This is the time I won't depend on other people for my happiness.
No more sulking in the darkness of my own self pity.
No more feeling like I am not enough or worth it.
This is the time I'll shine
Possibly brighter than the sun.

You were the one who told me not to mind what other people say and not to give up.
But you were also the one who listened to them and gave up on me.

I'm just tired

Of what?

of life

Why?

Because I am never the one loved or asked to stay
Never the one needed
Never the one wanted
Never the one who's worth it
Never the one who is enough

it scares me how lonely i can be
how i will do anything, anything, anything
just to feel affection
just to feel like i belong
to feel like i am worthy of love

because lately i have been bleeding and needing You
but i look for love in all the wrong places

my heart is stitched on my sleeve
but nobody ever looks at me
i want to shine brighter than the sun
but my fears dim my light into a mere shadow

i'm sick of wanting
of desiring something that cannot be

is this it for me?
is this all?
why has life been so cruel?

I took it too seriously
you didn't
I gave you my time
you couldn't
I said those three words and meant it
you didn't
I gave you my heart
you couldn't

Silly of me believing in your words
Falling for your actions
Hoping for our future
When all you did was make me cave in and melt
But without planning on staying as my rock

I feel so stupid saying I love you
And even more for feeling so
If you only know how much I do
If you only know how much it hurts to love unrequitedly

Give me back my kisses
I take back my words
Return my hugs
And let me forget about you

Confided with silence
Alone in a world vast and unknown
no one will really understand
Why do I even bother?

Why do I even exist?__

You never really had the most beautiful voice,
but it was all I wanted to hear.