I met a lady in red with glasses on
She sits near the heavy stone
as i enter the room
she smiles and waved her hand

Forgive me God I am a
sinner
Just give me one chance I wanna  see her
Decisions that I made I wish I could change
But I dont regret the time that I met
her.

He crawled deep within her soul and made a home out of cobwebs and broken pieces

Oh how beautiful she truly was

Sad nights i cry myself to sleep
Depression and anxiety
Are feelings that i keep
I just feel empty
Nobody was there for me
Is it better
To end this life
Close my eyes
Darkness feels the same
I feed myself with lies
Loneliness is my companion
It feels normal to be alone
Always searchin for a home.

The only part of my day
That I look forward to
Is when I go to bed
And lay there making up scenarios
In my head.

I think of comebacks
To 8th grade bullies.
I think of witty retorts
To my mother's snide comments.
I think of intelligent things to add
To conversations I had months ago.

I think of all the things
I was too scared to say.

And in my mind
I say them.
And pretend how things would be different
If only I had the courage to speak.