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Vesper Nov 2024
1
one
is a number
just above zero
sometimes
used to refer
to me
my looks
my personality
but when i was one
i didnt care
about the little things
i guess
i am just truly a one
numberss
583
Vesper 5d
583
i spent so long
trying to find a way
but it only took me day
to find out that way was gone
777
Vesper Nov 2024
777
just a dollar
and you can play
deposit a coin
and be on your way
gamble your life away
Vesper Nov 2024
dont drop the vial
just drop the vile
Vesper Dec 2024
the british
conquered
took it all
but then were beaten
and no rule at all

they became independent
as all people should
but they had fallen
behind the rest

and so the leader
of them all
declared his plan
for a reform
of the country
the beautiful country

afghanistan
school project!!
Vesper Dec 2024
he betrayed them
and declared himself king
king of the nation
king of them all
all they hoped
is to not fall

he tried to take
and make the country modern
but nobody agreed
he tried to limit the power
of the national council
but nobody agreed

and they took up arms
so they could fight back
but then he fled
a coward

afghanistan
school project!!
Vesper Dec 2024
they became soviet
just because of him
the bad men
the crazy men
they ruin it all

khan
cousin of the king
becomes the prime
and looks to the soviets
the communists
for help

but not all bad
he allowed the women
to do what they like
care how they look

afghanistan
school project!!
Vesper Dec 2024
khan was killed!
we must rejoice
but the communists
fully took over
but then what?
they change to islam?

the islamic properties are key
they practice islam
islam is life

but there is still fighting
fighting over friendship
when will this war end?

afghanistan
school project again
Vesper Dec 2024
osama bin laden
it is the beginning
of the end
al-Qaida  
they killed
the men
the women
the children
and we watched
and let them be

they claimed victory
against the soviets
it was their first win
but sadly
it wasn't their last

so they fought
and fought
and killed
and islam ruled again
but in a different way

afghanistan
Vesper Dec 2024
four hijackers
four planes
four men
four craves for violence
to **** us all
all they wanted from us
was death
and violence

two twins
two twin towers
two twin brothers
two twin planes
horrible
horrible day

one man
one fight
one takeover
one crash
he was a hero
he saved them all
but he died
same as the rest

afghanistan
this is a tribute to 9/11. i salute all the people that died that day, and i am sorry to the families who lost. (my uncle was lost during the 9/11 attacks on the twin towers)
Vesper Dec 2024
rich of culture
vast and far
deep and wide
there is no end
to the beauty of you
dresses and food and colors here
stories and fires and dancing there
so much of it
it never ends
this beautiful place

afghanistan
Vesper Dec 2024
afghan traditions
not hard to find
their hospitality is like no other
the food, crisp and light
or fluffy and melting
you know it will be good

assalamu alaikum!
wa alaikum assalaam
you say
it is a greeting of sorts
a way to say hello!

islam
is their religion
belief in the oneness of god
beleif in all

afghanistan
Vesper Nov 2024
scratch on the wall
scream in the halls
this is an asylum
revile him
beguile him
let me out
please
my mind
Vesper Nov 2024
back again
so soon
you ran away
you came back
did he not give you the gifts?
did he not give you the love?
but still
my arms are open
come inside
again
Vesper Jan 8
biana the *****
you broke my heart
even super glue wont help it this time
because now every day
every wish
11:11
is praying on your downfall
i know i shouldnt
but the buckets of tears i cried
say otherwise
if you felt this pain i felt
would you still look at me that same way?
Vesper Dec 2024
Brothers, we are the foundation of society. Sisters you are the foundation of society. Why can't we work together? Why are you always fighting? O' Brothers and Sisters,
Love.
Vesper Nov 2024
fly away
fly away with me
don't need the crazy men
i can just me be
with those wings
those butterfly wings
oooh butterfly
Vesper Nov 2024
shiny money
shiny brain
you get some
you lose some
its all just coins

money
is a funny thing
because when you have it
you love it
and then it's just a figment of your brain
its all just coins

but when you dont have it
you yearn for it
you want it
you need it
its all just coins

so i sit
with no money
i dont need any money- coins
but i cry
and cry
because i have no coins at all
Vesper Nov 2024
many colors
many drawings
i made when i was three
but they would break
just like my heart
why would you do this
to me

i rip up the drawings
on my wall
screaming
at the world
but those crayons
the many colors
will always be there
for me

i cry
i scream
i starve
i cut
but those crayons
stand untouched
waiting
and waiting
and waiting
for me
to play with them again
Vesper Nov 2024
the crazy men
they carry me away
up and over
around a bend
and then back again
the crazy men
they carry me away
and i finally feel free
this is a recurring dream
Vesper Nov 2024
the crazy men
they came again
but this night
it was different
the crazy men
they came again
but tonight
i wasn't free
my dreamsss
Vesper 6d
you cry so often
and for what do you cry for
you haven't experienced hardship
you haven't experienced pain
just not like i have
so stop crying those crocodile tears
and stop faking the friends
stop pretending like you are someone you aren't
and maybe you won't cry no more
Vesper Nov 2024
she loves me
she loves me not
i feel giddy
i feel love
is it real this time?
i wonder
will i be lied to?
will i be insulted?
punched?
kicked?
cut?
yelled at?
called out?
made fun of?
laughed at?
will you never feel the same way i do?
because when i cried
you didnt
and when i got knocked down
you didnt
and when i died
you didnt
and i wonder
if i should love you at all
third times the charm
Vesper Nov 2024
depression
is the man lying next to me in bed
he might not be real
but he is there
his cold fingers
creeping up my spine
ready to attack
at any moment

depression
is not liking the things you used to like
like the movies
videogames
or friends
i dont know why
why wont it end
will i end the depression
or will the depression end me

depression
is the lost love
for someone
that you like
but never have the feeling to ask them
when she dated another boy
it only made me sink deeper

depression
is the friends and family
who let you go
in your deepest moments
when i needed them the most

depression
is the knife
on my desk
covered in blood
waiting to strike
me again

depression
is the void
pulling you closer
when you dont know it
like a black hole
trying to swallow me up

depression
is you
its me
its in all of us
but i cant stop it
should i try
or die
that is the question

depression
is a world where i cannot be myself
i feel
like my body
is not good enough
my clothes
my shoes
my hair
my weight
it will never be enough

depression
is windowless room
no light
i cant get out
i cant get out
let me out
let me out

let me be myself
without the void
without the man
without all the little things
let my live my life

leave
me
alone
i am going through a depressive state right now.
Vesper Nov 2024
pull out a chair
sit down my friend
pour a pint of whiskey
now drink up my friend!
drink all your sorrows away

how about a game?
just a couple dollars
pour a shot of *****
now drink up my friend!
drink all your sorrows away

home? why home?
stay here with us
we are your real friends
pour a glass of wine
now drink up my friend!
drink all your sorrows away

no more? how about one
just one more glass
just one more shot
just one more pint
just pour a flute of champagne
now drink up my friend!
drink all your sorrows away
Vesper Dec 2024
drip
drip
the iv tube drips life into his veins
it's the only thing keeping him alive
'alive'
he's alseep
but he'll wake up, right?
i'm sure he'll be ok

drip
drip
the blood drips down the short blade
trying to take his own life
'life'
he'll get over it
he'll be ok, right?
i'm sure he'll be ok

drip
drip
the teachers vicious smile
kills him from the inside
he hates himself
and the teacher too
die
drip
drip
Vesper Nov 2024
elixir in a bottle
so that i can remodel
all the holes in my brain
elixir in a needle
so that i may wheedle
my brain
into working
again
if you know you know
Vesper Nov 2024
take a spoon
take a knife
the guard can not be looking
lights go out
start to scrape
and out the hole you go

the alarms start to ring
lockdown
it sings
but into the boat you go
and out the prison you go
Vesper Dec 2024
'God, you're such a failure.'
As if you could do better?

'Can he do anything right?'
One word. Boxing.

'You ruin the entire team!'
Ok, ill just leave you with one less player.'

Failure gives you a chance to fly again.
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Vesper Nov 2024
the fire in your eyes
the fire in your heart
you strive
to do good
the fire in your eyes
the fire in your heart
Vesper 1m
I don't know
    What's the flow
            It seems to take me further

                   Sometimes the flow is slow
            And other times
                                                                    Fast


                     It takes me to many places
                      That I cannot describe
              Full of color
                                                                  Love

                         I wish the flow would never end
                                 But it does
Vesper Nov 2024
in the silence, shadows loom, i grapple with my private doom. food, my solace, my despair, calls to me from everywhere.

each morsel, a fleeting balm, in the chaos, a moment's calm. yet beneath the comfort, a plea, a desire to finally be free.

mirror, mirror, reflecting pain, a story written, etched in shame. i seek release, a lighter frame, but all i find is more of the same.

craving’s hold, so tight, so deep, in the lonely hours, i weep. to resist, to rise above, to find strength where there’s none.

each bite a secret, buried low, a struggle only i know. wishing for control, for peace, for this torment to finally cease.

for in this cycle, i find my plight, day turns to night, and night to day. yet somewhere, hope feels far away, a distant dream, fading gray.
Vesper Nov 2024
what a wonderful friendship!
i thought to myself
i was only more than a babe when i met him
he was kind
he was funny
he was fun to play with
and he was my first
'friend'
as we grew older
i turned five
we started to talk
i remember our first conversation
we talked about dinosaurs
and i thought
what a wonderful
'friend'
and then i made new
'friends'
but they didnt last long
it wasnt long before
they found someone new
and left me to play
in the morning dew
wow
those are some wonderful
'friends'
and then we turned ten
he was still with me
through it all
through my hardships
through my pain
through my sadness
wow
what a wonderful
'friend'
and here we are today
i can see him as i am writing this poem
his first girlfriend
i cannot express how happy i am
for him
and he
is a true
friend.
there is one person i utterly and completely trust in this world. we met at 3 months in some 'baby class' or whatever
now i have known him for almost 13 years, and he has never let me down. i love you, gare bear.
Vesper Dec 2024
Hey guys! This is the last time that I will be on this website until at least February 2025. There is so much going on in my life, and i need to take a break from all my hobbies at the moment. I love you all!
<33

#PEACEOUT
Vesper Dec 2024
i was five years-
mabye 8-
i dont know
but i lost him
and i
        lost
              myself
                         too
ah mon grandpere
tu es tres important
je
          deteste
                              toi

why did you leave
i needed you
dad needed you
but most of all
you needed you
Vesper Nov 2024
this is a cry for help
i cannot control my fear
i cannot control the sickness
that loves me so dear
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this is a cry for friends
people that care
people that really care
they are my dividends
they keep me sane
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this is a cry for someone
someone that feels like me
someone that feels me
someone that likes me
"@^&_+}{":>~!#$~~~$%^&
this is a cry for love
i need you
ill treat you like a dove
you can take the sadness out of me
and ill be back again
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sigmaa
Vesper Nov 2024
my favorite hoodie
the biggest one
hide my body
and the pain all gone
Vesper Nov 2024
I thought you cared
About the gifts
I so lovingly crafted and bought
Only for them to be thrown out
Trashed

I thought you cared
About the compliments
As I gave you them
Never stopping the flow
No matter what you did

I thought you cared
About the weekends
We spent
Hand in hand
Before the morning sun

I thought you cared
About me
But it was all fake
All those days
All those words
All those gifts
Were they a joke to you?
I guess ill never know
Vesper Jan 6
I couldnt wait more that like two weeks to write poetry again sooooooooooo
Here i am

(:
Vesper Nov 2024
i'm not lazy
i play sports
i do things
i promise you
i'm not lazy

i'm not stupid
i have good grades
i study my subjects
i promise you
i'm not stupid

i'm not a freak
i don't know why
but i promise you
i'm not a freak

i'm not insane
i'm not insane
i promise you
i'm not insane
Vesper Nov 2024
i wish
my poems were better
people would read them
and think
"what a good poet!"

i wish
that i was better
the best that i could be

i wish
i was cooler
my shoes
my clothes
my hair

i wish
that i was athletic
good at everything

but most of all
i wish
that she loved me
like i loved her

i wish
she didnt say no
and instead
said yes

i wish
i wasnt jealous of her
and the boys she liked

i wish
i wasnt sad
i wish
i wasnt sad

why am i sad
why am i sad
why am i sad

please love me
Vesper Dec 2024
So scared all my life

Anger turned into an art

Don't have to fly kick

To fly again
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Vesper Nov 2024
there is knife
on the table
next to me
i'm home alone

988 wont help
neither will my parents
or my friends
or even my dog
they cant help

i'm crying
i need help
but i cant reach for my phone
or the knife
is this good?
or bad

to all my friends
who would never miss me
*******
but to you
my friend
i hope that you
can live a happy life
without me
without knives

so take this poem
as a gift
to keep going
to keep going strong
cause even if i am gone
you arent

the knife is in my hand
glancing at my wrist
i cant do it
but i have too
so goodbye
cruel world
i must go

but whats this?
a light?
i am still in fear
the knife trembling
blood- no
tears
dripping off the blade

and i collapse
and die inside
because nobody cares
but i cant force myself to leave
just like those toxic friends
relationships
people
thats just what life is

but you have to keep going
going and going and going
until you find a true purpose
because harming
or killing
yourself
just stops you from recognizing the problem
just avoiding it

so to anyone who wants-
who needs
to hurt, or **** themselves
just face the problem head on
even if you cant do it
even if you have tried before
it's still worth it
this has been in my drafts for a little over 2 weeks now when my last depression scare happened. i hope this poem feels for anyone who is going through depression or suicidal thoughts. <3<3<3
Vesper Nov 2024
oh them lazy ladies
walkin down the the lane
fill me up with *****
to just drink down the pain
I ******* LOVE POETRY
Vesper Jan 6
liar
you said you loved me
liar
you said you would be there
liar
you said you would cheer me up
liar
you said you hated me
liar
you'll never leave me
liar
i'll teach you a lesson
liar
i hope you feel the pain i felt when the worlds collided and i was in between them
Vesper Nov 2024
!! DISCLAIMER !!
I am not trying to be sexist, homophobic, or racist through this poem. This poem might come off as offensive, or something else, but it is not intended to be this way. I am just sharing my feelings through poetry, and even I was scared to post my own true feelings through poetry. If this poem needs to be taken down, I will do so. If that happens, I will probably post my poetry elsewhere or keep it to myself. Thanks!
!! DISCLAIMER !!

This world we live in
Is confusing to say the least
Why have we changed so much?
Why don’t we stay the same?

Sometime last week
I was shouted at
By a girl
Saying I would never understand her pain
Saying that I
A straight white male
Was so fortunate
And I was offended
But in some ways
It is true

I understand
That my kin
Did unspeakable
Disgusting
Horrible
Things to you
And I know that some of them still happen today
But why is it my fault?
What did I do to you?

You say I have privilege
But what privilege do I have
When must I creep on every word I say?
Every action I take?
Every poem I write?

But before I go on
I want to give sorry
A sorry that my ancestors never could
Even if It doesn’t mean a lot
I still hope it helps

I feel like a circus
I have to entertain the crowd
One wrong move
And I get boos
Too showy off?
And I get boos
So I learn to keep up my guard
Never let my feelings out
Never let my true thoughts go

And to the girl last week
Who shouted at me
Just remember
If the world is against you
It is most definitely
Against me
please dont flag me
Vesper Nov 2024
lights out
trees down
school out
our dependencies
we rely so much
it really is the truth
power outage here in seattle 😒
Vesper Nov 2024
love
is a silly little thing
it brings people together
it pushes them part
and i think
i dont need love
it is a silly little thing
but why do i crave it
yes i crave it so
i wish upon a star
to look apon my lover
in upon the char
i feel that i might hover
with the love
from a lover

oh love
why do you come to me
in my saddest moments
two breakups
two bursts of love
spiraling me
into the void
but not the void i write
but it is one that bites
it is the void of craving love

oh love
oh cupid
you shot my friends
and their love
is inexplicable
and i love
love
and if i forever
am left without a lover
i might just cut
my wrists
once again
my friend just got a girlfriend, and he told me not to tell anyone. i am so very happy for him, but i cant help feeling this way. poetry it is am i right
Vesper Jan 6
You give me so much
You make me happy
But I get mad
So often
So ******* often
It feels cold
When you cry
Because all i want is More & More
Again & Again
Will I ever be happy with what I have?
Vesper Dec 2024
My father tells me to be less negative.

'Just think about the positives,'
He says

But Dad,
How can I focus on the positives,

If there is none?

Negative.
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