bold* what is wrong? Why can't you just be happy? Just let it all go!

Do you not understand that I am trying to be happy and I'm trying to let it all go, but I can't. I'm just going through life pretending to be okay.

bold Why are you such an attention seeker who cannot possibly help yourself? Why do you cut when it's stupid and pointless?

If I do this for attention why do I hide it? Why do I smile and laugh in front of you pretending nothing is wrong? To me it's to help me cope, so I can feel in control of some aspect of my life...

Don't come and accuse me of doing this for attention. There is so much going on in my head that you would never understand. Please do not question or judge me... you may know my name but you do not know my story.

Since childhood we made choices of good or bad
Since childhood we made choices to be happy or sad

Choices we made stick to truth or fake
Choices we made learning to give or take

Teenage passed, parental pressure in making choices
Teenage passed, with our thoughts all filled of their noises  

Our growing dreams were hard choices to refine
Our growing dreams to chase? Or society divine?

Threatening were some choices, see clues  
Threatening were valued people, we lose

So promise...

Today I will stick to the choices I make
Today as I love myself more than it takes

Will not run around to make your world mine
Will not run to get your attention in dime

At every step two paths divide
At any step you can choose yours and I will choose mine

Isn't odd how,
Someone can break your heart,
But only lose your trust?
As if,
If you search long and hard enough,
You might find your trust,
Which a careless person misplaced,
But never fix your heart,
Which a careless person dropped.