I loved you with my entire heart
my entire soul
my entire existence.
Every broken part of me
belonged to you.

The curtains close
And leave me in a suffocating darkness.
My senses shut down
And I feel trapped.
My depression, the only thing in the room that I can acknowledge
Sweeps me into her arms
And comforts me with the idea
Of eternity.

I would crawl
across broken glass
just for another chance
at a love like ours.

You were the last thing tethering me here

The curtains close
And leave me in suffocating darkness.
My senses shut down
As I scramble for some semblance of safety.
Only once the curtains have lifted
And the light shines through
Am I able to see the extent
Of the chaos and destruction that I’ve created
It’s like a dissociated nightmare
And a lucid front row seat
To the brutal and ugly aftermath

It’s getting late now
So pull me in tight
Whisper I love you
And kiss me goodnight
Before you go

Will you remember me
When you go away
Cause I was kinda hoping
that you would stay

Won’t you stay my dear
I promise it’s worth it
We’ll be together
Like it’s the last night of the earth yeah
We’ll sit and watch as the stars explode
But they’ll never shine as bright as your soul
And I promise that I’ll never let you go

It’s getting late now
So let’s look to the sky
Make wishes on airplanes as they
Float on by
I’ll run away
The moment you say so
Just take my hand
I don’t care where we go

Won’t you stay my dear
I promise it’s worth it
We’ll be together
Like it’s the last night of the earth yeah
We’ll sit and watch as the stars explode
But they’ll never shine as bright as your soul
And I promise that I’ll never let you go

So don’t change your mind
We’ll leave this town behind
So don’t change your mind
We’ll leave this town behind

Won’t you stay my dear
I promise it’s worth it
We’ll be together
Like it’s the last night of the earth yeah
We’ll sit and watch as the stars explode
But they’ll never shine as bright as your soul
And I promise that I’ll never let you go

I hate that I’m not stronger
I hate that I’m so scared
I hate the control that you still have
I hate that I still care
I hate that I can’t cut you off
That my lips can’t say goodbye
I hate that you still make me laugh
I hate that you still make me cry.
I hate that the only time I write
Is when I’m writing about you
That after everything that’s happened
Your love is still my muse.  
I hate the fact that I still love you
Even if it’s not the same
I hate that we’re in this ******* mess
And I’m the one to blame.
But mostly I wish I hated you
As much as I hate me
Cause maybe then I would be happier
Maybe then I’d finally feel free.