I miss the weight of "I love you"
The gentle pull, the soft breakthrough,
A phrase once whispered, raw, sincere,
Now scattered wide, to all who hear

I cast it out, a fragile charm,
A whispered warmth, a healing balm
To strangers, friends, and passing souls,
To mend the gaps, to patch the holes

It’s not a lie, but not the same,
It lacks the spark, the tender flame
Yet still, it blooms in passing hearts,
A love reborn in scattered parts

Perhaps in giving, I will find,
The echoes of a heart aligned
Until that day, I’ll let it flow,
To bloom in places I may not know

Ids and shadow selves
Wandering around
Forgotten like leftovers
Of unwanted takeaway
Neglected and repressed
Fed by our collective values
And abusive behaviours
A selfless act of a conscious psyche

In a disruptive reality
Used as an antidote for the painful truth
Failing to fail
Just to stay hurt
Missing the obvious
But dreaming of the unknown
Like great artists we admire
The self-orchestrated theft of our lives

Fallen short of an ideal that doesn’t exist
Not even in our thoughts
We wander around
Cultivating dullness and immorality
Covering our tracks with false beauty and self-esteem
Leaving our souls behind
Hiding the madness
Once called LOVE

From the top of the toes
To the tips of the hair
A permanent sway
Between hope and despair

Days with no sunshine
Nights with no sleep
Making the soul
Fall down deep

Frantic with anger
Sourced from within
Like closed road to heaven
And paved way with sins

Numb to the world
Nowhere to hide
Persistence of pain
Locks us inside

From the top of the toes
To the tips of the hair
With butterfly wings
We fight through the air

Wrong words
Lead to wrong feelings
Wrong thoughts
Wrong turns
Wrong doings

Wrong words
Lead to dreamless sleep
Empty hearts
Empty eyes
Empty seats

Wrong words
Lead to nowhere
No man's land
No man's smile
No man's soul

Wrong words
Chain our minds
Prisoners of war
Prisoners of greed
Prisoners for life

Before we say them out loud
Close the mouth with both hands
And hold it tight until they disappear
Like dark does in presence of light

If you haven’t existed I would have created you
Written you word after word
With blue eyes and red lips
Like the dream I had that day
When my heart started beating again
As the rain whispered you exist

If you haven’t existed I would have created you
Written you row after row
With curly hair and invisible wings
So we could fly together above the clouds
Embraced as now
Day after day waiting for the sunrise

If you haven’t existed I would have created you
Written you page after page
With smiling eyes and gentle soul
Painted you in the colors of the light
So I could find you when it’s dark
And you could kiss me when it’s hard

If you haven’t existed I would have created you
Written you poem after poem
Drawn you line after line
Until my mind went completely blank
For you have countless rainbows inside your soul
Without which the world would not exist

One plus one is never two
When we speak of me and you
When our hearts dance in step
There is only one in true romance

In time when love leaves the floor
The hate we foster shuts the door
One plus one stands alone
With a minus sign between two souls

Love equations are a simple thing
We either fly or we have no wings
One is one no matter what
There is no two, there is no none

It took billions of years and a big bang
To come where we are
Billions of stars were born and died
In the darkest hour on a canvass of light

Billions of people have walked this earth
Billions more will come and go
Billions of rainfalls and armies of clouds
But what are billions compared to now