I still think of you
your arms around me
and the safety of home

Never have i felt so alone.

All my friends have left
Fault of my own im sure,
For i never made the effort.
"Too busy, too tired" i said.
At first I blamed anxiety
But let's be honest,
I was just too lazy.

No family to be seen.
Packed their bags,
And off they went.
Still we talk in text, alas
no hugs through a screen.

Despite all this I was happy,
All this seemed as nothing.
As my girlfriend was my all
Best friend and family as one,
What more could i ask for?

Now we are no more.

Never have I felt so alone.

dying is a side effect of living
always running around a
universes whim
being lonely is a side effect
and being sad is a side effect
living is not a gift but a curse
for we will never be whole
with the side effect of living

the moon pulls and pushes
the tides
directing the water and our lives
it's our lives
the moon doesn't care
why would it
it's not affecting its life but ours
we will always be controlled by outsiders
who don't know us and couldn't care
we are slaves
to our minds and those who control it

He shouts, cause there was a time when he wasn't loud enough.

He pushes people away, cause there was a time when someone hurt him.

He doesn't trust anyone, cause there was a time when someone broke that trust.

He's quiet, cause he's sick of being unheard.

He wants to be praised cause someone didn't value him enough.

He loves more, cause he was loved less once.

your push turned to shove
my heart stopped to beat
and my eyes teared at your face
you bring me back to times
when I was happy
and also so sad
when tears were welcomed
instead of feared
where I was wanted
not feared
I'm sorry I wasn't there
when it was needed
a sorry is all I can say
a push turned to shove
and I couldn't stand my ground