I’m sorry for the things I’ve said or stupid stuff I’ve done,
But I truly never wanted to be your one gay son.
I know it can’t be easy to hear those words out loud,
But I know that you still love me and I hope I make you proud.
I couldn’t live a life where all I did was lie,
If I couldn’t be honest I think I’d sooner die.
To understand it fully, I’m still not at that stage,
But to still be in the closet was like being in a cage.
To love another guy, to me it don't make sense,
And so around my heart I built a little fence.
Although as time went on that fence became a wall,
Built of solid concrete standing ten feet tall.
I try to take it down to let a good guy in,
But it always ends in tears I simply cannot win.
Then it starts all over and you think you have found one,
Until he turns around and says that all he wants is fun.
You can’t help who you fall for, it’s not a simple choice,
It comes from deep inside you, this little niggling voice.
So if you are still hiding don’t just live in fear,
For a happy life is worth it, the price of life is too dear.
Those who stand and judge me, will never be my mates,
Laughing at the fact with guys I go on dates
Sure who really cares, we can’t all be the same,
It’s like we have thrown a dice in this life we call a game
So take a big deep breath, it will be ok in the end
Oh hey parents this isn't my college mate, he's actually my boyfriend.
Written to raise awareness of the difficulty of coming out