Allura Dannon Smith

Oct 2017

MikeTheVike

i’ve been thinking a lot
about your hand in mine
the way that our fingers
and palms intertwine

but i think about death
about loss, about worth
i admit that i fear
to return to the earth

where our bodies dissolve
into roots of a tree
and will grow into trunk
then limb, then leaf

but i've heard from a bird
that death will reverse
and your heart will beat hard
like it did at your birth

so hold on for dear life
with your hand in mine
if death makes us let go
it is only for time

© Mike Mortensen

#life #death #love #immortal

Allura Dannon Smith Jan 2017

war

I'm in a war
between making myself happy
or taking care of everyone around me
i provide good emotions and feelings to those who are sorrowful, an ear to anybody that needs to voice their thoughts, and body to anyone who needs companionship.
although i often find myself melancholy, lonesome and wondering if i will ever have someone that i could call upon in my times of despair to comfort me.

just another warm up

#sad #lonely #confused #hurt #tired

Allura Dannon Smith Jan 2017

warm up / vent

spiraling, spiraling further into the depths of your own mind.
nothing like overreacting to every single thing that happens to you, right?
you know you love when you cant sleep at night because you're drowning in all the hypothetical situations you've created.
when you wake up you cant wait to find the first thing that you can worry yourself over. it's just divine isn't it?
but after enjoying your own pain for so long that it's started to effect other people, you realize....
it doesnt have to be like this.
so you start your... "routine"
you start thinking on the positive side more often.. you start living life and slowly worrying less about all the things that haunted you before. you notice people around you are in a better mood more often... but most importantly, you realize that **checking up and taking care of your mental health is important. it helps you be a better person all around, and you shouldnt be scared if you may ever need help.

it's been a while since i've written anything. this is a warm up / vent about things that have been going on for me. thank you for reading.

#mind #health #vent #insight #internalmonologue8

Allura Dannon Smith May 2016

Untitled

i told him everything today
and that if he wanted to love me
he would have to help me
help myself
i've said this to people before
they all left after some time
they couldn't handle it
but he's different
he understood, he talked to me
about everything
and for the very first time in my life
i could tell he wasn't lying
he would be there
to love me and help me
help myself
and love him too.

#love #happy #nice #caring #meaningful

Allura Dannon Smith Mar 2016

Not the Same

It's not the same
As it once was
I was sad, you went out
All night
No call, no reply
The nights that I spent
Crying, depressed
With a melancholy outlook for life.
Now I enjoy myself, I have friends
While you are waiting on me
But the jokes on you,
you'll be waiting forever.

Allura Dannon Smith Mar 2016

Untitled

where the shore and the skyline meet
out into the distant horizon
is where i finally feel complete
the feeling of wholeness washes over me
as the waves greet my body
descending into an unknown deep
so that i may stay complete.

Allura Dannon Smith Aug 2015

Untitled

when i think of you,
all of my emotions go into a blender,
inside my mind, and it's on the highest level.
when im with you, im at a loss for words, nervous and weak bodied.
being with you makes me feel like myself. and even when everything around me is falling apart, all i need is your embrace and i'll be okay.