The pedals on the runner
from our wedding
are on fire
and I'm drowning
on the trust
once spoken in our vows
The world is collapsing in on me
and it's only a matter of time until I run
I envy the wind
Constantly on the move
Gracing all in its way
then parting with no attachments
I long for a stone to shatter this glass house
Freeing any voice that ever spoke my name
and ending this constant battle to feel loved
In the bottom of the ocean she waits
In the bottom of this everlasting sorrow
I place the final brick
Completing this crooked wall
and barricading my heart
until she soberly opens her eyes

You’ve fallen
One to many times
Now
I can no longer hold you up
A drowning person
Will hold you under
Just to get a few more seconds
Of life
Regardless of who you are
What you’ve done
Where you’ve been
None of that matters
The sky is tainted
With a touch
Of what we could have been
And
I can no longer carry all the weight
Alone
Unloved
And lied too

You're shouting at shadows
Expecting witty response
When the only shadow following you
Is the one of your former self.

The one who loves you like I did
The one yet to see the real you
The one who broke my heart