The constant battle with anxiety I can never win
My skin feels like wildfires are raging from within

My heart beating fast like I’m fleeing the blaze
Why does my mind do this, I feel so betrayed

Tears stream down my face as if everything is in flames
This anxiety takes over, my happiness it proclaims.

Food bank bread is the bread that we broke when we were broke.
Food bank bread is the bread that helped me make the decision not to have food bank babies.

Fool me once shame on you
Fool me twice shame on me
Fool me three times shame on me
Fool me four times I lay bloodied & broken
Lingering wounds from your harsh words and hard fists
Trying to get a grip
Wondering why the **** I'm still here
Your apology seems so soft and sincere
I guess I'll just stay here
Shame on me

A seed from a different field, made its way into my plot
I decided to be its shield, I didn't give it a second thought

With beautiful petals much different than mine
Such vibrant colors I watched it shine
I watched it grow with the sun we shared
Other flora didn't understand why I cared

Ugly weeds tried to uproot her
Did I do something wrong, I couldn't know for sure
I just kept serenading her with my beautiful song

You are as calming as the rain
Your smile radiating through me like the sun
My branches strain, reaching for your embrace
Digging roots into my soul

Your love runs through my veins like a river
Finger tips as soft as petals
Your softest touch makes me quiver
Like the roaring ocean
My urge for you never settles

Embracing natures imperfection
Not knowing you would be my selection
Claiming my territory in your soul
from the day of my birth

My heart turned into a precious jewel
out of blackened coal from the immense pressure and heat of your love.

I hate the days when nothing excites me
Happiness is no where to be found
I feel robotic and doubt my existence
I wish this depression and anxiety weren’t so persistent.