Well...first I'd probably pay off all my student loans

And with the rest of the $10, i don't know.....

Chipotle or taco bell maybe?

chaos
all I can hear are the thoughts in my mind
banging against the walls of my skull
begging to be brought to life
when all I want is
silence

i cannot breathe when you are near
the breath catching in my lungs
becoming a ball of nerves and insecurity

i hope you’ll notice
and tell me its okay
to breathe

Without warning
Your words pierce my heart
Like a knife

Sharp
Unforgiving
Cold

Right through my back
Between my ribs
Into the muscle that keeps me alive

Quick
Discreet
Fatal

I am gone before I even know it
Suddenly ceasing to exist
All because of

You
And
Your
Words

I am here
all alone
always present
never belonging

I am a figment
here in the shadows
listening
never speaking

i am a waste of air
just sitting here
existing
never actually living

i am nobody
breathing and eating here
all alone
but never being acknowledged

i am hurting
but no one can see
i lay here empty
never being loved

i am waiting
for someone to do something
i wait here forever
never being wanted

i am here
suffering silently
broken
never to be noticed

here.

you kiss me
you tell me you love me
but it is nothing but a lie
nothing but false words
escaping from your lungs
as you tell me things i want to hear
it was nothing but an illusion
our relationship was just a fabricated perfection
a dark figure hid in the shadows
disrupting the “perfection”
with wrenching doubt and confusion and intrusive thoughts
i thought that was the lie
but apparently, i was wrong
apparently, you were the lie
you always were
right from the start
i just couldn't see it