pardon my words
pardon my actions
i am a wilful child
i choose to be that person

I chased you away
But i didnt think you would actually leave
But
I am not sorry for the things i said

Because if you wanted to stay
Nothing could keep you away
My demons unleashed upon the world by defense
And you decided it was okay to go

Its okay
I will survive
Ill be okay
All alone

the nerves are stiffening
blood turning to stone
the mind gets duller day by day
hands frozen in ice

the nerves are stiffening*
heart turning to stone
the pain decreases day by day
tears all dried up

the nerves are stiffening
the body is becoming immuned
the mind flushes overthoughts
the heart won't want to feel
slowly
bit
by
bit
the person becomes...



...numb.

Love is magical**
For it's the closest thing we have to magic
For it could conquer anything
For it makes people do the craziest
The most unbelievable

It causes sacrificial doings
It drives us insane
We gave everything
And asks for nothing in return

It is unconditional

But now that's all in the past
Because I think I no longer believe
That love really exists.