and my insides are screaming because there is n o t h i n g i can do
the way you curl up to protect yourself
i know that feeling
i k n o w
because i feel it every single day of my life
i still the way you felt against me
locked in your arms i've never felt so safe

{KAH}

she wakes in the morning to the glow of the sun, hoping that today will be different.
but she sits up and the exhaustion sets in. her bones ache and her limbs tremble.
i suppose that's a side effect from fighting your demons all night.

{KAH}

every time I'm around you I see your glow.
your smile brightens the world around me and your happiness is infectious.
i've never felt so safe in anyone else's embrace.
i hear your voice in my ear and the way your face looked when you saw me for the first time in a month.
fleeting moments, stolen glances, feeling your breath synchronize with mine when you're next to me-
but you don't feel the same way.
what else is new?

{KAH}

Everyday I walk around.
With this pain in my heart.
And if you ask me why I'm hurting. Well I wouldn't know where to start.
You see you did something to me that changed me through and through.

And if you asked me why I am who I am today the answer would be you.
So you see it's hard to drive to the places we use to go.
Because inside you're always there.
And no one really knows.

i can't believe that for so long
i actually thought that message meant me
it never could have meant me
she's nicer
prettier
kinder
happier
everything that i am not
and the worst part?
i see why you love her and not me
i am bitter
uglier
sadder
everything that she is not

{KAH}