Boiling or freezing
I really can't tell
I just feel uneasy
Is it external or within?

I listen to blues
But it's still no substitute for you.
Admitting it is as difficult as wood,
But deep down you know
I miss you

I don't need you
for pleasure
Cos i know it'll torture.
Just walk by me,
Laugh at me and with me.

When holding on gives you more cuts than hugs
and you dim it feet to run for cure
Always do what's best for you
Though I might bleed
Joy stills flows from my bleeding septum
With the assurance of you being fine.

I ain't the best
am just a little different from the rest.
Choices better exist
for sure
I know your taste
I just talked with fate and He said:
'If you can wait
We'll be great'

We don't need to date
to feel loved
True love
grows from the seed of friendship.
I don't need to posses you to appreciate you.

In all I owe you all,
I wish you the best
Who'll give you rest.
If fate entwines our path
I would love you till forever comes
I would still love you if forever never comes.

Consciencia
Gritando y Preguntando
En la madrugada

Como gallos del campo
Cantando sus Canciones
Para despertar

Con ojos medio abiertos
Palabras pegadas en mi lengua

No tengo respuesta
Para tu confesion
De admiracion

Es que estoy muy joven para esto
Relaciones y compromisos
Todavía tengo el corazón
De un niña sin preocupaciones

Perdoname por ser sincera
Pero no quiero estar contigo
Me gusta estar soltera

No quiero ser intima
Mejor deja la idea



© Sofia Villagrana 2018

friends conversing around us with lifelines
their phones hiding their discomfort and anxiety
tapping your shoulder, beaming up at you so friendly
the whole time your talking i drone out your voice with music.



© Sofia Villagrana 2018

scrunched up face, your complaining that i’m talking
behind my back pointed fingers and whispers brand me
excluded by our social pacts, now i’m alone in the cafeteria
you came crying for forgiveness, all i did was stare blankly at you.



© Sofia Villagrana 2018

Step 1: Get out of bed
Step 2: Look in the mirror
Step 3: Practice your smile
Step 4: Eyedrops to hide the red eyes
Step 5: Conceal the dark circles
Step 6: Breathe
The curtains are almost up
Step 7: Lock down the pain
Step 8: Ignore the weight on your chest
Step 9: Silence the screams inside of your mind
Step 10: Choke down the sobs
Step 11: Ignore the stinging in your eyes
Step 12: Swallow past the tightness in your throat
You’ve put on this show a million times
Step 13: Don’t let them see
Times up. Curtains up. Camera rolling

Calling your name so softly, camly
Sleeping on a hospital bed
Barely able to breath.
Wonder how I ended up here?
All I know is that you’re gone.

All around me are faces full of pity.
I got tired of not understanding why.
Why do they all look like they want to cry?
Tears stains on my face with no cause.

Darling, I don’t know why you’re not here but I’ll find you.
Walk into the cold breeze looking for your warmth.
Dancing on top of ledges hoping that you’ll catch me
But I don’t feel your arms wrap around me tightly.

Please don’t shed any tears I’ll be alright
So just smile and pretend we are dancing like when we were young.

You don’t have to wait for me anymore because I am not here
But that’s alright cause I live in your memories.

All right so just, smile please
Smile and hide your tears behind a facade.

And I’ll wait for you
My Forever True Love.



© Sofia Villagrana 2018