Not once did I say I love you.
Not to them.
Not to you.
Not to myself.

But if it wasn’t love,
How can these feelings linger for so long?
Is it the fact that you were never mine?
Well, not mine in the normal sense.

You were my best friend.

Sometimes,
I think my letter is what made you leave,
But that can’t be true.
You left long before I even wrote the letter.

There were letters before that.
I wrote them late at night
When I couldn’t get you out of my head.
Those letters never met paper.
They all sit on my computer
And in my heart.

The letters that begged you to stay.
I wrote that you should go,
But you would know to stay.

The letters that told you I was lost.
I wrote that I was fine without you,
But you would know I am crumbling.

Maybe it’s because you know me so well.
You know me better than I know myself.

Maybe it’s because not only do you know me,
But I know you
Better than you would ever admit.

Is that why you cut me off?
You don’t want me to know you anymore,
Or do you not want to know me?
Or, maybe,
You already know how much you hurt me,
Without me ever saying a word.

I don’t want to believe it was love,
So I’m never going to say I loved you.
Not to them.
Not to you.
Never to myself.

no, I'm not talking about the ones with big noses
or greasy hair

not the ones with bad breath
or round bellies

no, I just like them raw
a little broken, a little sad

the ones with scars
a story to tell

I sure know how to pick em' you might say
but I'd never give them up any day

a whole adventure in a person like the outdoors
one with canyons and mountains he would let me explore
only ugly guys give themselves all at once
no parts hidden, everything is exposed

vulnerability is thought to be a weakness but in reality it's bold

I like ugly guys.

I'm sorry
All I know
How to do
Is to ruin things,
Like people,
And places,
And memories.

i hope i find you someday
again.

walking down the street
as beautiful as the first day
again.

wearing same smile
world in your eyes.

bearing all this while
my reason to be alive.

i hope i find you someday
again.

walking down the street
and it's about to rain.

i hope i see you like that
once again.

i know then,
i'll remember your voice
for in the end,
i had no choice but to
delete you

and now after so many
years without you

i still don't have a clue
if there was any without you

for i can still feel you
in my arms

as if you never left
as if you have always been.

you were right here always
in my dreams,
walking down the street,
like we're still sixteen.

always.

hindi ko alam
wala akong magawa
ang bigat sa pakiramdam
gusto ko na itong mawala

mahal kita
hindi ko ipagkakaila
ngunit wala akong magawa
kundi pumayag na itigil na

kahit ayaw kong itigil
damdamin hirap ipigil
hindi ko naman gusto ito
kasi ikaw ang gusto ko

sobrang sakit sa akin
pag-ibig ko'y hindi tanggapin
pinili ko pa rin na ika'y intindihin
ngunit mas lalo pa kitang gusto makapiling

bawat pag iwas sa iyo
ay katumbas ng lalong pagkamiss
kaunting sulyap sa pagdaan mo
ay bumabalik agad lahat ng ala-alang matamis

bawat pag-alala sa mga nakaraan
pinapalitan ang tamis ng pait
bumibigat ang aking pakiramdam
puso'y kumikirot sa sobrang sakit

hayaan **** mahalin lang kita
lilipas din ito at mawawala
at kung sakaling babalik ka
sana ikaw pa rin ang aking sinta