This secret life leads me astray,
I don’t need pity nor forgiveness,
For I cannot stop what I love to do,
The one I belong to on paper,
He cannot see my lies or tears,
Though every time he touches me,
I whisper your name.

In my dreams I belong to you,
Though I know what I do just isn’t right,
I’ve gotten good at pretending,
The virtues wife,
No one would suspect otherwise.

Self-loathing has become a close companion,
It is surprising what people are willing to endure,
Just to feel alive, even for a moment,
How much they would risk.

You’re my ***** secret,
But I love you so dearly,
In another life,
Maybe we can shine in the sun together.

The emptiness is crippling me now that you’re gone again,
You keep telling me soon, you’ll return to my side,
That it’s not over yet, we’ll keep spreading the sorrow together,

For you and I, there is no such thing as a happy ending,
I’d rather die than watch you recede though,
Although the tears keep falling, every second you’re away,
I’d wait eternity if it meant we could be as one.

Except if you keep me waiting so long beloved,
You might return to nothing but a pile of dust,
For without you, I’m slowly falling apart.

I was trying to decide what I liked about you,
10 months ago this sordid affair was birthed from our joined betrayal.
Through it all we both received more pain than pleasure,
Are we both just gluttons for punishment or is there a deeper meaning to it all?
I keep asking myself how long until it is over.. I’m so tired..
Why not walk away with what little pride is left…
It seems the more deplorable you are, the more you are beloved to me..
Let us not kid ourselves though, we both know we are going to be each other’s downfall,
It is only a matter of time, and in our world no one will be spared..
The truth is I love you, because you are ugly on the inside, just like me.

I never saw myself as the other women,
When entrapped in your embrace,
Your warmth enveloping me,
Telling me you're mine.

In my mind your wife was the other women,
The one who would never complete you,
Understand your darkness the way I do,
The one between us..

I watched you silently with her,
She smiled prettily as she held your child,
You almost seemed content in that moment..
I guess I really am the other women.

I often wonder if the stars control our fates,
Or whether we make our own paths.
The world is against us my love,
Perhaps hatred is all we deserve.
Our love fills even the gods with disgust,
Though we’re both still holding on.

They say what we have is a case of ‘the grass is greener’
Darling, how wrong they are,
All the grass surrounding you is dead.
We’re not destined to live in the light together.
It would only blind us.

In that forbidden moment,
When your soul brushed against mine.
It felt as if I had plunged into an abyss,
Surrounded by perpetual darkness.
For just a moment beloved,
You and I were all that ever had,
And ever will exist.

Our souls bound in a covenant,
Forever entwined.
I saw the universe in your eyes.
Nothing else mattered, in that moment,
I could have died in your arms.