Untitledheart

Untitledheart Feb 2019

I am painting
You asked me to
So here I am
Painting a field of air
As I unfold my brain
I feel the brush
Dust my thoughts
Knowing my abilities
Are nothing to be admired
So here
I am painting
For you
Because although I lack
I try for you

This is both literal and not literal. Yes all my poems are about love right now, but bear with me. This is about my boyfriend asking me to make a painting for him and I really think I ****. That is the literal sense, but in the big picture (hehe) I am struggling to open up to him, showing who I truly am.

#love #struggle #painting #art #pain #identity #loyalty #open #confidence #worth

Untitledheart Feb 2019

My Dystopia

The screams
Are
Unbearable
As I head south
I hear them
Echoing
Echoing my name
As if
I am leaving
A whole world
For a dystopia
Of love

This poem is generally me struggling with the way my life is turning out right now. Am I doing the right thing? Is this the right door to open? Was I meant for this life?

#dystopia #screams #echoes #love #hurt #confusion #leaving #life #choices

Untitledheart Feb 2019

Confession

I remember my pills
Beside my bed
Staring me down
And the blades
Dancing on my skin,
But
With your apology-filled confession
I imagine you
Forgetting
Who
You promised to love
As you
Indulge
In your own
Sweet misery
There is no desire
For me
To be open
When I know
It will only add
Burn
To
Burn
And I
Will, once again
Be apologizing

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