Another sleepless night you have taken from me.
Stolen. Along with my heart; I cannot be set free.
Why does it continue to happen - the thoughts, that flood my head.
As I lay awake and restless in my bed,
I remember the honeyed lies you fed me,
Sweet poison to my ears.
But now you have finished serving your bitter sweet lies
And the aftertaste is sour, as I lay here unable to close my eyes
Another sleepless night you have taken from me.

I tried and now I'm tired.
I explained my reasons,
I swallowed my pride,
I cried my heart and now,
It's broken.

I tried to be what you wanted,
I changed, I altered, I revised.
I became better you said.
But then I still wasn't.

You always said,
"Trust is not enough."
With much jealousy,
I know you never trusted me at all.

This is the truth.
I love you.
It's been 2 years,
I tried and now,
I'm just tired.

The demons come from within, she said.
The voices, all of them, the ones inside your head.
They come when you are at your lowest, most unable to fight,
And they'll continue to torment you, into the depths of the night.
"You'll do it to yourself" she warned,
"You'll think yourself to death".
Well maybe death is the only peace.
From demons inside my head.

I am not crazy,
Though the voices inside my head would prove other wise,
I am not lazy,
Though I would rather stay indoors than go outside,
I am not sad,
Even though I can easily think myself into depression,
I am not mad,
Even though your cruel words can are a constant suppression
I am just me.
A teenager growing up.
Wishing, I had that extra bit of luck.