The thunder is my friend,
he conceals me with his echo.

The lightning is my brother,
he protects me and strikes down my enemies.

The rain is my sister,
she washes away every bad memory I carry with me.

I can hide from myself with the elements of nature,
but I cannot hide from the wind.
She knows my every move.
She knows my every secret.

The wind carries my doubts away,
and with her reassuring whisper,
I know I'm here to stay.

I love how
it is so easy
to fool people.

I love how
I can smile
and no one
can see.

I love how
the days can
pass
in a blur.

I love how
it feels like
I am always
standing still.

I love how
depression
makes me feel.

But really
I don't love it
at all.

What if I get lost?
What if I can't find my way?
Will I feel guilty from the cost,
will I feel sad that I didn't stay?

I always thought that you'd be there
to hold my hand
whenever I felt lonely, whenever I felt scared
but I guess I had to learn on my own
that not everything goes as planned...


"But what if I get lost?"
I asked mother.
"Just hold my hand," she replied.
I held as tightly as I could,
as we made our way through the crowd.
Faces drifted by in a blur.
We were pushed and pulled
by bodies squeezing by us.

I could feel as our hands
began to slide apart.
I reached my small fingers towards hers,
but they were already gone.

The star player has lots of friends,
He stands in the center of the field
surrounded by all of the other players,
and everyone is cheering for him
when he makes a goal.

He has never known what it is like
to be on the sidelines.

The player on the sidelines,
watches from afar.
When the player on the sidelines
works hard to please everyone,
no one cheers for him.

Now the player on the sidelines
does not feel that the star player
has an obligation
to let him join in the main game.

He just wishes that the star player
knew what it felt like...
to be on the sidelines.

There it was
she watched death across from her,
staring her in the face,
grinning evilly at her misery.
It knew the control it had over her.
It knew that no matter how hard she tried...
she couldn't defeat death.

The fear it instilled in her would always be there,
she could not escape its bony grasp.
It knew her one weakness.
It knew that no matter what,
she was trapped in this dark, icy place.

This.
is life in one second.

Breathe light escape memories happiness sunshine free dance music crazy love sweet kiss beautiful heart time waiting afraid pain loneliness tears empty shadows weakness god death disappear whispers ripples flight colorful brighter blissful souls forever.

I don't want anything fake
I don't want to mess around
I've been there, I've made that mistake
But why am I so scared...at the sound
of something real?

Life isn't so bad right now
I have my goals, I have my dreams
But I just don't know how...
Oh how my heart screams
for something real.

OK we've seen the storms
we've see the rain...
So what now?