I'm addicted to the way hold me
I'm addicted to the way you feel
I'm addicted to your touch
Hush...
I get a sudden rush
Your more than just my crush.
Your like a narcotic
You got me believing your lies,
Your hypnotic
If you were **** youd be chronic
You make inside my head go chaotic..
Let's be honest.
Your bad for my health ,but I don't want anyone else 
Loving you is hell,
But when your right next to me,I can't resist you
Your like a drug to me.
Why cant you see how bad I need you
Like an addict needs their fix,
Its hit and miss with you.
I try so hard to believe in you
But you keep making it hard to **** with you.
I really ******* love you
I wish youd open your eyes and see me.
Your like a narcotic to me I'm addicted and I cant give you up
I need your rush
It's a must , its toxic
Like the drugs, but I want it,
I need it
I gotta have your rush.

So lonely,
Gone quick,
Labeled selfishly,
Spirit split..

What was blood,
How'd I find,
Thick as mud,
This alternate mind.

I've got my eyes,
Dead opened up wide,
I've got the dirt,
And the spit of,
The world all dies.

My mouth on the metal,
Lips of a scarred girl
Got angels in the lobby,
To put me in line,
I won't ask for forgiveness.

My little faith has gone dry,
I've got my Christian's for scripture,
Death has crawled in my ears,
Music of songs I shouldn't hear.

And it spins all around as,
We all lay down some faster than,
Some do it better in smaller amounts,
Ending the time we all had together.

©️shaneia

You constantly lie, you deny the truth. Your no good for me and your no good for you, mind games, and heartbreak. Is what your all about, ******* dude. I'm tired of it, I'm out! Although it hurts me, because I fell inlove with you, its what's best for me and what's best for you. Your never going to be the man I need you to be, I dont know why I'm to blind to see the real side of who you are . This goodbye is definitely going to leave a scar. It's hard. And I'm falling apart, it's worse when you show up and then leave.... then all my feelings get twisted and I'm forced to start over it's not a healthy trend ... you win. You got what you wanted from me, I was only temporary ... you'll never see just how good to you I could be. Because you watched me fall apart. You did this to me tho. You lead me on and now I'm not strong enough to move on from you, I really wish I ****** hated you.

if it happens tonight
Would you feel alright, feel alright with our last goodbye.
I waited for you, like I always do, we fought and I cried, you wouldn't even look me in my eyes, or kiss me goodbye, suicide....weighing heavy on my mind, if it happened tonight tell me,would you ******* feel alright, feel alright with our last goodbye, you couldn't look me in my eyes,you wouldn't kiss me goodnight, I waited for you, that's nothing new, but the way you left after I told you I was depressed, really put a hole in my chest .. all alone, noone to talk to, none to hold me,everyone sees me, but there' looking right through me, I wish they all knew everything that goes on inside my head. Tell me do you think I'm alright, do you think I'm okay, yeah, looks.can be deceiving cause I'm not alright I'm not okay. I'm tired of life I'm tired of the thoughts that run through my ******* head. I'm not alright... I'm not okay let me say it again. I'm not alright! I'm not okay! All I wanted was a friend. But instead I'm left crying in my room silently falling apart, bullet to my heart or nuse around my throat.. silently I choke. It's the end I lost all hope.