To the poet
Who writes for her -
Your words deceive me
Then destroy me with an endless longing.
I wish I was her,
For she inspires you
The way I only wish I could.
You write to love her
I write because I'm selfish.
Because it's the only way for my self-preservation,
Because if I don't hold a pen
I would hold a blade.
You write to impress her
I write to express my helplessness.
Your poems liberate you,
Mine suffocate me even more-
Pushing me deeper into the longing...
Forcing me to question -
How the heck have I been enduring
All this within me, without you?

The pain inside her demanded to be felt
Heartbroken as she already was
Her body lying like a lump of flesh
Trying to find solace
But what was she expecting?
For she had committed a sin
Wanting to break out of the guilt that surrounded her
One day she decided, decided her fate
Instead of fighting she surrendered to the darkness
The darkness took over her
Trying to refresh her wounds
Betraying someone was what she had done
That someone who was her light
Light of hope, of love, of life
Crestfallen as she already was
The darkness found its home
Buried itself deep inside her
Leaving her all alone....

There it was
she watched death across from her,
staring her in the face,
grinning evilly at her misery.
It knew the control it had over her.
It knew that no matter how hard she tried...
she couldn't defeat death.

The fear it instilled in her would always be there,
she could not escape its bony grasp.
It knew her one weakness.
It knew that no matter what,
she was trapped in this dark, icy place.

Eyes opened, nothing but darkness I can't see.. What happend we're am i? I can't think. Reaching for you I can't feel. Someone help!!!!!!!

I screamed, well I think I did wait..... I can't hear.. What's going on? Please someone get me out of here .

No thaw wall are closing in, I can't move. T, th, the air is thining.. No wait I can't breath..

Sent away from the creature whom I lended all my affections
The world embraced a dreary monochrome
Shaking on substances I tried to forget
On a stage clothed in black and red
Soul running out my nostril, now it can never speak
Education is terrifying throughout timelines in which we feel tormented through hollow images of souls veiwed in hallways
And the ruby back of me, when remarks you can both discover and see
Smelling isolation with apathy

Times like these where i don't think you are my knight and shinning armor.
You are more like a cigarette with every inhalation that I take I'm closer and closer to death
you just drive me ******* insane..

Let me take that back,
cause you don't understand any way else
You suffocate me
as if i cannot  breathe with each step that I take towards you
The more you want me, the less i do

My therapist says its an obsession,
for you to care this much
Obsessions can be dangerous if not taken care of..

But i do not worry, cause eventually you will forget
Forget  my sweet voice and the way I would sing to you at night
Forget my brown eyes and they way I looked at you when you smiled
But most importantly, you will forget I ever existed,
and instead you will remember of the monster you turned into

I'm sure I did it again
Don't ask me how.
I ask myself this,
and I come up with a list
That is twenty miles long,
Listing everything,
Yet blank,
Just as confused as I.

I don't quite know,
If it was my insanity or yours
That shoved us away.
Maybe a bit of both?
Maybe it was neither.
Maybe you got sick of me,
I know I'm quite annoying
And I have to many flaws.
How did you ever put up with me?!

Maybe it was you,
Maybe we're just too different now.
But it wasn't your fault,
You've done nothing wrong.
You never do.

You can come back,
Anytime.
There will always be a spot for you.
Because you were great.
Funny and silly,
And even when you weren't
I felt nice near you.
And I know you're having problems,
I know too well,
For I read it in your poems,
And it hurts.
I want to help,
But only if I'm wanted,
Because in all those poems,
About people you like and love,
People who you need around
None are about me.

Please come back,
The table will feel empty.
I will feel a little empty.
I miss you.

Her words shatter like glass around me,
This is more painful than I thought it'd be.
She whispers "I can tell you're not happy",
I look at her like she just slapped me.
It seems I cant get over the words she's said,
Each line running through my head.
I look at her with tears in my eyes,
"Please stop telling me lies".
She looks at me and whispers" I'm sorry, but were done",
I walk away and the heart break has begun.