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Speak when needed
Silence is language of God,
but does not always mark wisdom

must speak when needed
sunburns, moon smiles
bird encages
trespass boundaries
when heart bleeds
time hard and mean
deer gets frightened
remembering taste in music

when wild wolves race through veins
weave an intricate tapestry against your name

separate gold from gild
friendship is to build
gold never gets tarnished

the strange mind plays anonymous games
so don't allow anyone to take your pictures

disclose Temple
enclose worship and prayer

mercurial muse shouldn't fix in lines
talent is a knowledgeable foundation
you are divine Wordsmith,

Written by
~~~Jawahar Gupta~~~

I cheated on her

I lay over the bed of mistakes
clothes all around and a naked body rubbing onto me,
my heart beats and I think of her
my love
my senses stop,
I forget to breathe
I question my existence

Why was I laying here with a woman I have never seen rather than with my love?
Memories flash;
I wave her goodbye promising to come home soon
she knows home is so far from the place I am going to.
Her eyes radiate pain, yet she smiles with agony, because of her undying love for me.

I rush to the bar,
football commentary fills up the noisy atmosphere
I chug one drink over another,
my love appears again and again to me, like an oasis
I want to run away, not make her seem like this.
Frustrated, tired
I look for someone/something focus upon,
blonde all pumped up woman meets my eye
she is eyeing me towards the upper room,
I shouldn’t, I mustn’t
I chug few more drinks
and think of all the time I was all alone,
how good life was,
she comes near me
how the girl waiting for me did.
She takes me to the upper room,
I leave all my morals and follow
the door closes...

I scream I cry
8 years of relationship
she was always there for me
she left her everything for me
and this is what I did in return
to sleep with an unknown woman
while she prays to the almighty
for my happiness
when in few hours
I took all of hers,
my love what have I done.

I will hide this,
it can be a nightmare which never happened
she never has to know
the devil inside me gave advice
the same devil because of whom
I cheated on her
the naked woman wakes up
dresses up and leaves
to her, I was just a one night stand
but to me, she was my eternal mistake.
I sit there,
thinking of all the memories I shared with love my life
how she was at my worst, my best.
I know she would forgive me,
if I tell her all of this.
She would be broken, the woman who held all my pieces together
I can't let this happen
I swallow the guilt
and look out the window
15th floor,
I am about to leap, so my death keeps her alive

my phone rings,
her face glow
her voice echoes#Cheating #sad #sapy
my heart wrenches in pain
I am sorry, I say repeatedly
and she realises what I have done
yet she consoles me,
throwing away all her hurt
and that's when I realised
She was the angel I never deserved

i think about the girls of your past, ones with prettier thighs and voices like honey
i think of how lucky they must have been
i think you look good when you smoke
i think about how that cigarette is the only thing out of the list of things that have touched your lips to not want u like the others did

the night was thick
with expectation: heavy lidded smiles
frosted chain link fence, creak

fingers found their way along
wedge foot in and pull up, lost
balance before

boots into snow, iced velvet
caught on every step
stole warmth from our toes

his nose was pink that night
and every word spoken
crystallized in the winter air

it made me wonder
if we were to return in spring
would the melting ice
spill our secrets into the earth

or evaporate, rise with warm air
and travel with the breeze

Heavy rain drops scattered the grounds
Like ****** tear drops trickle down my face
Seems that the sky cries for its wounds
Like I survive now only by God's grace

A flash of lightning struck high
My words stuck inside,'well I'm just a girl of ill repute'
A role of thunder crashed in the sky
And I was silenced by her often rebuke

Frozen rain drops bump into each other
Afraid of falling down and breaking
But my frozen tear drops stay still on my eyes  gathered
Causing my iris a deep aching