Ooh I, think about suicide
Ooh I, wanna ******* die
This pain inside my brain
It's driving me insane
Ooh I, think about suicide
Ooh I, wanna ******* die
This pain inside my brain
It's driving me insane
Driving me insane

I, ******* hate this life
I, fantasize about my knife
It's, gonna be alright
If, I, slice tonight
If I commit
Please just leave me in a ditch

Look me in the eye,
What am I?
A monster at best,
Murderer at worst,
I must confess
I am a mess,
Maybe I am a curse
I do not know what I am,
But happy is not one of them

Ooh I, think about suicide
Ooh I, wanna ******* die
This pain inside my brain
It's driving me insane
Ooh I, think about suicide
Ooh I, wanna ******* die
This pain inside my brain
It's driving me insane
Driving me insane

You have 30 days left to live what do you do
Do you decide to fly
You might ask who
Who wants to fly, so you go get high
Perhaps your afraid to die
So you go and try to preserve yourself
Will you finally build that shelf?
You feel death’s breath on the back of your neck
You look like a wreck
Will you fix yourself up
Will you get a present for your son
Give him a pup
Look at the sun
For the last time
See the starlight shine
30 days left and you can’t decide what to do
Who am I to say who
Who will do what
I don’t want to die
Do you want to die?

(Pre-lude)
(Talking)I see you moving on and it hurts, but I know it's my fault, could've done better... should've tried harder... I'm a better person  now ... I love you...and I'm sorry for everything...I never meant to hurt you...
(Verse 1)
Moving real fast we jumped right into it, moving real fast no questions ask, please be mine I'm lonely,
Change myself for you, I'm not perfect but I'll make myself everything you need, just give me a chance I'm begging for your love. Come back to me, come back, where are you, I'm asking myself is this destiny, no I think it's just me, pretty ****** up in the head, please don't yell at me I might just get anxiety, just like variety I might switch up on you, I'm mad, I'm sad and I'm bad.
(Verse 2)
Marching on with bipolar disorder I'mma soilder, tonka tuff, but I get a little overwhelmed when you talk to me, dunno what to say I freeze, got told to just be me, But all I see, is everything I will never be, anxiety, ******* with my mc when I step on the mic, I try to spit it, but ocd making me go craz-y gotta rhyme every single ******* line, gotta say everything on time otherwise noones gonna like it, it's gotta have the flow, gotta sound hella dope.
(Verse 3)
Being in love with you is kinda bad for my health, I hide my feelings cause I don't wanna talk about it undercover stealth...

Why do I do this
Why do I do this to myself
I see you moving on it hurts
I want you back in my arms again
Even though you left me paralyzed
You see me as a friend
I see you as a life I'll never have
I try make amends
But you push them away
Leaving me in pain
I don't know why I try
I just think I'd rather die if I can't have you by my side
Lately I've been feeling all alone
cause you left me broken
Yea I still have my soul
But it doesn't replace your love
Why do this
Why do I do this to myself

I don't know why I can't, seem to find happiness for myself
I've tried so hard to love
But I always push away
Afraid to get attached
It hurts deep inside, feels like I'm dyin'
But I mask my feelings
Pretend to be happy all the time
I'd give anything to be content
**** I hate this feeling
The dread inside
Drives me to suicide
And I don't wanna let you go
So the only way is to die
I'll dig my own grave tonight
Burry myself
Then I'll be free from the thoughts inside