My father tells me to be less negative.

'Just think about the positives,'
He says

But Dad,
How can I focus on the positives,

If there is none?

Negative.

O' Brother
Let me save you from the darkness
Let me save you from the light
Let me save you from the pills
That make you feel alright

Just come along with me
Away from all the people
Away from all the feelings
Away from all the pain

O' Brother
Who caused you this pain
Who caused you this worship
How did all the bad things
Fall back on you

O' Brother
Don't succumb
Don't take the leap
Don't take the pills
Don't load the gun

Just come along with me
And all will be okay
Please believe me
And we'll be at peace

O' Brother
Your funeral was quiet
I wish I knew how bad it was
Why couldn't you tell me
Why didn't you tell me

O' Brother
I'll see you in a flash

Dance for the children and dance for the men, dance for the ones who gave their life to save us.
Dance for all the children in pain, with nobody to help them, alone and scared.
Dance for all the people, on the streets, nobody to help them, alone and *****.
Keep dancing, never stop. Never stop.

Nightfall waits to strike.
Waits to kick you when you're down.
It comes like a army, screams and yells and pain.
Thrashing.
Never stopping to breathe.

Panic Attack.

At times
It feels like the world is ending.
But when the rain falls
You love more than before.

Rainfall out the window
Pit-Pat Pit-Pat
Wind rustling through the trees.
I feel a breath on my neck
Your love
Because you love more than before

Rainfall.

Cold metal pressed against sweat.
Tears wetting my damp clothes.
Pitter-patter of rain against the ground as children sleep.
I cry for help, but no-one answers.
Shoot. Why can't I shoot.
Pitter-patter. More rain.
Damp shirt. More tears.
Why can't I end it all?
Every single night I scream.
It's so much easier this way.
SHOOT. WHY CAN'T I SHOOT.
I hear children laughing, and mothers loving,
I hear men working through the night, ready to go back to their families.
SHOOT. WHY CAN'T I SHOOT.
I hear a crack, and it all goes black.

Growing up, I wondered why anyone would commit suicide. Why would you want to leave this earth? Why would you give up your beautiful life?
When I got a little over, I got scared of death. That made me appreciate life even more. Why would you want to **** yourself?
But getting a little older, I understand. I understand the reasons, I know why you need a break. But life is better than that.
Even if you feel the void of life
******* you in, calling you
And all you want to do is give up
Fall down into a ravine
Cut yourself into a river of blood
Cry until the ocean rises
Die
Everything is better
than Suicide.

oh the blues
the blues
the blues
the blues

why do i
feel the blues
all that happened
was a little nick
why do i
feel the blues

the blues
the blues
the blues
they come
when you
are at your worst
but maybe
they aren't so bad


the blues
the blues
the blues
they help me through the worst
sometimes
the sad songs
make the void
smaller
the ineffable
blues
the blues

the blues

the blues.

this is a world that is not ours
mother earth
she gave us life
but even in our early stages
greed overtook us
she ate the apple
she gained the knowledge
but the damage was done

if eve never ate the apple
we wouldn't be where we are today
but
i eve never ate the apple
we wouldn't be where we are today
in this world that is not ours

all we do is take
we never give back
just remember
this is a world that is not ours

in the couple years we have left
before we crumble
to the ground
we need to give
we can still undo
some
of the damage that has been done
in this world that is not ours