you said that i manipulate
but i've been in those in the past
i didn't even know that they were doing it
so tell me what i did, tell me why you think i did that
i trusted you and you threw it away and i can't trust anyone anymore
you said you loved me was it all a lie you wanted it to last forever
you wanted to get married and i had it all planned out  
you had the ring coming and then you listened to everyone
who was against me and hated me for a stupid thing i said
i wanted to marry you, i still do but you don't believe in me
even if you hate me now i still care for your health
i still love you and everything you do
but i want you to life and not die
you are still my friend even if i'm not your's

I fell in love in love with a person i known all my life,
and a person i met at the beginning of the school year,
i told to one i've known forever i loved him when i had a panic attack,
and i just started dating the one i just met,
the person i've known is in PPH a suicide hospital,
the other is on the way to his class in Wabash,
the person in PPH is there because of me i think because i told him,
  the other is waiting to get on the bus to sit with me on the way home,
the person gone, has a girlfriend and he said"if things don't work out than i'm asking you out because i love you"
and i told him that i had a boyfriend yesterday,
Now, he has 100 new scars and i think its my fault,
i didn't want to be sad watching him and his girl,
At my table being happy while i was sad,
i love two people one here, one gone
but i still love them both
but i love the one whose gone more......

This was the day i dislike the most ……
the day to leave such a beautiful place
with a friend that would see the beauty in it too
but for the first time, and my second…
Like a day we say sorry to the woods
Wishing we could stay but we had
A bigger plan, we might just come back
one day just to say hello again whether
With a new family, or each other, only the future will now

Sometimes I feel like I'm in the clouds
I see you there with me way up there
We sing we laugh, we may kiss once or twice
But we are always there and everything feels like air
I want you to know that I really do care
I want a life that has no end
To spend with you forever
And really care.

See me for who I am,
not who I was
not what I've done,
not where I've been

See me as the man god created me to be
See my heart, not my body
See me for who I am and who I will become
See me for what I will do
not my mistakes in the past

Everyone has left a trail
some clean, some battered with footsteps
but let the trail you leave be beautiful